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Facing Fears  

phoenix71rebirth 52F
181 posts
7/15/2015 1:27 am
Facing Fears


I am on of those people who generally avoids doctors and hospitals.
I tend to read up a lot consult with friends who are in the medical profession and decide the severity of my situation before hauling my sorry ass to the doctors.

2 years ago at the behest of my sister's friend a doctor in Italy I did an ultrasound - two goiter nodes were discovered but I was given the assurance everything was fine considering all the bloods for thyroid came back with nothing showing any thyroid issues.

This year one evening while chatting on IM with my cam on, I had 3 different guys ask me if I had a thyroid problem - that was wayyyyyyyyyyyy odd to me. So after much feet dragging I went to see a GP who started the whole thing rolling.

The thing with starting the ball rolling is you never really know where its going to end up. And then its time for reality and facing fears.

The Endocrinologist ordered a biopsy, the biopsy came back with well suspicion of cancer and so here we are with visits to the surgeon to schedule the op to take these buggers out.

And I had a moment of epiphany of sorts ... life's all about Carpe Diem because the moment that moment is lost ... it's lost forever. It ain't coming back.

Whilst I am very lucky to find this early, have it quite easily treatable with medication for life some aren't because facing up to the fear that one's mortality is at risk is the biggest reason we sentence ourselves to death.

I take responsibility that I have failed my body ... because I have spent all my time trying to be responsible for everyone else. But I also am sensible enough to stop and say enough of this time to take control.

As a single mom with 2 teenagers, it makes you reflective about what values you are teaching your about respecting their bodies. Because it is this very mortal shell in good well oiled performance that we need in order to go out there and seize the moments in life.

If one is to live life to its potential we need these mortal shells to chug along at our pace.

And sometimes facing a fear gives you opportunity to care for yourself ... because really if you don't who else will right?

newmarket_stud 63M

7/15/2015 4:07 am

I'm just pleased that now it's been picked up albeit in a quite novel way, cam diagnoses, that you are having something done about it.
I know you are a sensible person, you are also a caring person (a personal thank you for that) and I have faith that you'll come out of this with a clean bill of health once the medication works.


Han54boat 71M
11637 posts
7/15/2015 6:47 am

You must be a caring person. You need take care yourself to continue.
hope, all is good and recovery is easy and fast.


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