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Titty Tuesday - I Am Not Normal!
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Titty Tuesday - I Am Not Normal! I Am Not Normal! Nothing shocking about that title, anyone who knows me would agree that I am not normal. I tend to come across as very normal. School teacher exterior, nympho interior! My life has been anything but normal and the truth is I like it that way. I like being different, unique and unusual. I like blazing my own path based on my non-normal needs and wants. My relationship with the Viking is built on this premise of non-normalcy. It’s a very healthy relationship in the sense that we are very self-aware, accepting, non-judgmental, open, honest and communicate well with each other. We each get our needs met in this relationship while understanding that all of our needs are not met by the other person. When we need something that the other doesn’t have we find ways to make that happen together. So what’s my problem you ask? Well ever since we decided to embark on this baby making endeavor I’ve been feeling a bit off kilter. I have no doubts that I want this. Of course there have been other factors like hormones, changes in plans I couldn’t control but I just couldn’t figure out what was bothering me aside from the obvious. Then yesterday it hit me. I have been fretting over whether this baby-making and the changes have rendered our relationship “normal”…gasping in horror. Our relationship has been built on the basis of our shared sexual exploration and goals. Now that we are baby making there is no sexual exploration apart from us and that scared me. I don’t want a normal relationship or normal roles. I also realized that I miss the excitement and interaction with our other partners and lifestyle friends. I was just getting used to having a male FWB and just starting to get to know him. I liked the Viking having his time with his fuck buddy and getting to hear about those escapades and reaping the sexual rewards from both. I miss the parties and clubs we went to before. Having a baby is such a normal progression for this non-normal relationship. I talked to my Viking about it last night. I know it’s an irrational fear because this is just a temporary hold until we are pregnant but it doesn’t change the feeling. He reassured me that he understood and that we would not become Mr. & Mrs. 2.5 and a white picket fence. He assured me that he missed the extra playtime too and that we would go back to it. We are reading a book on<b> open relationships </font></b>together. “Opening Up: A Guide to Creating and Sustaining Open Relationships” by Tristan Taormino. We each read a chapter and then discuss it and how it relates to us. I also bought a book on midlife mothering that I’m reading. We bought a fertility monitor to help us get pregnant sooner. It monitors estrogen and LH hormone levels to tell you your high fertility days and peak days of ovulation. I started the testing a couple of days ago and today started my high days of estrogen. I should be peaking in a few days. We’ve both been uncharacteristically not horny the last few days but that changed last night. We are theorizing that his hormone/pheromones are probably in sync with mine so that our sex drives match up to the peak times for fertility. Our plans for the New Year were again changed, as we thought might happen. This should be the last change. I flowed with the change and did not freak out this time. We are just adjusting things to fit this new plan and it will be fine. European travel will just be slightly delayed, baby making made easier and more visits to Lulu! Woohoo! We may even get to go to our 2nd Annual Corsets & Kilts event. I’m very excited. We had planned a girl’s weekend and estrogen fest for February but that will probably have to be postponed or at least the date moved with the new plans in place. I have been a very bad blogger buddy and not visiting my fellow bloggers nearly as often as I’d like. I missed last HNW; hope to get my act together for this week. Hell, I’m not writing nearly as much as I’d like but life has a way of taking priority. The important thing is that life is good, I’m happier than I’ve ever been and looking forward to what the future holds. I hope you are all having a great week. Take care and love each other well.  Kisses, LA    |
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Not normal but unique woman. Kisses
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11/21/2011 7:49 pm |
Very well written, I wish you love, luck and happiness.
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Boobies!  Sapere aude, cor ad cor loquitur. RaMbLiNgS oF a LoSt MiNd
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More visits to Lulu's! That's my favorite part of this post  ***
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You guys have such a great handle on your relationship, LeeAnn. I see nothing but the best for both of you and the family you are creating. Can I jazzle your baby's tum-tum? When it comes to sex, I need a STRONG connection. Otherwise, the page just keeps buffering and takes FOREVER to load...
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Glad to hear that you were able to get the issue out....hang in there LeeAnn...you are doing great...both of you are.... BehindMyBlues
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Aw, hell, LeeAnn. With all of the changes you're going through? Sounds like y'all are doin' jus' FINE!  Don't sweat it or fret it, babe. A lot of us crazies out here care about you and The Viking and only wish and pray for the best fer y'all. Seeya down the road a piece.  (No HNW pic? fuck... )  Si Vis Pacem Para Bellum Audentes Fortuna Iuvat Politicians. Lampposts. Assembly Required.
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Well it isn't a surprise that you would feel a bit off kilter. This is a big change for you guys. But just because your taking a lifestyle break now doesn't mean things wont go back to the way they were (or at least close too it) after the baby comes around.
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Well of course you're not normal. You couldn't possibly be. You are unique, beautiful and special. Plus you have great breasts...
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I am glad things are going well, and you know I am ridiculously jealous of the relationship you and Viking share. You are a great role model of how to make a relationship work--any kind of relationship--by being aware of each other, and self aware too. Kisses! Ur.Grrl.CC 
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