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what's a girl to do? 2 issues.... Around this time last year, I told you all about a guy that I went to high school with who lives local whom I hooked up with. (Please note the past tense on that). Anyway, this guy's family and mine are long time friends. In fact, when my mom passed, this guy's mom was really close to me, making sure that I didn't get bombarded with alot of people during her wake. I do remember one weird conversation she had with me regarding her , and I got the impression that she wanted us to get a little more serious. I laughed it off, but I have noticed that when he and I talk, he is calling me sweetie, darling, baby, etc. Normally that wouldn't bother me, but when it goes from darling to MY darling, the red flags start to get thrown on the field. Side bar, the reason I stopped seeing him was that the sex was bad. He is<b> skilled </font></b>orally, and hung, but he didn't make much noise in bed, and every time I went over there, the sex got shorter and shorter - oh, and I never had an orgasm. In fact, the last time I slept with him, the whole fucking act lasted 3 minutes. It started with him saying "here we go" and ended when he got up to toss the condom and clean up. Then to add insult to injury, when he got back into bed, he picked up his laptop and started chatting with someone on facebook. I really felt used, so I made up an excuse that I was seeing someone so he would stop calling me. But stupid me told him last week that that me and the mystery man broke up (stupid me). So now, whenever I get on fb, this guy is begging for me to come over, so he can "hold me." At 1am, there is only so much holding of a person that you are going to do. 2 nights ago, I had an aggrevating conversation with a guy regarding marriage and monogamy, and as soon as that conversation ended, this other guy pops online asking me to come over, at 1:40am - booty call. But he got mad at me when I told him it wasn't worth my time to come over there for us to fuck and him to either roll over and go to sleep or get on the computer. He was like "I have never fucked you, and you have only spent one night." I had to remind him that I have spent 4 nights there, and one time, he left me there because he had an early morning flight to Houston. The next day, I felt bad about snapping at him and apologized. Today, he is begging for me to come over again. I told him that today wasn't good (for more reasons than the obvious), and that we needed to talk about "this" but it had to wait until next week. The conumdrum is that IF I was the gold-digging type, I would so play him because he is loaded - the Daytona house is his 2nd house, the main one is in Houston (thus, why he was going there). I come from a small town, and he and I would be a classic "power couple." But the sex is horrible and I just can't see myself getting involved with someone like him. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ The other reason I was not going over there today was that Mr Princess Treatment paid me our monthly visit. 2 hours of being dicked down by my perfect lover. I am sore, and still walking funny. Oh, and the 8 month guy caught a different flight and didn't have his Orlando layover, so who knows when we will ever cross paths again. Anyway, on one of our breathers (I know he made me cum at least 6-7 times today), he told me that he wasn't sharing his dick with anyone else... In that moment, I froze for a split second; for what seemed like an eternity. I couldn't say the same thing to him, but at that moment, I wanted to BE able to say that back to him. My mind raced going thru the short list of who all I have slept with, and other than the 8 month guy, Mr P.T. is the only other person I have slept with since late October. I couldn't respond or reply, so I just started sucking him. I totally bitched up!! I am actually confused with myself. Lately, I have said to a few friends that I think I am ready to slow all of this down. But with this particular man, he and I are slightly in 2 different places in our lives. I do eventually want to settle down and have (one day), whereas, he has grown and grandkids. I KNOW am making too much of this. But we are planning a 5 day vacation next month (provided that I am not gainfully employed). No work, just me and him and a hotel room in a far away town for some fun, food and lots of frolicking. I can't wait. Even if nothing ever changes with Mr P.T., I have enjoyed every minute of this. |
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Thanks luv. I'm not confused about him. I know that it is over. Its funny though, we just got done chatting. He started the conversation asking to come over for sex. Now he is angry I told him all I wanted was his friendship at this point in time, he is a "detailed-oriented person" so my reasoning doesn't make sense to him. But yet, he just admitted that he has been seeing one of my former professors since Sept - like that was going to make a difference...although earlier in the conversation, he demanded to know why "we" couldn't be more. Anyway, I told him that he was foul.
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