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Weekly News Damn this week has been a busy one. So I'm playing a little bit of catch up here JJ finally made a appearance back into my life, Last week, ( with a 2 weeks absence)no explanation presented as to his disappearance only a promise that he wouldn't do it again. Ha.( this is yet to be proved) The mixed messages with him are crazy. He doesn't want anything to serious, or with romantic attachment. ( all good with me) But then we will have a great day like saturday with long phenomenal conversation and he is asking me to blow off my plans just so we can do the snuggle thing. This time I didn't do it. I had plans to head to the Rocky Mountain Mardi Gras. JJ isn't revolving his life around me so I am damned if I am going to drop plans for him( or at least I'm trying not to) Mardi Gras had it's ups and downs( was a better time then I have had at previous parties)My girl Nay was supposed to go with me and be my dance partner, but at the last minute she bailed so I was solo. Some people look at me and wonder how I can do this and I have to admit it's not easy always being the single girl walking in alone, but it is something I am getting better at and honestly I would prefer to go solo as a single then with a date who was expecting play. I was actually dreading attending and di come close to caving in and heading over to JJ, as My M started calling me to let me know he was in town and wanted to hook up at the party. This was the first tim I was going to see him with out the wife in the back ground. But even with out her present the gossip mill was still around us. We did have a hour reunion talking and getting reacquainted and it was BITTER SWEET, but not as bad as I had imagined it to be. All the times I avoided events because I just didn't want to see him and deal with the hurt. I could actually look at him and have my heart not bleed.. and wish him well. The Jackal was in the house and she made her presence know by planting lies in his ear, damn that girl will do anything to try and cause drama. My only saving grace is I know in the end she will get all she deserves. I am not the only casualty she has caused and one day someone will give her back all that she has done. Playboy was working so at least wasn't faced with seeing them together. H and I are no longer talking she did all that she set out to do and though it hurts I also don't need anyone in my life who would fall so easily for her lies. Mr. Yummy was there, we exchanged a few kisses through out the night.( It was Mardi Gras after all. lol) Actually he was the only guy I kissed that night.. But I did a lot of Kissing so as usual you know where my game landed.( What can I say women love me) And I walked out with enough<b> beads </font></b>that I am surprised I wasn't bent in half. I promised JJ that very time I flashed someone or made out with a girl I would send him a picture.. needless to say I think he got a lot of damn pictures that night. St Patric's day itself was a complete blur of dancing and alcohol, went out with a new guy and had some no stress fun. Told you I'm trying not to wrap my life around JJ, he was spending the day with his Bro and made no attempt to include me in his plans (though the day before he just had to see me.) Lol Oh well.. JJ hasn't exactly disappeared but he is not exactly present either. we continue to play our game of show and tell. The things he talks me into and the picture he sends me, DAMN.. I have never been so turned on. But the pictures taken from work are getting more risky so I am gonna have to curb them. Lol( Being a exhibitionist is on thing but losing my job quite another, plus I'm pretty sure the security guy has busted me a few times on camera, as he has started chatting me up, and giving me this weird look.) JJ did come over this last Monday after work( 1 am) for a late night bootie call ( My idea)and end up spending the night. Now this was not the plan, but is not something that bothers me in the slightest. Strangely I feel completely comfortable in his arms and truthfully sleep better then I ever have. I woke up a few times and tried to remind him he wanted to go home but he was pretty comfy where he was. Until the next morning that is! then some how his falling asleep is my fault. It is things like this that will always confuse me about men. He, doesn't sleep well either and both times he has been over he has slept like a brick.. That should be a good thing, right? so why the hell does it piss him off so much? He left that morning pissed off, and honestly I was expecting for him to go silent on me again, but he kept his promise and we continued to text through the night, and then blam the disappearing act. I let it go and didn't stress, instead choosing to gave him his space. He warned me ahead of time this week was gonna be crazy busy for him, and he was actually working one of his days off, so I just let it slide and trusted that he would contact me (we were set for a special date today.) The date didn't happen.. A disappointment to be sure, but not the end of the world this time as it has been in the past. He did at least finally text and tell me he couldn't make it, and tell me that he didn't want to talk about things right now.( a big step up from his disappearing act) So I'm home alone on a friday night, some how I even found myself completely less. Got a 1/2 day of work scheduled tomorrow. UHGGG and no real plans for the rest of the weekend to speak of. Seriously losing my touch.Lol Single life sucks.. So it will be bubble baths, a bottle of wine and self pleasure.. OTSANA{=} |
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