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Confessions of an Ugly Duckling
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Confessions of an Ugly Duckling True story.... Once an ugly duckling, always an ugly duckling in the back of your mind. I was the awkward Irish girl who grew up being raised by grandparents with ideals and beliefs from another era. I sported red hair with bad haircuts, giant ears, and super pale skin. Talk about the total package! At some point we grow up and those big ears aren't so big anymore..... And, we're capable of choosing our own hair styles and clothing. But that mindset remains. I once asked my grandma if she thought I was pretty and I'll never forget her answer. "Well, you're no beauty queen." I hadn't said anything, but I was devastated by her answer. I knew what I saw when I looked in the mirror, but for some reason I had hoped that others were able to see something different.... I hoped wrong. Eventually I grew up, and what I lacked in beauty I gained in personality. The funny thing is.... As a grown up, I wasn't all that ugly anymore. My hair wasn't quite so red and my freckles had faded..... The pale skin was still pale but with the miracles of make-up I no longer looked like a serial killer in the making. The problem is, as a grown up, I still feel ugly. When I catch a man looking at me, I feel judging eyes and the insecurities spring forth. How does my hair look? Can you see my ears? Why is he looking at my outfit? I knew I shouldn't have worn this shirt today... What was I thinking?? Once an ugly duckling, always an ugly duckling in the back of your mind..... So, I'll bet you're wondering what this little duckling looked like as a , so here you go folks. Time for the big reveal.  Second Grade 1981 Happy Sunday |
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Interesting 
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I am very partial to red haired women. Freckles are a plus. I am sure you grew into a very pretty, very special woman. Thank you for your story. I hope you have developed all the self confidence you need.
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3/7/2021 12:48 pm |
Interesting
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I am very partial to red haired women. Freckles are a plus. I am sure you grew into a very pretty, very special woman. Thank you for your story. I hope you have developed all the self confidence you need.
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Point #1. Recent studies show that men are attracted to women with freckles. The reason: they find them non-threatening? Point #2. I find red hair and freckles very sexy. (+) You are a taurus. As am I. Point #3. I read through the entirety of your blog and... I think I love you. 
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If we are convinced we are ugly in our youth, that never goes away. It's sad, but true. And yeah, many men, myself included, like red hair and freckles. But there is always that voice in the back of the mind saying, Nah, not really, I'm not the sexy beast people say i am. You see light dappling on the water and forget the deep, cold dark beneath.
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Point #1. Recent studies show that men are attracted to women with freckles. The reason: they find them non-threatening? Point #2. I find red hair and freckles very sexy. (+) You are a taurus. As am I. Point #3. I read through the entirety of your blog and... I think I love you. *. *. *
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Well thank you! You know, back in the day, the bloggers on here used to organize get-togethers so people could come together and get to know their somewhat local writers in real life.
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from one ugly duck to another. remember the end of the story.
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from one ugly duck to another. remember the end of the story.
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Thank you, I needed that. 
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We are all different,that is what makes us individuals otherwise it would be a boring life all looking the same.I was too low on self esteem for many years,my mother was not kind to me. For those we think look beautiful,some have low esteem,too,think the older i get the more comfortable i have become with myself and have woken up to make up and fashions in later life to use as advantage to me
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There are so many of us that feel this way..... It's tough when you look in the mirror and all you see are your flaws.
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2/10/2021 8:10 am |
We are all different,that is what makes us individuals otherwise it would be a boring life all looking the same.I was too low on self esteem for many years,my mother was not kind to me. For those we think look beautiful,some have low esteem,too,think the older i get the more comfortable i have become with myself and have woken up to make up and fashions in later life to use as advantage to me
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She always has been my little twin, except with brown eyes. And, as is, huh.... It's been a while since you've seen me last. I may look like I crawled out from under a bridge somewhere.... 
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I felt like a duckling then and still do. However looking back at my high school pictures, I don't think I was that bad. I didn't have any luck with girls back then and was told on occassion I was ugly. So that has stuck with me. I did manage to finally get laid when I was 23 tho. As for your picture, I don't see an ugly duckling. Thank you for posting. It's nice to see a face even if it's your young face. Sometimes confidence can be the best thing a man can possess. Update your look and eye glasses... Square off those shoulders and sport that confidence.... You'll be surprised what a difference it makes.
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your daughter looks just like you at the same age, as for you, i want you, as is, less clothes maybe 
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There's nothing ugly about you McLade. Nothing. You have beautiful eyes, gorgeous smile, a body to die for. But above all else, your personality is stunning! I bet you were a beautiful wee lass too!! Thank you!
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There's nothing ugly about you McLade. Nothing. You have beautiful eyes, gorgeous smile, a body to die for. But above all else, your personality is stunning! I bet you were a beautiful wee lass too!!
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your daughter looks just like you at the same age, as for you, i want you, as is, less clothes maybe
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I felt like a duckling then and still do. However looking back at my high school pictures, I don't think I was that bad. I didn't have any luck with girls back then and was told on occassion I was ugly. So that has stuck with me. I did manage to finally get laid when I was 23 tho. As for your picture, I don't see an ugly duckling. Thank you for posting. It's nice to see a face even if it's your young face.
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Pictures of all of us when we were young look different . They look different as we had a different mindset back then, we look at them now and see it different. A waste! To waste such youth on the inexperienced. As you grew older you understood what beauty was, it is not only the color of your hair , the texture of your skin but the total package. That one as real people see you. Some people think that one has to be of a "Barbie Doll shape to be beautiful, Far from this is real beauty. The inner beauty out shadows most of some ones physicals features that you see as a negative. Just Smile, your grandmother wasn't wrong, she just didn't understand what a beauty queen can be.. And by now you should know guy don't look at ugly girls, It is the beauties that catch our eyes.. Hope you are well , have a good and just be safe..
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My mom told me I was an ugly child when I was born! 
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WOW, I am sorry to hear that Hippiechick1976, that is aweful that your mother would tell you that. What she being honest or telling you that to be hurtful? Though it does not matter what the answer is, it was still wrong to say to a child especially your own daughter! How sad is that, that you have no photos with your father. Be it intentional or not, sometimes parents and others can hurt us in ways they do not know and the scars can be lasting for ever to us to deal with. I hope that your relationship with your mother is better now that you are older and that your father grew up. Elevate me... 
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It really doesn't matter if it was true or not- I question her motivation in telling me such a thing. I like my read hair now, finally now that it's graying, lol. I always wanted a dad that adored me and thought was a princess. *sigh* Elevate me...
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