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I'll Admit It
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I'll Admit It I am what you would consider "damaged goods." Divorced dad with some serious trust issues. Now don't get me wrong. It's not that I can't be friends with the opposite sex. I have several female friends. Including one that I used to go out every Friday nigbt with. Every Friday, that is, until my job changed and I became practically broke. My problem is that I can't let it get further than that. My ex did a lot of shit when she left. I'm not going to get into it. I don't want to relive that shit and honestly it's nobody's business but ours. Not trying to be rude. A large portion of the problem is that I don't trust myself. I don't trust myself to stick to the boundaries I need to set. I don't trust myself to see what is really happening when I'm too easily blinded by what I want in my life. I don't trust myself to keep my guard up and not let the other person get too close too quickly. I'm also afraid. I tend to wear my heart on my<b> sleeve </font></b>and follow it where ever it wants to go. I was so hurt when she left, things got very... dark... for me. I don't know if I can survive another bad breakup. So for now, I'm going to stick to focusing on my (someone has to) and making friends along the way. I don't know if I'll ever be able to get beyond friendship with another. But if I do, she had better be ready. I can be a very passionate, loving partner... And I make some pretty awesome dinners Speak the Truth, or make your peace some other way Follow CaptainDilfCT Superhero or pirate? You decide Sorry, I Was Thinking Again |
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Wow, this was a REAL post. Thanks for being so honest. I think that anyone going through a divorce gets messed up, but usually it's because the relationship was fucked up anyways, which is probably why you are going through the divorce. I know what you mean that we need to set boundaries and really know what we want or we will just fuck someone else up with our fucked-up-ness. Did I use "fuck" enough ways? LOL Kitkat The observant make the best lovers, I may not do right, but I do write, I have bliss, joy, and happiness in my life, Kitkat Come check out my blog KItkat1415 check out this post by me Adventures In Body Grooming #39 April Topic Link: What Lies Beneath If April Showers Oh Bloody Hell What Kind Of Weather Turns Me On Bloggers Symposium 40
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It takes time. Someday you will be ready for another relationship, but don't push it. I sent an Angel to watch over you last night, it returned in a hurry. I asked why, it said "Angels can't watch porn." Thanks for fucking traumatizing my fucking Angel! Don't bother trying to figure me out. Not even the little voices in my head understand me. It's pointless!
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