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last week So where should I start? Let's start with last Wednesday. I've been busy since then. Thursday night: First, I met up with the Boy Toy. These last 2 times have been the first he's been able to get me off going down on me, which ROCKS (usually we use toys). we tried at least one position that was new to both of us - that surprised me because I thought he was really experienced based on his talent. I didn't think there were any positions he hadn't tried. The look on his face after he got off, he just had this amazed happy look on his face, eyes wide and bright, big smile... I LOVE that expression! (Should mention that Boy Toy and I are fluid-bonded. We're close like that. Doesn't mean I don't think he's lying when he says he isn't sleeping with anyone else - it's man's nature, even though he hears about the other guys I'm with. But he's the only one I have 'naked' sex with.) Second, PSG called me later that night for phone sex. We've never had sex in person, we never talk on the phone when we aren't having phone sex, and we only rarely chat on IM where it doesn't lead to phone sex. We have cyber-foreplay and then we talk on the phone. We have met only once in person. He rarely talks to me about his real life (except when he & his girlfriend broke up, and then I crushed on him HARD). The phone sex is something totally separate from our real lives. It's a sort of vacation from reality, definitely adult playtime. It started because he was horny or needy and I was around and amenable. We got that clear the next day when we talked about it on IM. I told him that's what I thought was going on and I was cool with that, and he said yeah, he didn't want to SAY to me that I just happened to be handy, but I said not to worry, I get it. I try not to think I'm a bigger part of his life than just that. It's not a regular thing at all. We can go weeks without it. I'm not sure we've ever done it as often as twice in a week. We have been very clear it is NSA and separated from the rest of our lives. The conversations go some very strange sensual places, things I would never have even thought to fantasize about, but they can get intense. Even though it's no-strings attached and either of us could quit at any time (yeah, sure), these shared intense experiences bring us together by their very nature. Of course we're closer than we were when we were near strangers - we've shared fantasies and at least heard one another orgasm, even though we haven't done it in the same place, if not made one another orgasm. It reminds me of my experiences with the Teacher. We were determined not to get emotionally attached, but when you have these intense shared experiences which at least sometimes include orgasm, it's tough not to get attached. These times are more than just regular sex. I have no trouble sleeping with someone and never getting emotional or attached, even if the sex is the best ever. I've done it a ton of times, more than I can count. But when you get into bondage,<b> dominance and submission </font></b>like I do with Teacher, or the wild intense fantasies like I do with PSG, there's more involvement than just sex. You have to get a little emotionally invested. It heightens the intensity of the whole experience. Sadly, I haven't seen my Teacher in months. Life gets in the way. That's it for the past week. I've IMd a lot with other guys but that's all the sex I had. I'm supposed to meet the Boy Toy again for more fun. XD We were supposed to hook up Monday but it got cancelled. I've told him before I do not entertain late at night. But it's Friday, I took a several-hour nap earlier tonight, and I'm feeling both lonely and horny, so I said sure, come over. I need human contact - preferably NAKED human contact. XD |
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