Reset Password
Reset Link Sent
| Blogs > mickiishere > Micki ' s Madness!!!!! |
Lost Love
|
Lost Love This is just part and it is getting long but I gotta be off here for a few days and figured I would post what I have so far... Hope you like it. As I sit here at the airport, waiting for my flight I am thinking about my MIA buddy that I have really been missing. When I booked my flight through southwest’s “gotta get away” site, I know why I chose it. I chose it because that is the only company you fly with or if at all possible. I know you trust them so I couldn’t pick any other company. So I have been sitting here for a while now. Still have lots of time left to wait and think. Good thing I brought a book with me. I have noticed guys looking and I have looked back with a smile but there is only one person that has been on my mind. It has been about nine months since I last spoke to you and I can’t help but wonder what happened. What could I have possible done that would make you tell me in our last conversation that you don’t think I understand after our years of friendship you Love me, Not just luv me as we have always said. I never thought I would miss a man so much than my best friend I seem to have lost. I wonder to myself if you got one of the many cards I have mailed you that told you I was going on this trip. I wonder if you even cared about this new chapter in my life. I can’t help but feel so lonely but its more than that. It is the feeling of losing my best friend that the more I evaluate my feeling every since the first time I met you…… could you be the missing link in my life this whole time and now I have lost you. We lived worlds apart. Unable to be together in our current lives and always trying to find that person to be with but it never actually working because it just wasn’t the right one? Why can I not just get over it and count it as your loss. I sit here and I search the airport thinking of the needle in a haystack that you are in the exact same airport as me at this particular time? I know impossible but my heart still searches. Every now and again I catch a glimpse. Was it? Could it possibly be? Then as fleeting as the glimpse of that person is, it is gone. I search and I search knowing it is not possible but yet my heart can’t help but wish. It just will not give up on finding its smile. I go to my book for solace; to settle my heart and stop searching all of the empty faces. As I board the plane I made sure I was one of the first to get to board. Wanting to just get in my seat and settle in for the long flight. Just get me to where I am going, let me do my thing, make myself have fun and hopefully not feel this strong pull on my soul the entire time I am gone. I find a window seat and settle in. Opening my book and not paying attention to all of the people boarding after me. Keeping my nose down and minding my own business while fighting the urge to search each face as it passes. The flight attendants give their demonstrations and instructions without me lifting my eyes. I have heard and seen it all so many times I am sure I could do it just as well by heart. As the plane takes off I settle in and begin to just relax. A couple hours in I swear I hear that voice. No way, my mind is now playing tricks on me. I have to get back to reading and block everything. My plane arrives on time. I am determined to get to my hotel and out of this airport and not get lost in the search. I will not let myself think about who I am missing. I have this feeling I need to search though. The feeling is so hard to describe. It’s not just a feeling; it is a yearning, a needing. The need is so overwhelming. It is even worse than when I was in Houston at the airport. OMG just give it a rest. You want someone and something that is never going to happen. Get over it girl. Pull your big girl panties on and have fun while you are here. Keeping my eyes down all the way through the airport; out to the sidewalk and I get a taxi. As we are driving away I glance at all the people we are pacing trying to get a taxi and I swear I see him….. OMG please just forget about it. I get to the hotel, unload all of my stuff and just lay down on the bed. I feel exhausted and wasted. I do not know what I am doing here. I am not the person I am attempting to be. I am just me. I fall asleep lying here wondering what am I going to actually do here. Hey at least it is away. Even if I lock myself in this room the entire time I am here and just crash I don’t know what I came here for. As I drift off into a deep sleep I dream. And I dream all about you. From you constantly showing up but just being out of reach to you appearing behind me, press me against a wall and your hot breath on my neck….. Something wakes me. What was that noise? I ease over to the door and look through the peep hole, nothing…… Hmmm that was an awesome dream too. I get freshened up and decide to go down and checkout what all there is to do close to the hotel this evening. As I step out of the room I notice an envelope on the floor at the door. I look around and do not see anybody. I open the card and it is just a simple not card that says “You are loved. Don’t ever forget that.” Wow. What in the world was that for? I guess they just randomly do stuff like that. I head down stairs, still a bit tired. As I walk into the lobby I notice all of the people at the bar. I always feel a bit out of place and intimidated in crowds, especially where I do not know anyone. But you know what? This trip is for me. I am going in. I think I look ok for a cocktail, so in I go. I grab a stool at the bar on the end. Order my