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Celebration of the Lizard
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AWAKE
Shake dreams from your hair
My pretty , my sweet .
Choose the day and
choose the sign of your day
The day's divinity
First thing you see.
A vast radiant beach
in a cool jeweled moon
Couples naked race down by it's quiet side
And we laugh like soft, mad
Smug in the woolly cotton brains of infancy
The music and voices are all around us.
Choose, they croon, the Ancient s
The time has come again
Choose now, they croon,
Beneath the moon
Beside an ancient lake
Enter again the sweet forest
Enter the hot dream
Come with us
Everything is broken up and dances.
Okay this will be about Jim Morrison, and associated connections. But first I have to tell the latest about the on going saga of me and the princess. Yeah it's still going but I kind of wish it wasn't or was over. On the surface it seems like a good deal for me. A young attractive girl who's full of life and energy. But, we're not compatible. We have different values and ideas. Mainly she's not attracted to me or I'm not her type. She likes me, to an extent, but not in a romantic or relationship type of way. That's actually okay with me, because I don't agree with a lot of her ideas and attitudes. Part of it is our difference in age, but even if that weren't a factor or we were the same age, it would still be the same situation. Another main sticking point is that she's a Leo. She says and does a lot of mean things that same other asshole Leo friend of mine used to do too. It's weird, because I see almost the exact same patterns in both or them. So, the fact that she's a Leo al by itself is a deal breaker. Then we fight and argue all the time. I don't understand why we associate with another at all. I eventually came to that conclusion with the asshole and it's starting to dawn on me here now too!  For one thing, she's hard core! She did hard core drugs, dates a hard core gangbanger, listens to hardcore music. She goes to the clubs to see these hardcore punk, , death metal bands! But, she still tries to pass herself off to me as this sweet innocent girl that loves flowers and horses!  She thinks I don't notice or I'm not aware. Probably because I don't make an issue out of it. When ever I do try to broach the subject, that's when the fireworks start going off. Apparently, I'm not allowed to lecture her on her personal life or behavior, even while I'm subsidizing it!  Even her female behaviors aren't really normal or as they should be. I was over her place and she showed me her guitars!  Yeah, right, exactly, I didn't know she had anything like that stuff either! She mentioned something to me once about "dabbling " with the guitar. But she didn't really discuss it very much. Then while I'm there, she whips out an electric guitar and an acoustic she has. She knows I'm a big guitar enthusiast and everything, and just now she decides to show me her gear?  So, I took a look at it. The acoustic is totally shot, beyond repair. But the electric could be salvaged. She has a little amp too. So, I told her I'll take everything to my guitar tech and have it fixed up like new! Which I did! She was also missing a few things, like cords, straps, picks, and instruction manuals. I got all that stuff for her! A week later I invited her over for a private lesson. Before hand, I asked her what her favorite band and song was. She told me the band, " Iron Maiden " and the song " wasted years "! So, I learned it for her. I thought I'd try to entertain her. So, she comes over. We sit down facing each other with our guitars. I try to show her the basic chords, and she is unable to form them. She had broken her wrist twice, and it had never been set right. So, she can't hold the neck properly to form the chords. She can have her wrist reset, but not now, because she's taking that anti narcotic drug naloxone. Also she can't have pain killers in her system because she's on parole. So, she can't play the guitar until all that stuff is taken care of, but it doesn't seem like it will be anytime soon. I did ask her to show me what she knew before she told me about her wrist and she knows the main riff for Iron Man, the Sabbath song. So, she does know something and I had a glimmer of hope for a moment. But, then because she couldn't play, but let me go ahead and get all worked up at the prospect that I would actually be able to teach her something. We later got into another argument! In the never ending series of arguments! But before she left, I played her favorite Iron Maiden song. She didn't freak out with, " Oh wow, you totally nailed that dude, it was like being at the show "! It's was more like, " oh, okay, thanks, see you later ". I've never had a woman react like that after I just played their favorite song for them live. See what I mean by her not having normal reactions to things? I guess after all the hardcore shit she was into that I mentioned previously, anything else would seem a little boring, huh?  She had another meeting to go to. She goes to those things constantly. Which she should!  