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I Finally Learn  

xdrearydancerx 35F
629 posts
6/25/2021 12:10 am
I Finally Learn

So I went a bad date yesterday. Boy, I didn't have one of those in a while. I sure miss them. lol Well, it wasn't exceedingly bad but I know he does not want see again. I would describe it as a typical bad date with a lot of awkward silences and no chemistry. I mean he was cute and and all that but not for me. It was sweet that he told me that I'm gorgeous and can't believe I'm 32. At least he wanted to meet me. Besides looks, too bad I am a big zero. lol

Anyway, we talked on Hinge and we decided meet for drinks. And I dunno, something about that bar that night made me feel uncomfortable. It was so crowded that I was sitting and he was standing. I was sitting behind this huge fat guy also. So it was a weird feeling be there. I think the date was ruined with the first five minutes. He must have found cold and boring. Since no booths were clearing , I told him I just wanted to go outside and walk somewhere. So we just went to another bar down the street. I don't know why this guy chose to sit at the bar instead of a table or booth. There were plenty available. Maybe he was uncomfortable me and didn't wanna sit face to face? And why didn't I tell him I wanted to sit at a table?

For about an hour we sat at the bar having an inconsistent and awkward conversation. It wasn't THAT bad but it wasn't good either. There were some laughs and lame jokes. But were many awkward long silences. LOL I just feel so disappointed in myself that I couldn't talk to him. I think I just panic when I sense anything is going wrong, which makes me more nervous and quiet. Like this guy was probably too "normal" for me but still could have had a good time with him. Like he told me was a manager at Target before. Why didn't I ask him about his funny work stories? I work in retail and can relate to that kind of thing. Why didn't I talk to him about this and that? I just felt so embarrassed. But even if I was holding a good conversation, a lot of good dates go nowhere anyway. Also, he might have been turning his nose at because I have not accomplished as much as him and he is<b> younger </font></b>than . So talking enough would be irrelevant. At the end of it he coldly said "until next time." I am used men who are not interested in me, giving me vague and generic good byes but why did he choose that one?

At least now I learn something. When I remember past dates I see the same problem. They ask me out because they are attracted me but things don't go nowhere because of my personality. At the end of the day, you're not going have a boyfriend because of your pretty face and big boobs. This is not going keep anyone's interest. I used think I had so much trouble in dating because of my looks, but I see that isn't true now.

powercaps716 67M  
83116 posts
6/25/2021 2:32 pm

 ok first what happened to the guy in your other post ? is that finish or is this new date something else , well it seem like the night out was doomed from the beginning, nothing in common and no connection with the conversation, so now your beginning to learn a lesson. but don't give up.  there is still hope  and you will find the love you seek.


xdrearydancerx replies on 6/25/2021 5:34 pm:
The guy from the last post stopped talking to me. I knew he would do that!! I think he was a closeted gay. It's weird because we were making out!! But yeah, this was a new guy. First and last date!!

powercaps716 67M  
83116 posts
6/26/2021 4:36 am
    Quoting powercaps716:
    ok first what happened to the guy in your other post ? is that finish or is this new date something else , well it seem like the night out was doomed from the beginning, nothing in common and no connection with the conversation, so now your beginning to learn a lesson. but don't give up.  there is still hope  and you will find the love you seek.
ok lesson learn and move on, don't feel bad , just say next. lol


xdrearydancerx 35F
297 posts
6/26/2021 12:19 pm

 Yeah, I learn every time and never get it right!! I just felt really embarrassed with this guy!! He must have thought I sounded so stupid and boring. I'm not that boring....I just can't talk. LOL


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