drink from the bartender. I notice all of the men and only a few women sitting around in casual conversation. The bartender brings my drink and turns to walk away. “Excuse me?, Don’t you want my room number or money?” He smiled over his shoulder and kept right on moving. What the heck was up with that? So a few minutes later he comes back by to check on me. Yes I will have another please. When he brings it back I ask him again about paying. He smiled and said I did not need to worry about that. It was already taken care of and anymore drinks I had on his shift would be as well be he was not able to give me details so please do not ask him. And with a sexy smile he was gone again. Well damn that is confusing. So I end up being in a conversation with a couple of gentlemen seated near me. Asking what all there is going on around there; not wanting to get too far from the hotel tonight and being alone. They gave me several suggestions and even offered to me out and about to make sure I felt and stayed safe. I assured them that would not be necessary. I kept looking around in the bar. Everything seemed normal but something was not right. The hair on my arms was standing up and I had a feeling of being watched. One more drink and then I am getting out of here. As I walked down the street I notice several little groups standing around watching the tourist. All of a sudden I wish I had taken the guys offer of escorting me. Ok so I need to pay close attention to my surroundings. I walk in and out of the lil shops and look at their wares. So many things I like. There is a beautiful necklace and earrings at one place that I just love. But no I am not going to buy extravagant stuff to get me in a better mood. Maybe if I haven’t spent too much this week I will come back by and get it. As I want into a local hot spot I notice everyone looks at me as I walk in. I sit down over in the corner, order a drink and an appetizer since I am starting to get hungry. After thinking about it I had not eaten all day. After I order I walk to the bathroom, wash my hands and just look in the mirror. Look at me, I still clean up ok but I should not be in this position this late in life. Why do I always want what I can’t have and struggle to make anything else work. As I make my way back to my table I see my food and drink is already there. I sit for a few moments and just enjoy the atmosphere. It was nice, but I still had this feeling of being watched. I scanned the room nervously and nothing seemed out of place but just had that feeling. I make it two a few more lil spots and decide to head back to the hotel before it gets too late. I just can’t shake that feeling someone is watching me. I really don’t know if it is a good thing or not. I know nobody here. How would anyone help me if it was bad? As I am walking up the side walk I notice one of the gangs of guys watching me walk back up. I can tell they are talking about me, which is frightening. I notice one nod his head and they start stepping out onto the side walk facing me. What the heck am I supposed to do? I can’t cross the street ‘cause there is so much traffic. Hopefully these other people walking that way will keep them from doing anything stupid. I kinda fall into step with them just slightly behind them trying not to make eye contact. I hear someone walking behind me and I don’t dare turn and look. I just keep my head down determined to walk right past them. The steps behind me seem to be getting closer. I know we are getting closer to the guys. As I see their legs and they take a step out after the group in front of me……… I freeze…. I hear the movements of the person behind me and I brace myself and get ready to scream at the top of my lungs. I would fight but there were several of them. Then I see them retreat back to where they were. I look up and they are not even looking at me. I hear the one behind me….. The footsteps are fading and I turn to look and I see no one. I make fast steps to get past and back to the hotel. As I walk in the front several of the bus boys are there asking if they can assist me. I think to myself….. Really, where were you two minutes ago? Dang I need one more drink then I think I will call it a night. I stop in the bar for one more, have some casual conversations then head upstairs to my room. As I get to my door I notice another card. “Hope you enjoyed your drinks and you should be careful when going out alone”. That’s it. This is not funny. I look down the hall both ways, nothing. I hurry into my room. That’s it. I will be having a conversation with the manager in the morning. Locking the locks on the door I get the remote and lay down onto the bed. I turn on the tv and just lay there. After a while I go get a shower and get into my robe. I step out onto the balcony and look out over the city. It is beautiful at night. The city is lit up by all the lil clubs and restaurants up and down the strip. It looks as though the city goes on for miles. A chill comes over me and I feel that uneasy feeling again as if I am being watched. Back inside I go. I guess I dozed off. Something woke me up again. What the heck is going on? This crap is about to piss me off. I go look out the peep hole again, nothing. I crack the door and sure enough another envelope. I open the door looking up and down the hall and pick up the envelope. I go back into my room and close the door securely behind me. As I open the envelope my heart jumps into my throat. The front of the card says I am here. I open the card and inside it says “you know I am here, you can tell. I am coming to your room tonight. You are going to let me in and I am going to take you since you are mine and you have been mine. Remember the holiday inn express? 