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Blogs > hotdreamer1000 > While I was Dreaming

Moth / Flame  

hotdreamer1000 64M
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10/21/2014 4:10 pm

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Moth / Flame

I suppose none of the people who would have understood this post are around any more, not many of them at least, but I am going to write it anyway because that's what this place is for isn't it. A kind of "If you write it they will come." (Ha haa, that reminds me of another kind of post I used to write. )

I'm not sure exactly what it is I am feeling. A mix of things probably. I'm watching The Lake House on TV as I write this. I wasn't sure if I ought to watch it again, but in the end I was always going to. I don't remember when I first saw it, but maybe it would have been around the time I was writing to Rose, so there will have been some memory of that in what I feel. I don't remember noticing this at the time, but of course it's a film about two people separated by something they can't bridge, writing to each other and falling in love. But also it's a film about second chances, a love strong enough to believe in a second chance. And you all know about me and second chances. Don't you?

So I'm watching it, and it's making me happy and sad both at the same time. (Or is that what I am like most of the time anyway and films like this just bring it to the surface?)

I spent part of today renovating some<b> vintage </font></b>equipment I bought at a collectors' fair. It reminded me of a conversation I had with a friend last week. He's a real craftsman, nationally well regarded in his trade. He couldn't understand the amount of time I had spent working on mending something. "You could have made a new one, and better, in the time you spent on that," he said.

I tried to explain: "It's about bringing something back to life, giving it a new purpose." A lot of my creative energy goes into things like that. Making things, doing something good with reject materials.

I love that bit in the film when she tells him she misses the trees and he goes out and plants one outside her house so it will have grown over the years and magically be there for her when she gets home. And when she sends him his father's book from the future. I love the way the belongs to both of them. (Or does it belong to the house? )

I don't know. Mostly I think I am happy. But at the same time, underneath I think there will always be things about me which need fixing. The things which are always looking for a second chance.

MyNameIsKay 62F  
11887 posts
10/21/2014 5:25 pm

 I do like that movie. Romance and a bit of magic. But it's how it makes me feel...it gives me hope. We all know that "hope" is my favorite word. The movies that move me the most are the ones that make me believe that it will all work out. "It" doesn't necessarily mean love, but just believing that Good always wins over Evil, everything always works out in the end, and everything happens for a reason...just knowing those things brings a smile to my face and calm to my heart. (And tears to my eyes...I can be a weepy mess at times.)

And you're right...I'm not one of the ones that really understands this post as it relates to you. But I'm glad you wrote it anyway.

When you put all that effort into mending something, I think it takes on a bit of your energy. It is compassion and hope for not giving up on things, whether it's something that you bought and repaired or it's your spirit that is looking for that silver lining. (I hope that made sense.)
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hotdreamer1000 64M
12409 posts
10/22/2014 1:24 am
    Quoting MyNameIsKay:
    I do like that movie. Romance and a bit of magic. But it's how it makes me feel...it gives me hope. We all know that "hope" is my favorite word. The movies that move me the most are the ones that make me believe that it will all work out. "It" doesn't necessarily mean love, but just believing that Good always wins over Evil, everything always works out in the end, and everything happens for a reason...just knowing those things brings a smile to my face and calm to my heart. (And tears to my eyes...I can be a weepy mess at times.)

    And you're right...I'm not one of the ones that really understands this post as it relates to you. But I'm glad you wrote it anyway.

    When you put all that effort into mending something, I think it takes on a bit of your energy. It is compassion and hope for not giving up on things, whether it's something that you bought and repaired or it's your spirit that is looking for that silver lining. (I hope that made sense.)
We share the same liking for those kind of films Kay. Thanks for commenting - the bit about not understanding was really just because I wrote a lot of stuff when I first blogged here (eight years ago now ) about how I had a constant underlying regret which preyed on my mind. But it is quite complicated and connected to and overlaid with other things too, and I didn't want to be boring today's readers (or breaking my flow of thoughts lol ) by reposting about fifteen other background posts first!

In any case, in many ways writing here really did help me get all that into perspective, and I am much more contented now than I was then. But sometimes films like The Lake House bring something back to the surface I think. I'm not even sure it's the same something anymore, but I just had the urge to write it down. Thanks for your very kind comment - it makes sense to me, and I'm glad you are reading.


hotdreamer1000 64M
12409 posts
10/22/2014 11:09 am
    Quoting PeterWasted:
    I don't watch many films and hadn't heard of that one!

    Second, third or more chances are really what life is made of. Some granted, others not. I find it helps to just keep the possibilities alive even when they are remote.

    Mending and re-using often does take more effort and more original thought than making from new.

    I'm guilty of laziness and of going for the new when I should mend even though I know that things I've mended, repay my efforts much more.
You are dead right - mending does take more effort, in all things. Sometimes new is better though, but you have to be willing to let the old thing die, and I don't like doing that. And that isn't really a comment about relationships, although it just as well could be!


tigger678902 57F  
4545 posts
10/22/2014 10:22 pm

 I didn't really care for that film myself, more about the actor and the overall premise, While I love those movies where love wins out over seemingly insurmountable odds the time travelling mailbox was a bit much for me,...and I'm not a mr reeves fan. It sounds a bit funny though to say that about the mailbox because one of my favourite book series features time travel and I'm quite OK with that, perhaps because the story is so well written and I love the characters so much the time travel seems incidental.

Second chances are wonderful so long as they are warranted, and the greater part of wisdom for me is knowing when something is worth the effort of reparation vs replacement. Often it boils down to a skill set question, I'm just not that handy so many things need to be replaced because they are beyond me. And all of this applies to both material goods and relationships.
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hotdreamer1000 64M
12409 posts
10/23/2014 2:46 pm
    Quoting tigger678902:
    I didn't really care for that film myself, more about the actor and the overall premise, While I love those movies where love wins out over seemingly insurmountable odds the time travelling mailbox was a bit much for me,...and I'm not a mr reeves fan. It sounds a bit funny though to say that about the mailbox because one of my favourite book series features time travel and I'm quite OK with that, perhaps because the story is so well written and I love the characters so much the time travel seems incidental.

    Second chances are wonderful so long as they are warranted, and the greater part of wisdom for me is knowing when something is worth the effort of reparation vs replacement. Often it boils down to a skill set question, I'm just not that handy so many things need to be replaced because they are beyond me. And all of this applies to both material goods and relationships.
I can see how the mail box thing might not work for everybody!

I agree - it can be hard to decide whether repair is worth it, but I suppose I just like trying anyway. And it is a good way to expand your skill sets. I often have to learn how to do something new when I am trying to revive something I love which is almost beyond economic repair .

Probably applies to relationships too, lol.


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