Then we got into another fight over her dumb fuck loser drug dealer felon spic boyfriend! Of which, as you may have surmised, I'm forbidden to discuss with her about! I'll tell you exactly what I said. His Spanish name is Alamo. So I ed him Anal mo! And told her he sucked off every con in the joint and would bend over for a pack of cigarettes! Well, of course this didn't sit very well with her, and I endured a barrage of insults with her telling me she never wanted to see me again! Yeah, fat chance huh? So, she was doing her community service , and the guy in charge, who's black incidentally, started dangling all these goodies and prizes in front of her. He said he ran some program where she could work her way into an apartment and a car! She told me about it, then when she learned the catch. She calls me up, or comes running back to me more accurately, and tells me, "that ni**er wanted me to fuck him"! Big surprise huh? I told her I thought she was a little naïve to think he was going to do all that for free! LOL! Well, anyway, we were hanging out again for a while, and I thought everything was okay. Then all of a sudden she pulls some shit on me, standing me up. By now, nothing about her or her behavior surprises me. I haven't heard from her in a few days. Oh, don't worry, she hasn't gone more then a week since the day I met her before she comes roaring back into my life with her next drama. I think she met some guy at one of her meetings and is probably dating him, and doesn't want me to know. Until he pulls something, then she'll come crying to me about it. I hope she just meets some nice, semi normal guy, and just stays with him and forgets all about me! That's my Christmas wish!   Then that spoiled cunt can be some else's problem, for sure!
Addendum
Well, it looks like I might be getting my Christmas wish after all! Turns out I was completely right about the princess and her behavior. It's almost like I can read her like a book. I assumed that when she started withdrawing from me, it was because she had someone else in her life. I was a hundred percent right! Fortunately, it's not that spic scumbag she usually kicks it with. I believe he's still locked up. There's some other guy she knows, she said that they used to work together. He's visiting from New York, and she hung out with him this past weekend. I don't know if he has other friends or relatives in this area he was staying with, or he came down here to crash on her couch? It doesn't really matter. All I know is, she started getting really ugly with me, or tried to create a conflict between us over some stupid shit. Then she hangs up on me. I haven't heard from her since. Don't worry, she'll come running back to me, as soon as she discovers her knight in shining armor isn't a knight at all, but just another horny guy. For some reason she always seems to be disappointed when she discovers that fact about men.  LOL! 
Well, there's more to this situation then I've alluded to, of course. And I was going to try to explain it to her. But, seeing how she's so self centered and oblivious to anything but her own reality, I don't know how I'll be able to tell her. I tried the last time she came over and I thought I was going to teach her the guitar. When she was sitting across from me, I mentioned, " you know, there are many others who want to take your place "! She reacts with something like " that's rude as fuck saying that shit to me "! Maybe so, but that doesn't mean it's not true. What that problem is, we have this project were working on together. Right now, she has me all to herself, because I'm not involved with anyone else presently. She thinks she has me on a shelf and can take me down to play with anytime she gets bored. My ex wife kind of thought the same thing, but never even speculated that I was running around fucking the world when we weren't together. The princess has the same notion. So what I see as a potential problem, is in the future, that might not always be the case. If I do meet someone, because I find someone I actually do have something in common with and, lethal to her, they actually care about me. She will get squeezed out of the picture! Already, I have women around me tell me that they think she's just using me. And they don't even know a fraction of the details. So, if someone I'm actually dating comes into the picture, she's toast. And for my part. As much as I would like to continue a relationship with her. If the person I'm involved with wants something, it will be far more difficult for me to refuse their wishes. Than the person who only is interested in me when I can be useful to them. She doesn't see this contingency for some reason. She thinks, she'll just do what ever she wants, and I'll just stay the same or always be the same situation for her. I can see that not happening, she can't. As I said, when I tried to broach the subject by telling her I have others ready to take her place, she acts like I'm insulting her or something. No, I'm just trying to inject some reality into her delusional fantasy she has about me and the situation. But, maybe I won't have to worry after all. Hopefully, she hooked up with this guy and ran away with him back to New York. That way she can escape her parole officer and go back to doing all the drugs she wants. Which I sincerely believe is what she really wants to do! I know what you're thinking, she'll get caught and dragged back there to face incarceration and whatever else they want to give her. Oh, but you're not thinking realistically here. She used to tell me, how her drug dealer spic boyfriend knew all of the tricks to evade his parole officer and get over on the system. I'm sure he taught her everything he knows! I know I told you he's currently locked up, so you might be wondering how that happened? Probably an anomaly or a fluke. That won't happen to her of course! You see now why she isn't concerned about another woman coming into my life and giving her the heave ho?
