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A love story. 4. What a weekend! - Sharing and LOVE!
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A love story. 4. What a weekend! - Sharing and LOVE! Definitely true friends, speaking the love language of kindness, patience and forgiveness. Yet indeed true friends, yet something more was there. Maybe she was losing some of her patience, being tempted by forbidden fruit? Her desire getting to her? Never seen that happen before. I certainly had much desire for her. At the edge here. Of something beyond what I believed was possible. I slept until noon. She was up a little earlier, had made a brunch for us. Cheese toast, scrambled eggs, juice, and blueberries. I asked her how she felt about falling in love. She said "It depends on who it is. Somehow I would like both of us to be in love at the same time." I smiled. She smiled, and winked. Both of us smiling really big! My heart was really going fast. I felt a powerful blast of love coming from her! She then said "Let's see. Let's find out. Kiss me!" We then kissed. Really wet hot passionate kisses! Then stopping, she asked. "Do you love me?" OMG!!! I thought that would never happen! She was way, way out of my league in every way! I had given up on that kind of love! I said "YES! I love you!" She then smiled, and with tears, said "I love you, too! I really wanted to be sure about this. I've had so many awful, terrible men before you!" We both were crying, tears of joy! She said "I took so much time to be really sure!, Thank you for you!" I said "Thank you for you! I was taking my time to be sure also.". We just sat there crying, holding each other. For a long while. Taking the time to really know each other, and grow together, was really magical, about eight months or so, but really, really worth every bit of the time. Late afternoon, we took a long walk, holding hands. We talked about us, we were best friends who loved each other. Loving words, sharing feelings. Stopping to hug and kiss at times. And the love shared!!! She talked about her life, the father who left during her teenage, her father disowning her, she felt abandoned, too much of unwanted attention of the wrong kind, some of the many terrible persons, bad experiences with men. That men were just so impatient, and wanted in her pants NOW! She said at first she was not sure of me, but she felt I was very different, nicer, kinder than she ever knew before. She had deliberately tested me hard, tried hard to prove to herself I was for real. And then she said she felt I was for real. And she cried this morning for that reason. She told me, I passed all of her tests, and that she really loved me. She never felt anything was wrong with herself, but that she deserved the very best, and just had a lot of misfortune in life. I told her that I was an outcast as a and , that I never was much of a masculine type, but rather I always was loving, soft, emotional, sensitive, considerate, caring, kind, the really nice guy. And never competitive or just out for the goals only. And that my body is and was very feminine, I look like a girl. And I was very shy. I was not liked in school, a social outcast, because of all this, and that I am intelligent - genius level. Very awkward socially, too. And so inexperienced with women. So I had nothing but failures and rejection before I met her. It had taken a lot to get over the shyness, I used to be very nervous even talking to girls. Before we met I had given up on love. And thus, I met her with a peace and calm, and not needing any particular outcome. I just wanted to compliment her, and leave it at that, and I was bolder for that reason. So much love! Walking with hands around each others waist! Feeling great love shared. Quiet together for a long time. We found a place to sit by the water. It was calm, peaceful, serene. the sun was lower in the sky. It felt warm and nice. Sitting very close I felt her nice warmth, and feelings of love. She said to me. "You are my love. We are loving friends. There is a sacred trust here. I don't seek marriage. It's not a workable thing, my parents sure showed that. I want us to be loving friends forever. Let's learn the things that each other sees as being loving. We already are kind, patient, forgiving, that's the greatest! Let's be honest, share love, build trust like we've been doing. Honest especially, for if we have to part because of life changing, let's be best friends anyway. Loving best friends, OK?" I said "Yes. Loving best friends. And let's be careful to be honest with our feelings, to share and care." She then said "So much to tell you! I am a priestess, right? But did you know what kind I am?" I asked "What kind?". She answered "I am a sex priestess. I became part of a pagan spiritual group, and was initiated in the spiritual mysteries. Grew, lived, and learned many esoteric teachings, became<b> skilled </font></b>at love, learned about tantra, and living the way of love. I have had sex rituals with friends, many of those times were for their healing. Yet, it was always a sacred thing, and those I got to know well first. Eventually I began to see through what most men were, and their impatience, and I started wanting more." I said "OK." smiling, not knowing what to say. She added "And you are very special, different, I love you!" She smiled. And then she asked "Do you know what polyamory is?" I said "I haven't heard of that". She said "It's where one is in love with multiple persons all at once, and with everyone who is involved's knowledge, blessings, and permissions. It is total open and honest non monagamy. I am polyamorous. But it's core is that both of us must know the person, and agree to having that person in our lives. It is never hiding this from anyone. In a group living together, the love comes from everywhere! Also I am bisexual, so I love women too." I said "That would be something!" I then said to her "I love you!" She then said softly "I love you, too!" She then grabbed me tumbling into the soft grass, on top of me, pinning me down. Smiling "Oh, I could love you right now!" We just lied there, smiling and giggling. It was a public place, after all. After a while, she said, "Yes, I could do you right now! But we need to talk first. I am clean, no diseases, I got tested. And I am on the pill. Are you clean, no diseases? " I said "Yes, I'm clean, I've not had a lover before. Remember what I said, I was rejected every time before you." With a pleased look, she said "OK, that's fine." She looked like she would say "That is going to be interesting!". Then she smiled and said "This is going to be fun! We'll be patient, loving for now, we'll know when the time is right." I got the impression she was serious about this. We then walked back home happy, saying no words, walking, holding hands, sometimes arms touching holding elbows. When we got home she showed proof of what she said about being clean and on the pill, and then she said she did some digging on my background, to know if I was safe. What I said about myself checked out. And she had been taking those birth control pills when I was home around her, maybe like she was giving me a hint. At home, we watched movies, all snuggled together. When time for bed, she said "Pick a bed, we are sleeping together!" I picked her bed. And we then went to the bed naked, gave each other a nice massage, being warm and nice. She was getting wet, we were both getting aroused, yet we just held close feeling the warm contact, massage with our whole bodies. It was all great, and there was great pleasure in this. We then were all snuggled up, kissing, and laughing, loving small pillow talk, drifting to sleep in embrace. From then on, we would sleep happily together. To be continued ... |
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