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I have never had the ability to act or be sexy, until the moment i broadcasted alone
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I have never had the ability to act or be sexy, until the moment i broadcasted alone I have never had the ability to act or be sexy, I am an awkward tall lanky woman, regardless of how attractive I thought I was, I still couldnt stand men looking at me, aww it has always been so 'uncomfortable' that I avoid it all together. Broadcasting has been one of my most enlightening experience of my 30s. My heart pounds so hard when I do it, that I dont dare put on the mic, my hands shake uncontrollably my knees knock, like my first time making out in my bedroom closet with the neighborhood delinquent. Im still embarrassed, but learning to love being seen as something sexy. Its silly I know, but by exposing myself im learning to be comfortable with my self. As well as turning a non existing sex drive into complete over drive, my husband is reaping in the benefits. The wife |
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That's not silly at all! Thanks for being open and sharing that. I went through a similar "enlightenment" a couple of years ago in somewhat the same way. I would get so pumped up that my voice would crack, legs getting shaky, etc. It is weird to say I guess, but it's true. But now I have much more confidence in my body and sexuality. And for the record, watching you broadcast is very sexy! You have nothing to be embarrassed of  . I watched you for a while last night, and it was a huge turn on for me haha!
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The majority of the population isn't comfortable in their own skin. Confidence comes from within, not from others staring or paying compliments. I'm happy to hear that you're finding the confidence that has been buried within you. Sometimes it takes doing something completely outside your comfort zone to realize that the off-limits was simply what others expected of you, not what you wanted for yourself. Be confident, be sexy, be free to explore and find your true self.
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I hope you have been exploring your previously-forbidden side since I saw you on cam last.  I just wanted to say how happy I am you were able to open up and embrace your sexuality. Just from my own personal experience with someone who couldn't (my ex wife), it's part of a life lost when people can't. She was actually embarrassed to masturbate, even without me there. I tried for years to slowly open her up to try new things and to show her she had nothing to be ashamed of. Unfortunately the prudish teachings and expectations of American society were not something she could shake off. She was a victim of her closemindedness as was our relationship.  I wish I lived closer, if for no other reason than to share friendship and conversation with someone who shares a perspective that few others grasp.
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tdhinswpa, thank you kindly,i have to many girlfriends all, would secretly LOVE to do this, but most lack the ability to look past how society will view them,i thought one of my friends was joking about not masturbating (who doesnt masturbate?) but turns out she NEVER does.
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You can call me Sean. Sadly, if people thought about it and really comprehended what you just said, they would see that there are opportunities to be sexual AND maintain what people think of them. Let's look at your own words: "...would secretly LOVE to do this" So the desire is there to be a vibrant, sexual woman but "...most lack the ability to look past how society will view them" How would the people who's opinions they value KNOW they were on FriendFinder-x or privately indulging in some adult adventure? The only way they could know is if they were told OR if they plastered face pictures of themselves on their profile and someone ended up seeing them. Really, the issue is all mental. What someone does privately that no one else knows about is their business. We're not talking about anything illegal here. We are talking about adults exploring their sexuality. Others don't have the right to know what you do in bed (or elsewhere ). Really it comes down to the person who wants to explore and be more sexual not being able to do so because of a lack of maturity or mental barriers they just can't break through.As for not masturbating, yes I don't understand why people are so self-conscience that they can't do something privately even with just themselves there. I think it speaks to how prudish U.S. society is and how sex, sexuality and a person's body is demonized and made to be so taboo. It's a shame. So have you actually talked to a friend about your "blossoming" on here or have you played it safe and kept it secret. I always live by one simple philosophy. If you don't want anyone to know, don't tell anyone. lol
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