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caught! again...*sigh*
caught! again...*sigh* My husband knows that I have cubs, and that I do meet with them now and again. He doesn't like it much, but he's too smart to tell me not to. He says that he is not saying yes, just not saying no to it either. He doesn't want to watch or get off on me doing it. He just knows that it is what I want. I won't deny that I saw them, but I also don't like telling him when I do. It's practically a guarantee that I won't be getting any at home for a while. And frankly, once a week is bad enough! Add a few MORE days on there, and I go bonkers! Even with roller derby as a vent, I am just too full of drive to sit around here by myself. I suspect he has found a way to read my mail or something. He found out about the last one. Not sure if right away, or a day or so later. I can't blame him for being distant. *sigh* Oh well. When he did get over it, a couple days later, Yahoo! Finally got what I wanted. XD He does know what I like. And I trust him, so I am comfortable with him taking charge. This is a very big thing. NO ONE gets to pull my hair! No one can spank my ass without permission and not get punched in response. He can. I love my husband. I even LIKE him! And I desire him. I just also desire cubs. More for what they do than what they are... It is true that I was a wild one as a . But since I married him, I led a very monogamous life. For a good chunk of it, I didn't even want sex. Depression, I am guessing. Then one day, sometime after forty... WHAM! Yes I do. It's true, I am human. I am female. I DO like the attention. It feels nice to be reminded that you are sexy, desirable... but I really REALLY like sex. And though many of the encounters I shared with cubs over the past three years were not exactly memorable... I don't regret it. I guess I am just bad. Straight to hell. Good thing that I don't believe in it... lol It would be nice if this thing just switched off like a light, much as it switched on... then I could concentrate on gardening, and knitting and sudoku puzzles, like the other ladies... maybe someday it will. Until then, I will hunt. Looking for my local cub; my playmate. Someone who can give me what I want, then fade into the background. Just like I will fade out of theirs. Meet, play, go home. I can dream... xx |
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1 post 9/11/2013 2:49 am |
I'm in the same situation. I've never been caught, but I've never Really played. I am curious if you were sort of relieved when you got busted the first time? I like my wife, love my wife but I'm lucky if I get it once every six months. I don't have many hobbies anymore, I feel like I'm under lock and key. I just focus on work to get me through.
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