2008? Yes it is me. You know it, and yes I do love you. I will explain everything over breakfast in the morning.” Ok so just like that? What the heck? I am sure I am going to lose my mind. Something is really going on here. As I sat there puzzled at what all had taken place today there was a knock on the door. I walked to the door half excited and half terrified. As I checked the peep hole I see a bus boy with a room service table. I crack the door…. “I didn’t order room service.” He explained that he knew that but it was ordered for this room by another room and that he was given a very large tip if he could make sure I accepted it into the room. I accepted and when I was alone in the room I decided not to wait…. I wanted to know what was in there. I opened the first short tray and there was nothing but another card. I opened it up and it said… “I knew you could not wait. You are so impatient. Look under the tall one.” So I did and there was just a bucket of iced down Bud Light and a cup of lime slices. I laughed and took a beer and went and sat on the bed. Yes I had a lil smile on my face. About half way through my beer there is a knock on the door. Excited I go and peep through the hole. I see him. Yes it is him. How in the world did he do all this without me ever know and mainly what the heck is wrong with him? Where has he been and why the heck has he not talked to me. But first…… I open the door. There he stands with a smirk on his face…… “I know you want to slap me and beat me up or something; but can I at least have a hug first?” OMG yes!!!!!! I throw my arms around his neck and feel him hold me and squeeze me tight. I lead him in and close the door. After locking the locks and I turn around and he is suddenly in my space. He presses his body against mine and presses me back against the door. His hands grab mine and he pulls them above my head where he holds them with one hand. His hot breath is on my neck driving me crazy and he inhales and then tells me how great I smell. Then his lips meet mine. Fire, electricity, raw heated passion…. OMG I am totally melting and cannot control myself. Between my legs has suddenly becomes a molten hot liquid. Then I try and pull down on my arms. He senses it and holds me tighter. His free hand finds its way into my robe and to my melting box where his fingers delve deep and causes me to lose my breath and gasp. “I knew you would react to me….. I control her not you.” He leads me to the bed. Presses my robes down over my shoulders and allows it to drop onto the floor. He pushes me back toward the bed where I fall onto it. He pushes my legs and hips up into the air and slowly licks up my clit. He looks up at me and tells me that I taste as good as he had imaged. Once more he licked the length and twirled his tongue around my clit. I almost came just from that. As he rose up he was un-tucking his shirt and pulling it off. Then he unbuttoned his pants and as he lowered his jeans I saw the hard thick shaft wanting release. That is gonna hurt….. but I am gonna enjoy every bit of it. He released his hardness and allowed me to see his want and ultimately his need of me. He laid back down next to me and began kissing my shoulder and moving to my neck, his hand on my breast and teasing my taught nipples. Then his mouth moves to one and his moist hot mouth devours my breast and gets more intense as he moves to the next. At this time he is raising and moving himself on top of me. One leg goes between mine and then his knee moves up forcing my legs apart. Then his are both between mine. His hands grasp mine and move them above my head. He leans down and kisses me fully. Knowing all he is doing is heating my core beyond melting. He whispered in my ear. “I know you like it from behind but I need to look at you and see you face while I make love to you.” With that he pressed the head of his hard shaft against the opening of my hot sheath. As he slides in I feel her begin to stretch. He must see it on my face and he tells me just relax baby. You know he is this hard for you. You are all he has wanted. Slowly he presses forward and with a moan he presses to the bottom. He looks at my eyes and asked am I ok. With a smile I nod my head and he says “good”. Then he begins a rhythmic motion that tortures her with him rubbing across my clit has it on fire. In just a few rugged strokes I explode with spasms all over my body. My sheath tightens around his shaft and he stops to let me get through it but as soon as he feels her release slightly he picks up his pace and begins to pound me never letting his eyes leave mine. Before my orgasm is complete I feel another one building and cannot help but let out a moan as he is thrusting deeper with each stroke. As I feel myself about to climax again I feel him swelling and getting harder. He picks up his pace and thrust deeper and harder with each stroke. After a few moments we both explode into bliss. He lies down on his side next to me; his eyes still on mine. Are you ok? He asked again….Oh yes! I am great. We lay there in silence for what seems like an hour. I know it wasn’t, but it seems like it. Then he rose up and got two beers from the ice bucket. Reached for my hand and helped me with my robe then put his pants on. He held my hand and led me out to the balcony. We sat on the balcony and drank our beer. As we did he began to talk to me about what happened and apologized for leaving me in the dark for all of these months. Said he never stopped thinking about me but it was