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What might have been
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What might have been am a 65 year old married white male and for the last half of my life, i have realized that my purpose in life is to serve and please Black Men. From my teens, i knew that i was a submissive. i was led there through little side drawings on my father's porn catalogs. tiny little men and Amazonian Women, men clinging to stiletto heels, disappearing into the<b> cleavage </font></b>of massive breasts and struggling to hold up Black nylons on the perfect Amazonian legs. i knew my place was to serve. Through this time i also developed my fascination with Women's clothing, wearing my Mother's panties, stockings and yes, even girdles. For nearly twenty years, i struggled to get my submissive fix serving Dominant Women. i continued to be a closet cross dresser, i frequented video stores where i became fascinated with Trans videos, and i kept a constant supply of Fem Dom literature on hand. Becoming the sissy for the Domme was always my dream. Through these years, i had two encounters with transgenders, neither of whom allowed me to make sexual advances on Them. They made me orgasm but i was not allowed to reciprocate. Deep inside i knew i wanted to. Into my 30's i turned toward Men for my submissive fix. For a few years, i had been leaving the door ajar in the video booths and allowed other Men to service me. i felt if They could do it so could i. i sucked a few cocks through glory holes but it seemed so hollow, like something was missing. One day i was surprised to see an unescorted Black Woman in the video area. We made eye contact and i followed Her to a booth. Once inside, She exposed a more than ample breast and i began to suckle it. After a few mins She pushed me to my knees and there before me was at least an eight inch Cock. I sucked it to completion and swallowed. i was hooked at that point. It still took me a while to accept my role as a Black Cocksucker but i have. i fond it difficult and nearly impossible to complete a session with another white guy, unless i am being directed to by a Black Man. Today, i am married with and grand . i would love to find and give myself to a deserving Black Master and become His property and be femmed to serve Him. Alas that does not seem to be an option. So, i am left to move from one sexual encounter to another with "Top" Black Men Who don't seem to quite get the Superiority thing. i continue t wonder "WHAT MIGHT HAVE BEEN" if as a , i had been taken by a Black Man and taught the joys of what i now understand. If i had been femmed then and used for His profit and entertainment. Would my life have been fulfilling? |
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