Reset Password
If you've forgotten your password, you can enter your email address below. An email will then be sent with a link to set up a new password.
Cancel
Reset Link Sent
If the email is registered with our site, you will receive an email with instructions to reset your password. Password reset link sent to:
Check your email and enter the confirmation code:
Don't see the email?
  • Resend Confirmation Link
  • Start Over
Close
If you have any questions, please contact Customer Service
Forgot password?
Blogs > CeriosEros > The life & times of Zero Mega

Am I really a debbie downer?  

CeriosEros 39M
615 posts
9/14/2016 6:36 pm

Last Read:
9/23/2016 4:59 pm
Am I really a debbie downer?

I got a response to a blog post saying that I put myself down a lot and I bring everyone down. Which I didn't see but it got three agree votes so it doesn't matter if I don't see it other people see it. I know I can be a whiny little bitch sometimes with my "Here I live in the land of plenty crying about my own virginity" thing. And yes that is a Indigo girls lyric. I got Lillth Fair nostalgia, DON'T JUDGE ME!

I honestly don't get it. I do call myself a loser or a weirdo from time to time and of course my confidence is so low its has to ask the earth mantel to keep it down up there but I see it more as being honest with myself and not putting myself down. Am I getting the results I want. No. Am I getting the reactions from people that I want. No. A man is judged by the results he produces if I am not producing results I am a loser. I not helping myself by sugar coating things even if I'm more sensitive than the average person it doesn't matter. My feelings don't matter only results matter. So, to produce results I could lie which I'm terrible at or I could get better which I'm trying to do. And by calling myself a loser I give myself a reminder and a cathartic release.

I have one result I want to produce. Get laid. Which I'm trying to build up to. Because pity sex is a myth. No one fucks down. They fuck up or across. So like a jokey riding a race I have to bring out the<b> whip </font></b>sometimes to motivate but I'm also a gentleman and gentlemen make sure everyone around them is as comfortable as possible so I'll try to quell the loser talk.

CeriosEros 39M
642 posts
9/14/2016 6:40 pm

 There are winners, there are losers and there are people who have not yet learned how to win.

Les Brown


Heathen_G 65M
7974 posts
9/14/2016 7:38 pm

 Being a "Gentleman" = Being a "Sucker".


rob5ice2 66M
Ask me for a photo
199 posts
9/15/2016 1:39 am

 Focus on what you want to be. Yes it would be nice to have a sexual relationship of some kind. But in the scheme of things. To only focus on that. You are just setting yourself up to be used and abused.

Hence changing the word loser to 'needing to improve', or 'stop doing'. But for the most part. Stop worrying about meeting expectations of others.

And I can see the rockets flying on the next one.

- Be comfortable and focus with/on what you want to be. For you, not others. Because odds are. The majority of women will try and change you anyway. Then wonder why you are not the same man they meet later in life.

But hey... in the world we live today. If you don't like the words, or the results. Just event new ones. Seems everyone else is these days. lol

Maybe it is time to try some new hobbles and get into a different circle. Letting you reinvent yourself as you would like to be.

Have a good one.


Become a member to create a blog