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So Much For My Candy Apple Red Convertable
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So Much For My Candy Apple Red Convertable Ok, so my crawling back to this place occurred a lot sooner than anticipated. In fact, the majority of this post was written the very next day after I so publicly departed from this site in Not Quite Atomic Detonation, But. My intent was to wash my hands of this blogging thing for at least a few months while I spread my wings out in the real world but circumstances made it so that my return to writing would happen sooner rather than later. I saved this post on my desktop for nearly a month so that I could maintain at least some of my valor, and in coming back to it, I realized that a lot has happened in my time off. The original feel of it doesn’t quite match my current situation, but there is some good writing there. So instead of deleting the old post entirely, I added to it, so know that if anything here feels stormy, brooding and poetic, it was written nearly a month ago and if anything feels optimistic and inspiring, it was written just now. A few hours after I wrote that parting post about figuratively driving off into the sunset in a candy apple red convertible and experiencing real life for awhile, my girlfriend figured it was a good time to go our separate ways. Yes, the very same girlfriend I made such a big deal about in posts Behind The Rise And Fall Of Every Man And Empire and Nothing Short Of Eerie Magic. I wrote it to spend more time with her, so this definitely falls under the category of ironic timing, wouldn’t you say? I guess that’s what I get for making the relationship so public but it was mutual, really. I felt the same way. Some birds feathers are too bright and pretty to be caged for too long and admittedly we’re both a couple of rare, unusual birds. We figured it was best to fly the coop early while we can still remain lifelong friends and so far we’ve kept up with that end of the bargain. We hugged warmly at her apartment that morning after breaking it off and was probably the most meaningful embrace we’ve ever had. With a smile and a wink, I headed out into the pouring rain with a head full of bittersweet memories and hopped onto the bus from her ‘hood to mine. Getting off the bus downtown, my apartment was still about eleven blocks uphill. Rain had turned to hail and it wasn’t a good day to walk…for most, anyway. The bus transfer in my hand would have taken me there warm, dry, and safe but I was thinking about all the down and out musicians, poets, and beatnik writers I adore so much…the ones who write and sing about loves gained and lost and taking the bus home just didn’t seem right. So twirling my peacock green umbrella into the driving rain, I skipped home and jumped in puddles and thought about how beautiful and unpredictable life can be. I wouldn’t have had it any other way. I’m now without the girlfriend I made such a big deal about but I wouldn’t go reserving your plane tickets to come out and see me just yet. Lets just say the wheels of fate have its means of spinning its uncanny magic in ways I’ll probably never understand. I guess Seattle winter with its legendary rain is no time to drive off into the unknown in a candy apple red convertible whether it be figuratively or not. I’ve learned quickly that Seattle winter is a better time to hunker down indoors and write some stories, which is exactly what I have done. I’ve had an amazing creative spike, in fact, which is refreshing as I left you all nearly a month ago empty and void of any inspiration at all. My month off had awarded me some pretty good ideas including…a story of a who ruins family dinner for his Jewish mother and a guy who is a big shot at the sperm bank. Both are heartwarming tales I’m sure we can all relate to. I have almost a dozen stories fully written or nearly so, including a whole set of crass horoscopes that are slotted to go off without a hitch as planned on the first of January. Also, as I am more than 20 lbs. lighter than I used to be, I figured this to be a good time to take a whole set of new profile pictures, so be sure to check them out. Also, another reason for coming back sooner than planned is most of everything I wanted to do while away I’ve already achieved. I finished reading quite a few books, played some video games, and I also joined a writing group…well, sort of. I read [post 441634] out loud to a group of strangers and let me tell you…I was scared SHITLESS! If you haven’t read that post, give it a gander and you’ll understand why it was such a scary endeavor. I knew I would be the odd duck in the room, even before they all started reading their own material about gardening and cushy chairs. What made it even worse was it was a forum where no one could say a word…they couldn’t critique, nor comment on anything so I left there not knowing what anyone thought. We were encouraged to email each other privately later if we were interested and I only received two emails from those folks so I figured