The Curious Case of Jim Morrison
Manson just died, and he's connected to the Jimbo saga too! There has been a million things written about Jim, before and since he died. He had the most unusual life and music career trajectory of any person I've ever heard about. It's like he wasn't just one person, but many different people and lives, all lived simultaneously and very quickly then he was gone. But his legacy was so rich and full, it's still churning out material for the rest of us to chew on. I think centuries from now, people will still be talking about him or at the very least, know of him and his life. Very strange, indeed. I just want to make my own personal observations and experiences. First of all, he was associated with people and things that are still active today, that I'm sure most people aren't aware of. Like for instance, the band Kansas! They're still touring. Some of the members jammed with Jim, shortly before he left for Paris and died. They went on to form that band and were of the biggest acts of the seventies. There were lots of examples like that, of people he casually knew, who went on to rock stardom themselves. Another one you might never have guessed, is Rick James. Apparently he knew him slightly better and he went on to live a debauched rock star life that eventually killed him as well. I have more stories and insights but I'll tell you my own experiences with the Doors. First, I never really liked or was a fan for a long time. Of course I liked the hits like " Light my fire " LA woman ", " Roadhouse blues ", " Love me two times ". But there was this other, heavy side of him, with the poetry stuff I didn't get or was hard to relate to. Also, because, like the Beatles, their material was so diverse I didn't even realize that it was the same band when listening to the songs. Like for instance, I would hear " Hello I Love you "! and think, " oh, that's cool ". And then I'd hear " Touch Me ". and I'd think, " oh, that's another cool song. But at the time, it didn't seem like it was the same person or band performing both songs. Because one was a big band sound and the other was much simpler. So, my sisters friends would bring their albums over and I would listen to them. There was no internet of even cable in those days. If you didn't know some who owned some of these albums, you never heard the shit. And no, they didn't play them on the radio either, because they had some foul language to them. So, even the FM stations that did play albums, only played certain safe records. And the Doors, apparently weren't safe!  LOL! So, I'm listening to the Absolutely live album. I heard a few songs I knew and then Jim would start ranting his heavy poetry shit I didn't understand and couldn't relate to. So, I put a David Bowie album on, I think it was " Aladdin Sane "! Then later, or when I became older and grew my hair longer, I noticed I had a facial similarity to his. Our chin lines are the same, but we have different noses. Also my hair is curlier and lighter brown. People would later tell me I resembled him, but they also told me I resembled Robert Plant too! Go figure. Oh yeah, Jim heavily influenced Robert Plant and Led Zeppelin! Actually they're the same band, just on a grander scale!  Even though Jim was dead and gone, left us here to sing his songs, his phantom stayed around! It was always lurking around in the media or the rock and roll press. Then at the end of the seventies I think, the biography, " No here gets out alive " caused a new resurgence of interest in the Doors and Jims life. I remember standing in the crowd of my first Stones show! (Rolling Stones) and they were playing songs on the PA before Mick and Keef came out! When the Doors song " LA woman " came on, there was huge roar through out the crowd. It was the only song they played that evoked that response from those wasted stoners that day! Then after much talk about a movie and possibly a tour with a new singer sitting in for Jim. Everything died down and nothing was heard from for about ten years . But the Doors stuff was still lurking around. They never stopped playing their songs on the radio, and they still would write articles about them from time to time. Then, Oliver Stone, who was a big Doors fan, finally picked up the gauntlet and made a movie about the Doors. It was a big hit and brought a whole new generation of interest to the band and Jimbo. Also, Jims grave in Paris has always been a major tourist attraction. The Princess I'm currently involved with, visited it once her damn self. And then ten years