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Random thoughts FIRST, for the LAST time, I am NOT interested in men young enough to be my , old enough to be my father….I am SICK of hearing “age is just a number” I understand that, but the fact is it matters to ME. What if you were completely 100% straight and some guy kept BEGGING to give you a blowjob…..if they said “It’s JUST a blowjob” would that make it OK in your mind? Would you do it? To married men, if you meet me in public with your wife and SHE tells me it’s ok then sure, we can do what you want. Other than that, I do not care how sick your wife is or how many terrible disorders she has that keeps her from wanting or having sex, I am sorry, it’s not happening. Lol, on that subject, maybe you might want to make note of the fact that I work in surgery, and have for more than 30 years, even though I am not a doctor, I do have a fairly decent knowledge of disease processes, and to be perfectly honest, some of the shit you all have come up with is as believable as every single trauma patient who SWEARS they were doing NOTHING but minding their own business, reading their bible on their own porch (at 2am) and some DUDE just came up and started shooting/stabbing/beating (whatever) them for NO reason…….lol or like ALL of the patients who get any number of patients who end up with anything from a dildo to an economy size can of Lysol stuck up their ass because they tripped over the cat and whatever it was just went right up their ass….lol I have gotten quite a bit of feedback from my last blog, and some of it has actually been helpful to me. I should clear up a couple of things though. I am NOT looking for “LOVE” Lol, love completely terrifies me. I am looking for SEX. QUALITY, SATISFYING SEX. Not sex with just any random person, I want great sex, frequently, with ONE partner. MUTUALLY satisfying sex. And I SMOKE, my profile indicates that. If we are trying to have sex, and you just “lose it” before it even happens, man up and admit it……What exactly is the point of “having to get to a meeting” and then sending an email later saying it was really fun (Obviously it was for YOU), but I don’t think it will work because I can’t handle the smoke……LOL, it wasn’t the smoke you couldn’t handle. What you couldn’t handle was a REAL LIVE HORNY woman. I KNOW what kind of site this is, lol I came here because of that fact. I’ve used other sites to meet people. Everyone is looking for their “soulmate”, they wanna take long walks by the beach, and listen to my every desire drinking wine in front of a fire while they give me a massage and brush my hair. All kinds of happy shit like that, and what they REALLY want is sex. They just make up all that shit because it sounds good to women and they are more likely to get sex. I figured on this site, where the intent is VERY clear, it would eliminate the bullshit and lies. Funny thing though, it seems I have actually heard more bullshit here than I did on match. If you choose to talk to me, I am fairly intelligent, not a genius by any means, but certainly no idiot. I am 51 years old, and I have NO desire to have anyone CUM right over and do anything for or to me. Saying it like that turns me off very quickly. That is how I would expect a to talk. For the record, sex is VERY mental for me. If you can manage to get my head into it, it will be mind blowing. Talking and attempting to act like you are 20 or 30 years younger than you are does not do it for me. I am NOT looking for random hookups in the middle of the night. I want a REAL FRIEND with benefits, emphasis on FRIEND. I believe in my profile I called it a NSA BF. Lol, I sorry, I do not have the time, energy or desire to have a “real” relationship right now, I just want fun, not wanting to deal with the emotional shit. Nor do I have any desire to have sex and nothing else…..I need something in the middle. The first time you have sex with someone it’s clumsy and awkward, if it’s bad the first time it will ALWAYS be bad, if it is “OK” or “good” or even “GREAT” it will get better as time goes on. GREAT is my goal, I am sick of being sexually frustrated. It is like anything else in life, if you want it to be amazing and good and close to perfection it takes work, in the case I believe the benefit is well worth the effort. I don’t want to waste the rest of my life with first time sex. In my last blog I spoke about my “curiosity” about my possible submissive side. Apparently that was misunderstood as much as the “love” thing. I have a desire to explore being submissive. That does NOT mean I want to be beaten, abused, battered, or talked to like I am a piece of shit. It means I have a desire to “submit” my body for incredible sex…..to explore my limits and see how “high” (from sex), I can get. I am looking for crazy, wild, nasty, dirty, animalistic, upside down monkey vampire sex. As far as being a submissive, I have no idea if I am or even if I am capable of being that, I just have a desire to check it out….if that makes sense. I have spent my entire LIFE doing and being what other people wanted me to do or be. Three years ago when I was blindsided by having my heart ripped out of me and was completely devastated by a fucking Hoosier, once I started processing all of it, I made a promise to MYSELF….that promise was I WILL NEVER “SETTLE” for anything less than I want EVER again. Lol, I am not looking to be a complete bitch, but it is about time I start taking care of myself for a change. Recently, I have done some things, lol or in some cases attempted to do some things with some men simply because of this incredible NEED for sexual satisfaction, I have made choices that were nothing close to what I desire, so I have been settling. I am very disappointed in myself for that. |
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Good thoughts.
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Excellent post. If people would take the time to read what you've said, and what's in your profile, it would make thing a lot easier. Problem is, most men on here don't do anything but look at photos and then send the one-liner e-mails. your quite clear on what your looking for and I do wish you the best of luck.
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I could not have said this better myself. I have up wall`s & don`t meet many. So may use the term FWB just to get you in bed & then there is NO friend`s part till they wan`t to see you again.
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LOL e mail I just got. Walks on the beach lol. I am a very honest, hardworking, loving person and I enjoy a wide range of activities from a walk on the beach to something more offbeat. Generally I consider myself to be very open to new experiences.So much more about me that you will just have to ask. But the one thing that is missing is my best friend, she is out there and when she meets me she will experience what a woman is suppose to feel like , she will experience how a woman should be treated. I want to share life with you my waiting soul mate.I'm looking for a woman that is intelligent, funny, patient, responsible, loyal and that makes me feel safe. I am just hoping to meet a woman who can discuss everything about her , looking for more than just a date..Somewhere out there I hope she is a great lady who will not only want to introduce me to new things, but will also like to try some adventures that are new to both of us.
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Something in the middle sounds like a good thing.   When the going gets weird, the weird turn pro. The only thing we have to fear is fear itself.
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Bothering someone about a blow job isn't anything like "Age is just a number". I tend to believe that it's the men who do all the settling. I had no Idea how old your blogs are.I would have to guess you probably aren't even here anymore and it's the site that is recirculating your profile as if you still are.Enjoy your mortality! Using more than all the road!
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