something he had to do. It seemed we sat there for hours just drinking and talking. After there was no more beer left and it was getting a lil chili we went back into the room. I was feeling exhausted and I think he could see that. (to be continued) We head back into the room and just pile up in the bed and talk some more. I have never ran out of things to talk to him about but this is a little bit hard for me. Part of me wants to slap him for making me worry. Kiss him because I now know he is ok. Not talk to him for doing this to me….. So many emotions but the very most important one is that I want to hold him and know that he wants to be there with me. There is so much I have wanted to say over the years and more so these past several months. I tell him about me sending him the invitation to my parent’s anniversary party just hoping he would come, but knowing deep down that he wouldn’t. So many emotions inside of me but most of all I was just so happy to be here at this time and place. Lying with the man I believe I have always loved. You tell me about all of the stuff you have been going through and how you just wanted to know if I was true to my feelings and not settling for someone and keep Rickie around just so that I am not alone. Which by the way….. I have done. We are over. I had one connection to him where I was trying to help him but I was still being used, knew it and fixed it. So I now have no<b> ties </font></b>to him. I want to scream at you: lalalalalalalalalalalalalalalala…. That is for all your thinking. But I am just happy. I am just comfortable and happy. The last I remember we were laying there talking; you on your back and me on your shoulder with your arm around me. When I wake we are still there. I guess we fell asleep. It is still dark outside. It looks as though the sun is just barely peaking in the eastern sky. I slip up and go into the bathroom and start the shower; trying to be quiet. As the room begins to fill with steam I smile at the thought that you are actually here. I step into the hot water and just relax in the heat spraying my body. I am still thinking about how scared I was that you were gone from my life forever and that all I knew was that I could live without you loving me, but I could never truly live without you being my friend. But honestly having you love me is so much better. At that moment I feel the room temperature change and I know you are in the bathroom. I hear the shower door open and you step in behind me. Did I mention how much I love thee huge walk in showers? I just stay as I am enjoying the steamy shower, anticipating your touch that I know is coming. Then I feel it. You hand curves around my waist and you pull me back into you. I feel your manhood hard and thick pressed against my butt; pulsing from the same anticipation. You mouth is on my neck breathing warm air onto me and causing the heat in my body to rise. I feel you getting harder and you release a slight moan into my ear as I know you are heavy with need. My need runs just as deep and I am overwhelmed with just plain happiness. I breathe in deeply with the thought that soon you will be having your way with me again and knowing that I will be absolutely satisfied and fulfilled. You press my shoulders over and bend me to where I am placed directly in front of your manhood. You hold it and rub the tip along the length of my sheath and up around my clit. I feel how slick I am just wanting you and I know you have to feel the slickness as well. Then you grab my hips and thrust hard. Knowing I would take you but be stretched tightly around you. The motion takes my breath away and sends pain all the way through me. Then as if I was made for you I react to accept your manhood and fit you like a glove. This time there is not love making taking place. This time you are just plain fucking, you are letting me feel just how much you wanted me. I am feeling my inner core wind tighter and tighter. I know I will be cumming very hard on your thick cock. You feel it and know what is to come. So you pick up a harder steadier pace. I erupt with convulsions that reach every part of my body. You moan as my sheath tightens around your stiffness, feeling as if it wants to squeeze your cum out from your balls. As she releases your shaft you get that steady pace back again until you are about to cum as well. At that moment you pull it out and step beside me and say “here baby… take this”. I turn and accept you into my mouth just as you explode. I devour your seed and coax your cock into giving me every last drop. We wash each other and thoroughly relax in the huge shower. We take our time finishing the shower and getting cleaned up and dried off. I step into the room and put on a pair of soft jeans and a t-shirt. You do the same. But now I wonder where your clothes came from. I never saw you with a bag. Hhhhmmmm. After we are dressed and sit outside again and enjoy the sunrise with coffee and room service breakfast. We finish our conversation where we are all caught up on everything since the last time we talked. I am still just happy you are here with me. As we walk out onto the street I ask where we are headed. You just say we are just gonna see what all we can find to get into today. I smile and give you my hand for you to lead the way. As we are walking I look over at you and ask how long are you staying and then where are you headed? You smile and tell me…. “as long as you do and I am never letting you go again.” |
||||
|
aghhhhhhhhhhhh ...don't make us wait for part 2!!! Good story 
| |||
|
still waiting for part 2 
|
Become a member to create a blog
