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Awakening the Beast Within
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Awakening the Beast Within I've been thinking that I should probably bring some levity to this space. I mean those last two posts were basically everything that's been swimming up in my head for the last few months. And no one can live only in my head, not even me! So I thought I'd share my sexual awakening here since it was so life-changing for me. Once upon a time, I was married to an ogre. No seriously if I could post a picture here you'd think he looked like a Mexican Shrek. And I'm not ashamed to admit that minus the green skin and a few ogre features, I resemble Fiona. She's a badass. Anyway I digress... I met my 's father during a bad time in my life. I was on a serious rebound and on the hunt for the absolute complete opposite of my previous love, what I believed was the love of my life. My 's father, let's call him 'M', crashed into my life, charmed the pants off of me and proceeded to rapidly impregnate me. It was seriously my own fault. I failed to use a second round of birth control when we went again immediately after finishing our first round of "I-don't-know-you-yet-so-I-can't-get-enough-of-you" sex. We'd been together hardly a month. When the plus sign showed up on the test, we discussed our options and decided to give it a go and try doing the family thing together. Unfortunately he wasn't very mature for almost 40 and I wasn't yet good at leaving what is no good for me and going after what I want. So fast forward ten years and I'm miserable. Overworked, overstressed, out of love, taking care of everyone but myself and to top it off weighing over 300 pounds so basically killing myself slowly. I got so stressed that I became physically ill and suddenly noticed my clothes were starting to hang off of me and when I weighed myself, I had lost 25 pounds effortlessly. So I took it as a diving off point and started walking, eating vegetarian; but caring for myself meant seeing all the dysfunction in my marriage and what I didn't have: a partnership, peace, love, sex and passion for my partner. We separated then divorced and I felt reborn. One of the first things I did when the weight loss started was join FriendFinder-x. Because of my ex-husband's sexual dysfunction, I'd shut down my sex drive because I just didn't have the means or even motivation to have an affair. Suddenly, I was getting attention from men and I was feeling frisky again after years of feeling dead inside. I met a few someones who rocked the shit out of my world and showed me how alive I really was. I've always been highly responsive and I've been told that the fact that I can orgasm through vaginal penetration alone is not all that common. But I was introduced to my G-spot, I gushed for the first time, and I started having multiple orgasms. Talk about feeling reborn. There is nothing like some sincere and passionate care and attention and a good old-fashioned orgasm to help a woman feel alive again. I was talking to the wonderfully charming and inimitably sexy James last night. All night long. There was the back and forth of sneaking him into my house while the bf and the slept (didn't happen, can't happen), let's meet at the 7-11 off the freeway and fool around like<b> teenagers </font></b>in the parking lot (felt too desperate and very unspecial for what we're sure will be incredibly hot sex). We Kik'd for a bit, then chatted for a very long, torturous while, sighing into our phones, giggling, being polite and then oh-so impolite. It was delicious. The only way it could have been better is if we'd been doing it in person. Which we're hoping to make happen next week. That, my friends, is how to remind yourself that you're still alive. |
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