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Quick Reflections
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Quick Reflections As the days tick by of December of 2020, I find myself rather depressed. I just can't seem to shake this all alone feeling, though I have family and friends that I talk to on the phone and I get to see my grandkids, I miss my old man, my husband. I miss the naughty, nasty fun that we enjoyed for most of the 20 years we were together. I'm trying to put that all in its place and move forward with my life. I'm getting there but I'm finding it a slow process. I am disappointed that the high school boyfriend hasn't worked out. We still text but it has become a deadend. I can't help but wondeer why, why doesn't he want to rekindle this friendship to a full blown sexual friendship. Probably best I don't know and I have made myself promise to not waste any more time trying to figure it all out or whatever in the hell my mind takes me. I did contact a guy that I had an exchange with on this site. I even went so far as to request to check out his physical attributes live and in person. That was kind of a fleeting desire because life happens and I'm busy with my family and grandkids. And the reality is that my sexual attention span is super short these days. Why should I bother with a live and in person man with a hard cock when I can take care of any tingling between my legs within a few minutes and get back to my many projects??? I like the thought of putting this man on my<b> massage </font></b>chair and making his cock as hard as I can. I even like the thought of working his cock with my hands until I make him beg to let him cum...but other than that, I have no desire to allow this man to explore my "stats" or in other words, explore my naked body, especially my pussy!! The more I've thought about it this week, the scenario of inviting this guy over, having him get naked and then putting him on a bed or on the<b> massage </font></b>chair, I like all that, making him hard, teasing him until he explodes in his orgams, but after that, I want him to leave. I don't want to provide the same opportunity to explore and experience me. I am chalking this mindset up to me not wanting to put forth any more effort than is absolutely necessary. The lazy mindset, which it really isn't me being lazy, its me being particular. I don't want to put myself out there, I want to play to the extent that I want to play and that's all. Then I miss least-favorite-submissive because he sort of got this mindset of mine. He would have loved to have spent more time in my company but he served his purpose, he submitted to my whims and whimsey and then be on his way. We both got what we wanted out of that arrangement. I don't want someone that wants me to subject myself to what they want...I'm selfish right now. Who knows if that will evolve into a more equal type of sexual encounters but right now, that's the extent of what I want, I want to have my way and send the guy on his way. I'm waiting for my new LELO sex toy to arrive. It is supposed to suck my clit and provide all manners of amazing pleasure. Have a great week ahead and stay safe!!! Pleasure's a sin, and sometimes sin's a pleasure... - Lord Byron, Don Juan |
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You lost your hubby and LFS within a short time span so you likely need to heal. I don't think TOO many men would complain about being made to amuse you / used as your sex toy, then sent marching, but maybe that is just my mind set. Playing With Myself You Gotta Wonder Holiday Festivities, on HNW [post 3312759] My Private Blog - Tell Me ALL Your Secrets
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