Reset Password
Reset Link Sent
| Blogs > whoisagentj > The Dossier of Agent J |
Why I just want ONE woman...
|
Why I just want ONE woman... Ok well, I am lying here, I would love two or three all at once, just ONE time. I don't know if I could ever handle a WMW or a WWWM situation, but man that would be fun to try...just once. But back to why I seriously would love to have one solid woman to be with... A little while back, I was involved in an open relationship with someone who was polyamorous. We started to get involved for a bit, and over some time, I developed feelings for her. However, I never got to interact with her main man, and over time, I felt as time when on, I was treated as "the other guy". Or the "break in case of loneliness" type of guy. Now, I never experienced this before, and to be blunt and honest here, I have always have tried to be with one woman at a time. The only time I wasn't when my marriage was completely on the rocks and I confided with other women. (Yes, I cheated. Not physically during the marriage, but mentally and emotionally on my wife, and yeah, it was wrong, I know this, but I felt that there was nothing left in the marriage when my wife showed little to no emotion within our marriage. But that's for another discussion.) Anyway, back to the topic at hand. After a while, while I felt something for her, she however did not feel the same for me. And after some time, she developed another relationship with yet a third man. And that man took over, and she no longer had time for me. So we faded apart, and I haven't spoken to her since. See, I know how women feel when other guys are involved with other women and there is no love reciprocated between them. I know that if I honestly could find that one special person, I would devote myself and my full time to her, if I found the RIGHT woman. But for now, I have no one. I know no one likes to be alone. Being lonely does hurt, and we all need someone. But it doesn't fully define me. It's taken me a while, but I can honestly say I do love myself, but I am searching for that one special someone that can help me fulfill my life and that we can share our lives together. I don't need a bunch of women for one night stands. Or a couple of women to date. If I could find that one special someone, that's all. But I've done an open relationship. And being involved with someone that's married, well...that's tricky as hell. While I am not opposed to<b> open relationships </font></b>or being polyamorous, I just know it's not for me. I care too much about being with the people I am with. And I think...I'm greedy. I would need to be alone with that person. I don't think I could ever do a relationship with a man and a woman, because I'd be two greedy. And I think if it was the other way around, being involved with two women...well I know it might be fun for a bit, but I know deep in my heart, I'd probably favor one over the other and it might cause for a lot of drama down the road, which is most definitely what I do not need in my life right now. Nope, I'm greedy. I just need that one special someone to devote myself with and that person could be with me. Now...I just got to FIND her. THAT's the problem. LOL! Ok, that's all I got for now. Thanks for reading. And hey...you got two blogs in one for today! BONUS for you! Who can you call on to save the day? Why none other than... Agent  |
||||
|
My luck, the woman I'm searching for lives in Tahiti. You see, if she is functional, - not dysfunctional- and she is looking for you, that means you're doing something right for yourself. This is important. If she is dysfunctional, like you are at the moment, then that is bad. Now you're dependent on each other to function each day, and that is bad. You are priority ONE! Fix your life, improve yourself, and they will come. Then if you still just want one,.... you choose, but not the dysfunctional women. That's the key, be the cheese. Sure you can fly to Tahiti , like the giggling girl mentioned, and you would find plenty of women you would want, but you would still need to be the man she [any of them] would want. .........and you're not there yet. So if you do go to Tahiti..... don't look for the women, just enjoy the sun, enjoy the sights, exercise daily and don't try to pickup any women.... go there to get sun and work on your mental and physical health.
| |||
|
To start with, you didn't do anything wrong within your marriage. She turned off the nourishment , and you sought another source of nourishment. As you said, we're human, so human's need to be nourished.... Okay...you keep mentioning finding someone and devoting to one....that's fine, but you're not ready yet. You need to devote time and betterment to your self , health and welfare, first. Back to what your said, " ..I am searching for that one special someone that can help me fulfill my life and that we can share our lives together. ".... You have to fulfill your own life first. You have to be the one women seek. Then you share your life with a woman , who also has her act together..... See.. you need to have your act together as well. You want to avoid "Dysfunctional", as best as you can.
| |||
|
My luck, the woman I'm searching for lives in Tahiti. Who can you call on to save the day? Why none other than... Agent
|
Become a member to create a blog