later, the remaining Doors finally got it together and enlisted Ian Astbury who was a Jim Morrison clone and also a big Doors devotee himself and toured with them. Now, this next sentence you will not believe, but it's absolutely the truth! I know I mentioned I would include my own experiences with the Doors. And when I said that, you probably pictured me jerking off in a corner while one of their albums was playing on the stereo! LOL! But, no, I actually interacted with one of the main surviving members and Jims best friend Ray Manzarek! I was at a festival he performed at up in the Poconos. I think it was called " the gathering "! It was a big nostalgic hippie affair! And Ray did a meet and greet with the fans! I also met Bill Wyman of the Stones and Marty from Jefferson Airplane. When Ray was in front of me, I asked him " who he was getting to replace Jim, Scott Weiland or Ian "? He replied that " he and Robby were working on some songs and that's all he was going to say at the moment ". He went with Ian obviously. And Scott went on to form Velvet Revolver with Slash after his lead singer Axel, lost his mind! LOL!
But despite all the real world stuff about the Doors, there's this other eerie other worldly things associated with them I want to relate in my own experiences. I finally actually did get to see one of those new reformed Doors shows at one of Trumps casino's of all places. They were doing a TV show for VH1. And again, I'm not making this up. Something strange happened! They did the whole four hour show, and then they told the audience, they had a problem with the taping machine in the truck that was parked outside. So, they all had to perform the whole show, with like three opening acts and everything all over again! I was staying at the hotel so it wasn't a problem for me. But my friend who still had to drive two and a half hours home again, had it rough. So, I got an eight hour Doors show. And I think they did a few different songs the second time. I know this because Ian was just as big a fan as people in the audience kept petitioning Ray and Robbie with suggestions of different songs. I think he said, " lets doing something sick, like not to touch the earth "? I think they actually did that one too. And that's another strange thing. I had the Doors greatest hits in my collection. If you would have asked me, while i was a , what is the song most likely you would never hear performed live? I would have told you it was that song, not to touch the earth. Because, it's a strange song, the singer is long dead, and the band broke up. But, there they were, The Doors, with a reincarnated Jim Morrison look alike, performing not to touch the earth right in front of me! Weird man, it's freaking weird, that's all I'm saying! Okay another strange Doors encounter I had, in a most unusual place. This happened before the Doors movie or any of the other stuff I just mentioned. I was on vacation in Florida one time. It was a rainy dreary day, so I decided to take a drive. I got on one of the highways and was just cruising along. I was listening to the radio. They were playing obscure tracks from some of my favorite rock albums. Then they played a Doors song from the first album. I don't remember which song , but it wasn't one of the more popular songs from that album like " light my fire " or " break on through '. While it was listening I had this weird eerie feeling. I didn't have it for any of the other songs I heard on the radio that day. Then much later, or even years later. I learned that stretch of highway I was on, Jim Morrison used to hitch hike there when he was a living in Florida! Ray talked about in his book about Jim, how he used to be somewhere hundreds of miles away from where they lived and he would run into Jim at strange obscure places where you would never think he'd go in a million . He was such an unusual character. Even Ray seemed perplexed by him sometimes! So, was the eerie feeling I had, the ghost of Jim Morrison sitting next to me in the car listening to one of his old songs? I don't know, but it sure felt like it at the time, I'll tell you what! Oh, before I forget to mention, when I finally saw the Doors live, they were awesome. They were so good I couldn't believe it. And I can totally understand why they tried to carry on after Jim died. It must have be really hard to give all that up. But, they couldn't make the magic without him, or until they found a suitable replacement like Ian. Who was an icon in his own right, but chose to carry the mantle for the Doors for a while.
