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Sex, aspirin, married men.
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Sex, aspirin, married men. I came on here to meet men, mainly to<b> meet men </font></b>to have sex. If I happened to meet a man who would be more than a fuck or a blow job, great. As a matter of fact I have met one man with whom I hope to be a friend for a long time. I don't think that relationship will involve sex, and that is okay. I have met a couple of men whom I fucked or let fuck me and I was unhappy with my decision. Part of that unhappiness had do do with not being physically satisfied and part of that unhappiness had to do with me learning that my boundaries needed to be a little different physically than what I had allowed. I met another man on here who really surprised me... I think I learned that some men like to talk about sex more than they like to DO. That was a frustrating, but educational experience. I met another man on here recently and we seemed to hit it off really well. I think we match in intelligence, which is important to me. I think we could be compatible sexually, especially if we kept practicing. We have things to talk about and I think some common interests. When we have been together or talked on the phone he was often the one who spoke in future tense. So maybe I began to have expectations...but that was not my intention when beginning... I have taken to calling this Adult Fuck Finder instead of the real name! Tonight he said I am just using sex for "aspirin" and it is not really what I want, that he could have sex with me every night and I still would not be getting what I want. Well maybe true... Sometime in my life I would like to have a long term partner and companion. Right now, however, I just want to stay in this location long enough to get my through school, pay off some debts, get my house ready to sell and then move to New Mexico! I am not ready to "be with" anybody unless he would share my long term goals. So right now I just want some aspirin to ease the pain! Is that wrong? I have discovered that one night stands are wrong for me... so yeah, I do want someone who can be a regular partner, also include some conversation, a lot of great sex and help me discover some new skills and boundaries and all kinds of yummy things. I did not come here expecting to meet a life partner or a husband! When I have a headache I take medicine. It makes it feel better. I long for the day when some doctor discovers what causes migraines and they are totally prevented, until that day I will medicate as necessary to improve my quality of life. I have had mixed feelings about fucking married men. Several of them have contacted me. Part of me says it's not my problem if their marriage is bad or they don't get enough sex. The other part of me is closely observing a friend currently going through a bitter divorce with a broken heart because of a cheating husband. Her husband, however, fell "in love." He didn't just have a few fucks and move on. Maybe married men who just don't get enough sex are my answer. A married man who is just looking for some physical satisfaction and some affection might just fit the bill. I could get my dose of "aspirin" until the time is right for me to look for a long-term partner and companion. He could get a partner ready to learn, somewhat submissive and very eager to learn to please. And part of this is written from frustration right now, sexually AND emotionally. I am often easily and highly aroused and I would like to be satisfied. I have a vibrator now (with fresh batteries) so I can have a good orgasm or two anytime I want. It's just not the same as really being with a man. Emotionally I am frustrated because I feel like I didn't have the expectations even just a couple of weeks ago, then sexual and other types of activities were discussed in future tense and it was easy to follow along...Right now my future tense is this weekend and that's all I am going to talk about. Why does it have to be so hard sometimes? Also a question maybe, if anybody really reads this - Is it common for a man to really, really like to talk about sex and specific activities and then not really want to do anything? That was a really strange experience for me. |
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8/16/2008 3:16 pm |
I contacted you once before and I am married. You told me to watch your blog because you were not sure about married men. Well it appears that maybe you are at the point where you don't mind so send me a mail if you want. By the way the comment by the other woman on your blog about men rarely cheat because of not getting enough sex at home is simply not true. This is often the case and is definitely the case for me.
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