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An Attraction to Actors!
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An Attraction to Actors! I used get out, be around people and do stuff more often. But a few years ago I somehow got into a slump and have been stuck there for many years, and of course the pandemic has not helped matters one bit. I love the theater. I worked behind the scenes right out of high school and it was the most fun I ever had. It takes such team-work and I loved the actors and technicians. It has been over 25 years since I had last worked in theater, but I do love and miss it! In fact, about 7 years ago when I responded to an ad, I met an actor in a local play . He was closeted too, so it was a good start to have that very important thing in common. We chatted back and forth for several days and we were really hitting it off, discovering we had more and more things in common. So we decided to meet and hang out. I invited him over to my place, I fixed him a nice dinner, afterwards we played a few card games, then we watched a movie together. I was very attracted to him and what made my attraction even stronger was the fact that he was acting in a play here at the University of Alaska, Anchorage. He was telling me all about the play. I was so fascinated talking with him about what he did to help remember his lines, timing for going on stage, etc. He told me about a certain scene that was quite challenging to perform with certain props and having do it<b> barefoot </font></b>in a stream and stuff like that. Over the years when I would go to plays. I would imagine secretly dating one of the actors. And for it to finally be happening, I was so happy, happier than I had ever been. But he left after the movie and I did not hear from him for a few days, until he finally texted and said he thought I was a great guy, but did not feel a connection and was not interested in being friends. That depressed me so much. I thought I would never recover from that. Even still to this day it bothers me a lot, thinking how could I ever have that scenario in this lifetime and have it actually turn out the way I it to? I guess I have always been attracted to actors and to imagine secretly dating one where there is mutual attraction and compatibility, is difficult to describe how awesome that would be. Especially one like him with a loving demeanor and great sense of humor. I realize I could possibly spend the rest of my life searching and never finding. But I would rather do that than try to be with someone where my heart is not fully in it, and I certainly would not someone to settle for less than what fulfills their needs either. With that said, It is not necessary for me to date an actor, but it sure would be awesome if he was. I would most definitely be happy if I found someone where there was mutual attraction and compatibility right here in Anchorage. In addition to that, if he happened to be an actor that would just be an extra bonus. |
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