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My Fairweather wannabe Boyfriends, lovers, and those three little words.
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My Fairweather wannabe Boyfriends, lovers, and those three little words. I have met my share of men over the years and my past has been a learning experience believe me. What have I learned? A lot actually, I've learned how to Cry, how to hurt, how my feelings really don't matter,how to be used and taken for granted. Trust me my heart has the cracks and scars to prove it. And yet I hang on to the bitter end Then someone comes along and says all the right things and I fall for it again, hook, line and sinker. Tell me I'm pretty and that you want to be with me and you'll have me eating right out of your hand. But tell me you love me? That goes straight to my heart like Cupid's arrow and I'm yours lock stock and heart strings. Sadly men know this and take advantage of it every time. What's a girl to do right? it's that same ole catch 22 suppose he's " the one" and you don't wanna pass on the real deal and therein lies the rub. I have three guys who say they like me oh and supposedly "love me" but none of them ever come around to see me or take me out but they " love" me and "want to be with me" . So here lately I've been asking myself, HMmmm what's wrong with this picture? They say I'm pretty, sexy, or beautiful. they "love me" and want me so much, then why am I always alone? To add insult to injury, I sit here being the faithful, loyal girlfriend listening to all the lies and excuses buying every word while time passes by. WHY?? Why can't I bring myself to go out and have fun and enjoy myself for awhile? Why do I sit here night after night waiting to hear from a man who never comes to see me or take me out? Why is it if and when that message comes, I hang on every word? Because they said they said they "love me"?? BULLSHIT!!! Those three words are very easy to say but mean nothing if there's nothing to prove it.I tell someone I love them all day long, but if there's nothing to prove or back it up, all they are is words. I'm thinking of kicking all of them to the curb like yesterday's trash and try a new approach. This may sound cold but I'm so tired of the games. So I guess what I have to do is play their game but change the rules. Do like they do and tell them what they want to hear and take from them what I can. You know use them like they use me. I'm going to try to keep my heart to myself until I find someone worthy of it and my love. The next guy to come along will have to work for it if he wants it. I just hope I don't change my personality because of being used so much. I've heard that things like this will turn a girl one of two ways. A wild careless girl with no self esteem who will sleep with just anyone because any affection is better than none. Or she'll become a man hating, ball busting psycho bitch. I'm gonna try to stay the course and not fall on either side of that fence, because I like the way I am and want to stay that way. Love Always, Samantha Weir-Jackson |
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only you can stop being used, you see the sign and you know how they play. so what are you going to do? You don't have to be either girl, Just become a cautious one, No one can do anything to you unless you let them, thinking about kicking them to the curb isn't changing anything in your life, BUT KICKING THEM TO THE CURB IS. You don't have to be used but you are allowing yourself to be used when you know in your heart their feeling aren't the same as yours, Yes we do learn from our mistakes but are you learning? It may seem harsh but I don't like sugar coating things to people, being honest is the best way to give someone reality.
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