the rest wasn’t interested in reading any more of my kick-in-the-nuts satirist style. That’s ok, the two that contacted me were the two I liked best, anyway. I’ll also be entering some works in local competitions where there are big cash prizes should I win. So I guess my candy apple red convertible that was going to figuratively take me off into the sunset turned out to be a brown ’73 Plymouth Duster with body rot, rust, a broken headlight, no heat and four worn out tires. There must have been plenty more wrong with it as it stalled at the first stop light never to move again. That’s ok, I left the figurative map of Future Prosperity at home so I had no idea where I was going anyway. It’s a fitting story to my brand of humor, wouldn’t you say? I’m coming back to you all with this post only to leave you again…but know that its only because I’m flying out to the East coast to see my friends and family for the holidays and not due to another creative dry spell. I will return just in time to post the crass horoscopes and that’s a promise. For all those who commented while I was away, I thank you and your presence was known and appreciated. I also want to thank all of you who kept in contact with me while I was away (you know who you are) and for those who didn’t…well, I’m here now. While I understand that there is nothing like disappearing for a month to get you eliminated from everyone’s hotlists, I wanna know who is still with me. I said, who is still with me? Love me or hate me, leave your mark here. Comment well and the monumental comment prize competition may just come sooner, rather than later. Happy holidays to you all…I’ll see you on the other side.  |
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12/19/2006 1:54 am |
Hey you better be lettign me take those dirty I mean new profile shots for you. My way of saying I've been the coolest of friends.....NOT! But in any case it is funny hotw timing has a way of always being off sometimes doens't it? `Velvet Hell is when u should have walked away, but u didn't.
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_____I shall be honored to stand with you, Sir. All hail! The King (That's you.) has returned! /// Seems like you left out another "positive". Are you avoiding jinxing yourself?
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Well, it's about damned time you swallowed your pride and came back. You've been hanging out with those people at "The Brick Testament" while you were gone, weren't you?
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12/19/2006 4:36 am |
You and LT and Keithers...no matter how few and far between the posts at times {same with Joe} stay on my watched list, silly legoforbrains! 
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who else makes me feel like our friendship is special. just remember to keep that smug attitude, even if the photos are all GQ... Your writing continues to be above the norm and brings this varied audience to its feet... And remember when a door closes... a window always opens. dont give up without a fight... tender hugs, darlin.... ...m.
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12/20/2006 4:06 am |
Better connected? I just read more blogs probably!  LT is Lusty Taurus, Keithers is KeithCanCook {etc.}, and Joe is FastFifties, goober! Y'all are all 'cream of the crop' bloggers along with some others; those came to mind when you did.You putting a pic up of the "sweet little red '56 corvette", legos I assume?
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Well damn, and I was just posting on some killer airfare rates  My favorite part of this post is imagining you reading your stuff, in a typically cool retro shirt and proper encoutremonts, to a group of middle of the roadish home garden writers. Gawd, I love that image.... even if I made up that word up there. Yeah, I'm still [blog 1hotwahine]
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12/22/2006 4:02 pm |
I'll second what Wahine said up there about you in that group of "proper" writers. Although I picture it more like you being a lone slice of pumpernickel sitting in a roomful of Wonderbread. I have a magical vehicle similar in spirit to your '73 plymouth Duster only its a thrashed AMC Pacer that looks like its been through a war and is painted now with primer only. Looking forward to your new material. PS: will you see craptoast on your trip eastward?
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12/22/2006 4:05 pm |
And congrats on slimming up! I remember when you first asked for suggestions on achieving that. Sounds like you found the right advice.
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HEY Buddy!!...have a great holidays and it's great to 'see' you!!..
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What can I say "sometimes life sucks",I guess that's when you should blow!!!   Hope everything works out in the end,it good to hear your writers block is gone.Hope you had a good Christmas and have a great 2007.Later AtomicRAWHIDE
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