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My brain is about to explode. HELP!
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My brain is about to explode. HELP! I need to get this off my chest... my brain is about to explode. I am in California. My girlfriend/future fiance is in another major city in the midwest. We are trying to get together but a variety of logistical business and family issues keep throwing road blocks in the way. During visits and on our daily phone calls, our fantasy sex life began to blossom. One of them was, since I was not there, she was free to fuck who she wanted as long as she told me. The fantasy of it made very turned-on. Then... OMG. She took me up on it. A neighbor she's known for several years recently separated from his wife. She invited him to spend the weekend with her at her vacation place! She told me about it about 4 days before the trip, and during discussing it, it slowly became obvious she wants to fuck this guy. Bad. Finally, after much conversation, I got her to admit she wanted to fuck him all weekend. They went up... she called me a couple of times, let me know she fucked him (with that terminology) and how it was. Very detailed. OMFG. She spoke with a tone that was so calm, so confident, very matter-of-fact describing how they fuck. Telling me she fucked him, etc etc. There's a hole in the ceiling where I spooged. When she got back she said she wanted to "...fuck him again" and described how good it was, just pouring all this graphic detail of three days of spreading her legs. And through it all, she reassures me she loves me, she's not falling for him, she's feeling very "lusty". She just wants him to touch her and fuck her. Somebody shoot me. This is my first open relationship. It turned me on talking about it, but now that it's happened, I am so massively horny I can't function. My stomach is in a knot, I have no appetite, my heart is pounding constantly, I can't sleep more than a couple hours a night... My right hand has apoplexy. But at the same time I have to admit to a very slight twinge of jealousy, mostly from not being there. Being in the dark, not knowing... about...the details. But mostly I'm just consumed with horniness hearing it. Is THIS what it's like? My GF just talks about her sex desires and fantasies as if she was telling me the weather. Just casual, confident, no silliness, no giggling or insecurity over it, she just comes out with it...and looks me dead in the eye and does not blink. THEN come to find out she told him all about me, and just asked him point blank if he would like to have a threesome with me and her and him (which she swears she's never done before). He immediately said "Sure" and so now it's on. OMFG. I am not going to be able to get any work done next week. I am SO freaking consumed with the turn-on it's simply overwhelmed me. Am I alone with these responses to an open relationship? Please help, I'm losing my mind from horniness. How to do y'all function??? When can I return to normal? |
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