So, when I'm in the mood, I listen to my JIm Morrison audio book, and the albums with the added extras. It's still a strange trip, the music, the times and his life were so intertwined. So, I'm listening to Celebration of the Lizard. And I've since gotten over my aversion to his poetry stuff and have a genuine appreciation for it now! It's like a time capsule. Well anyway, I noted this earlier, and the fact that Manson just died is another weird coincidence. But when he talks about " there's been a slaughter in here ". Then right after that, he says some weird things, like he was there witnessing the murders Manson's family carried out. Now, I know you think I've been pulling my pudd too hard lately? I don't drink anymore or I would use that as a reference, you know. But, actually, I wasn't the only person in the world to notice this coincidence either. Jim was actually investigate at the time, right after the murders and they knew about Manson. Because he had such startling insight with his descriptions. Now, why he wasn't prosecuted, was because he said all of this stuff a year in advance of the event. But! He was having sex with some of the Manson family girls. They were all over the rock star scene and Charlie had insinuated himself into Dennis Wilson of the Beach Boys, mansion! He also knew a lot of the other major rock stars in the valley at the time. So, if I had to speculate? I'd say these girls probably told Jim about their guru and the kinds of things he was saying. Jim probably picked up his vibe from them and prophesized what would eventually happen. It doesn't happen everyday, But, if you're sensitive artist like he was, and translating everything that was going on around him. He could have come up with that scenario. And he did! Weird man, that's freaking weird, I'll tell you what.
Finally, or last but not least. I was wandering around the record store. Yes, they still have a few. And I noticed a new product by the Who. They did a new version of Tommy. I have about a half a dozen versions by them already. But, me being a Who fan, I decided to check it out. So I bought the blue ray version and popped into the player! I actually liked it. I didn't think I would, but surprisingly I did! Then I took a nap and when I woke up I played it again but this time I played along. Turns out, Pete was using just a plain old Stratocaster this time. Or plain for him, it was still modified a bit, I noticed. But not only do I have the exact same guitar. My handy dandy state of the art amplifier actually has a Who or Pete Townshend guitar setting on that bitch and I could get the exact same tone he uses too! Modern technology is so wonderful sometimes! You'd only appreciate it if you had to slave the old school way of trying to get a similar tone, way back in the dark ages of music technology, and by that I'm talking like six months ago, of course!  Anyway, I played along with the whole album and had the time of my life again! Something I will note. Now that Pete is much older, he plays some of the difficult parts much slower so it's easier for me to keep up with him. I was a little thankful for that aspect too. Now, I know what you're thinking, what does this have to do with the Doors and Jim? Are you going senile, is your mind wandering again, are you pulling your pudd? The answer is, no, no, maybe! In case you aren't' aware and I'd bet big bucks you're not, Jim Morrison IS Tommy! Yes really. Actually, the character is based on a combination of both Jim and Pete himself. Pete's talked about this quite a bit over the years. He said that he watched Jim from the side stage when they were touring together back in the day. He was amazed by the reaction Jim evoked from the crowds. He stated, " I don't get it, I didn't get it then, and I still don't " Part of the reason for that, is Jim was so similar to himself and his band. That's why he had trouble recognizing what was happening. But once again, Jim inspired another piece of art and history that will live on in a strange iconic form.
Now, about his poetry. I have to admit, I still can't relate or understand a lot of it. It's like so out there, it's very difficult. But, going by past history, this is how I see it will evolve. His poetry still gets no respect. Everyone still focuses on his music, how he looked, what he did, and what he said. Everyone else, it seems has the same problem I do trying to relate to his non musical poetry writing. I think it will get recognition and respect, but probably not for a very long time, maybe a couple of hundred years from now. Some how, there will be some sort of device, which will bring his words to life in way we still can't imagine. And it will act as a catalyst for a time capsule from the past. And he will go on in a new life and popularity in that form. See, I even foresaw an as yet unrealized future from some bizarre work of a mid twentieth century pop star who still influences artist and musicians to this day. Damn I'm smooth!
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