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Blogs > TurnLock > All that I am

The Hermit Life for Me  

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401 posts
10/1/2006 6:48 am

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10/2/2006 7:58 pm
The Hermit Life for Me
Last week I talked about Audrey Murphy’s “To Hell and Back” and it was on AMC today. I watched and enjoyed the whole movie. I’m not good at describing things, so I won’t. It also made me miss my Killzone game. You see I’m a Killzone war hero. Watching the movie I saw just how well the game captured the battlefield and I was ready to start popping everything that moved, but alas no controller or Playstation.

I am pretty much bored out of my mind. I hurt my foot this week and walking was painful so I took some time off to heal. Today I had to stay with the maintenance people who replaced my heater with a heater/cooler unit. They took away my programmable thermostat. I want that back. Why would anyone want to manually control the heater?

I haven’t had sex for awhile and now that I’m living the hermit life, I’ve had a momentary thought about celibacy. Perhaps my life could be better by eliminating the one biggest distraction, Hey, I’m not talking about cutting it off. I am talking about refocusing my energies to my other interests.

Flashback, the last time I did this I went 30 days without sex and discovered that I had VD. Can’t see that happening this time around. I was so disillusioned by how, I felt like I was using women. A few had become attached and all I wanted was the sex that I had paid for. I felt like it was my fault that Korean women were becoming prostitutes.

Now the emotional baggage of lusting and not reaching fulfillment is counterproductive. I know the conditions that bring this on, I know this is normal and I know I don’t like this. I don’t want sexual desire to drive me. I have so many other directions to go and they are overlooked because, if I cannot negotiate the safe release of sperm, I can’t maintain a chain of thoughts.

The hermit life leads to getting fatter as my stationary role becomes more pronounced. Food could be an oral fixation, I’m not sure. I do know a trip to Hoffman Estates require a bag of sunflower seeds or I will go mad. I don’t even think about them at home or Oak Brook. I have gained weight since my last doctor’s visit and I can point to the cause with ease, cookies. This has also translated into an increase in blood sugar by 40 points. Being active burned the sugar and kept the points down. I haven’t done either.

Today it changes; I’m walking 1.6 miles today to go to the store for my salad ingredients and my last package of cookies are almost gone. I will have to walk every day to burn that sugar. I’ve got my crystal lite hard candy to replace my other candy. Getting sex off the mind will be hard, but thanks to “Railroad Tycoon”, “Diablo” and “Ages of Empire” I won’t think about it. Although the vampires in “Diablo” are kinda sexy, I can temporarily escape that sexual tension. I will try to will my lustful desires away, how did those Catholic Priest do that again?
amoldenough 77F
16422 posts
10/1/2006 11:53 pm

 TL--The hermit life is doable if you want to bad enough. It does seem like you have enough to do to keep your mind busy. Maybe you can limit your sexual thoughts for time away from work!!!!! Good luck.

There are some quite good sugar and fat free cookies out there. You do have to limit them, though. You can't eat the whole thing. Good luck with that, too.
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