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S.A.D. It's that time of year again.... It's dark when I go work, it's dark when I leave wor All I want do is crawl into bed and sleep. In the past I would break away and hide out with the Hippie. We would drink too much and watch terrible movies, critiquing their poor writing and implausible plots. Even on the shitty, snowy days like today the time would pass quickly..... I was enjoying myself. Now I sit here and watch the snow fall on a dreary day..... Thinking about how I had commented on Friday that I hated the Hallmark Channel because it gives people an unrealistic expectation for romance. That love always prevails in the end. The guy and the girl always fall in love, always end up together, that everything always works out in the end. I'm living proof that it does not. I would still be married if it did. My ex-husband would have realized what he was losing when I left. He would have gotten help, stopped drinking, and worked toward a better life for myself and our . Instead... I needed a restraining order. His drinking got worse. He found a new girlfriend and filed for divorce. Because, yep! I'm the loser that kept hope that her alcoholic husband would pick her. My story is more of a made for tv drama.... The only thing missing is a tragic car accident and a corrupt<b> police officer.... </font></b>It was Nose Hairs that I was talking to in the lunch room on Friday. When he asked what I did prefer to watch I revealed that I love scary movies. Why? He asked.... Because not once have I ever cried as a result of one, and not once did I ever say to myself, I wish that would happen to me. |
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I am in he cold Northeast ad I hate the time change. It makes any positive feelings disappear especially during the time between turkey and tree. I just go to bed later so when I get up there might be a ray of sunshine. This Christmas was the worst ever
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I am in he cold Northeast ad I hate the time change. It makes any positive feelings disappear especially during the time between turkey and tree. I just go to bed later so when I get up there might be a ray of sunshine. This Christmas was the worst ever (Virtual Symposium Group) use Virtual Symposium Group
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It is SAD that the time of year makes one so dreary. long cold dark nights have a way of getting to us, I hope as the days begin to get longer and you see more of the beautiful sun. it will help your outlook on life, believe me it is temporary.
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The time of year and season does a lot to ones psyche. Hibernate alone or with a friend, but you will come out on the other side....just cuz we always do ~~
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Yeah... I watch a ton of movies and do the same. 😎 
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i was in the same situation...i guess people call it, seasonal depression...well, you know, here in Florida, there is not such a thing as seasonal, as there is no season here...only summer, and a few days of winter. maybe it was the stress of Christmas...some Cristian people thinks i am ungrateful, as they know what the true meaning of Christmas and how could i ever be so depressed??? well, as a christian, i know what is the meaning of Christmas...and i am grateful for the love of Father towards us, and the sacrifice of His son... on top of happy ending Hallmark drama, those picture perfect family photos on Instagram and facebook won't help me much either...well, it's nice to know they are doing fine, but they don't know how i feel inside...plus i don't even want them to know... so i keep a smile on my face, and talk to them, as if nothing to it... but the dark clouds are still hanging over my head...i feel like i am in the fog all the time, and can't see much... maybe it's just chemical imbalance in my head...i hope we can snap out of this soon...
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i was in the same situation...i guess people call it, seasonal depression...well, you know, here in Florida, there is not such a thing as seasonal, as there is no season here...only summer, and a few days of winter. maybe it was the stress of Christmas...some Cristian people thinks i am ungrateful, as they know what the true meaning of Christmas and how could i ever be so depressed??? well, as a christian, i know what is the meaning of Christmas...and i am grateful for the love of Father towards us, and the sacrifice of His son... on top of happy ending Hallmark drama, those picture perfect family photos on Instagram and facebook won't help me much either...well, it's nice to know they are doing fine, but they don't know how i feel inside...plus i don't even want them to know... so i keep a smile on my face, and talk to them, as if nothing to it... but the dark clouds are still hanging over my head...i feel like i am in the fog all the time, and can't see much... maybe it's just chemical imbalance in my head...i hope we can snap out of this soon...
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Yeah... I watch a ton of movies and do the same. 😎 ... is there another way to look at it Going Too Fucking Far NEW Blog Features RevealeD O O A Foolproof Method Posted Over on that NEW site O O
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The time of year and season does a lot to ones psyche. Hibernate alone or with a friend, but you will come out on the other side....just cuz we always do ~~
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It is SAD that the time of year makes one so dreary. long cold dark nights have a way of getting to us, I hope as the days begin to get longer and you see more of the beautiful sun. it will help your outlook on life, believe me it is temporary. Stop by at lonlyforlove2 also see Lunch with Lonly , we get snow tomorrow Check my blog on New Community, "A photo of my big Pecker" also, " My Sunday afternoon with the kids'
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You need to believe there is something big that you would enjoy in your life again. Imagine taking a long holiday where you were appreciated in every and any way possible, with lots of leather, little black killer dress and stilettos and garters/stockings. Poor babe. I hope you like to be teased? Teased and Led by your sissy clit. Yeah, led and appreciated in leather and lace and on a clit leash for me ? ^ oor babe.How many children? Ages? Fully Divorced Now? Free to Fly and have real Fun? tell me more about your past, history and relationships, marriages? Come find me. You need to believe in a real life of being the sissy gurl again OK? Don 
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I love how you write in free-form abstractions and fragments. I think you like to be the center of attention? maybe like to be appreciated and made to feel alive, made to feel like you are floating around my bedroom. Do you like to be kissed. I mean, Really Kissed ? tell me ? OK? You need to be dressed in all leather for me? You need to be with me when you watch it snow, watch the deer, the turkeys, and big screen TV playing a video we made. Yeah babe. Do you want a real friend to have a few laughs, Time is On Our side. Life is what you make it and I make my life filled with all things beautiful. Yeah, I said it, You know my secret. I should not have told you I really like your picture. Yeah, Fearless and cute. I hope I made you smile, babe. Send me real mail, Don
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Baby, Life is what you want it to be. You can reverse the Karma, bad energy, bad spirits and bad alcoholics into a burning pot. Burn up all the bad energy and replace it with happiness and Joy. I am a Master Stud, Master Lover, Dom, lover-boy with a boyish charm. I would love to give you a reason to believe. I worked twelve years outside the USA, in the Iraqi War, Iraqi Freedom, Iran, and Kuwait, living in Thailand. Your sadness is grief for the memories that were good, not great then the abuse. I suggest you get rid of all bad karma and let yourself be open to something new? OK ? So he was an alcholic and an abuser? The pain will disappear when you replace all his bad JuJU with Jai DEE, a Good energy that makes you feel alive. A new spirit that makes you laugh. Put on your best panties and Killer dress as I would be taking you out on the town. In my dreams, I guess I can still dream,, I guess I was dreaming of you and all you have lived. I was dreaming... and I think I made you smile. I appreciate you and your toxic wasteland. Turn the energy around so you are the Winner, Your ex boyfriend is The Loser. No question. Do you understand me ? later, I am giving you extra happiness and Joy. OK? So b Happy! OK? I C U.
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thanks fro sharing your story I'm sorry I hope you find what you are looking for
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I think Hollywood deserves a lot of blame for the demise of the institute of marriage. So many unreal expectations based on film. Marriage is work, it's a partnership, it's not fantasy.
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thanks fro sharing your story I'm sorry I hope you find what you are looking for To leave private messages, please use my confidential mailbox at my blog: Good luck!!! 
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1/5/2020 10:59 am |
I think Hollywood deserves a lot of blame for the demise of the institute of marriage. So many unreal expectations based on film. Marriage is work, it's a partnership, it's not fantasy.
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