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I can't breathe
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I can't breathe It comes not so much as a surprise but more of unavoidable truth. The more I spend time on this particular website, the more I desperately try to connect with people, and more I try to open myself up, the more I realize actually despicable, selfish, destructive human desire can truly be. I'm by no means leaving, but it's hard to find a reason to truly stay here if sole reason, the heart of why I even came back it is truly something that can easily fade away at a moment's thought. I find it hard to understand how anyone can be so disgustingly blinded by their own desires that they throw away their Humanity just for the opportunity of either one or or many orgasms. Maybe I'm being a little bit over critical of some of the people on here, but a majority of individuals on here throw away any sign of rational thought for the sake of pleasure. I'm even starting to regret the idea of you and sharing my body the way I have with all of you. The idea that somehow people who view me more as an object the person that they can respect I've befriend. I just think that there are many other people, no matter what gender or sex they are, being treated the same way. I certainly have my own desires, but I feel like it might be too much at this point to really sink my teeth deeply into such a forbidden fruit. Maybe it was it truly meant to be for us to connect so easily as it's shown the divide is so drastic at this point between men and women, and anything in between. What reason to any of us have to truly be on here? What true benefit can actually be given here to us in a long-term manner? How many of you have become infuriated with frustrated by if you're being mistreated or never being offered the chance to show someone what you could offer? And what good does it to anyone to stay on here so long? I truly feel as though life has been rushing past me every moment I spend time on here. Like I'm missing out on some greater experience that could be waiting for me even if I spend announce the second looking through messages or trying to find a way to rewrite my profile. There's so much more to life than sex and I want to keep sight of that. For anyone who's been following my blog thus far, I want you to take some time and self reflect. Think about what you lost, whether it be the time or money or anything else for that matter, and if it was worth it to lose all of that. Is it truly worth your time and effort to try to gamble the opportunity for a fleeting moment of pleasure, or more realistically the failure to do so? I have to imagine that only a handful of people on here I've had the opportunity to have a significant amount of success. Last time I was on here I had a rather traumatic experience dealing with individuals who did not give me space or time to breathe. It was a rather frightening experience that innocence has left me scarred to the point that I've had to seek professional help to try to quell my mind. It's not something that I've taken any legal action against this site or any one person, but the idea that sexual desires can lead someone to hurt another to such a degree it's incredibly sad and terrifying. I've even heard his story where a person and their significant other when they threw a violent evening between the two and at the core of the relationship, at the core of their sexual desires, was BDSM. Only years later after they had the opportunity to hopefully good through all of this did the person who initiated the violence initially do something to utterly surprised their significant other and a very positive and heartwarming manner. I think many of us are on here for the wrong reason. As wonderful as sex maybe and the freedom making provide, the Dark Side of all of this, far greater than any Star Wars story could ever portray, is the fact that very basic human connections are for more significant and desired than any quickie we could ever get with someone else. Maybe take a moment and think before you decide to long on the next time you're here whether or not you can just go on with your day or easily and productively after simply masturbating versus slaving your time away to desperately grab someone's attention or gratification. If anything else, don't ever find yourself being forced to come back to this place simply for the hope that you somehow we're going to fill a void that otherwise hasn't been filled because of not taking action in other areas of your life. Maybe talk with an old friend you haven't for awhile, maybe speak with your significant other a little bit more in-depth than you usually do, maybe go out for a night and enjoy yourself for what it's worth in a manner that isn't disrespectful to your body. Find some way to truly enjoy life for what it's worth because before you know it you might be gone. It's a scary reality that all of us have the face that one day we will be gone, and I don't want to be looking back and my mid-twenties thinking all I did was work and try to stop<b> creepy </font></b>old men from having their way with my body while flirting with a bunch of wonderful women and nice guys. I think that wraps up my thought for the most part, at least for now. I think it's about time I get some more sleep and get over being sick.  |
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1/29/2018 6:02 pm |
Sorry to hear your been having a rough time on this site through both of your experiences here. And getting sick on top of that is just... ugh. I've heard disturbing stories of guys on here that just shut their brain off and think with their dicks instead, and from how it sounds that's all you've been getting. If you're going to step back for a while and get some air then by all means, take all the space you need. I only wish I could've talked with you a little. I promise not all men are sex starved animals. Some of us have a functioning brain stem.
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1/29/2018 6:07 pm |
Hey I hope you don't give up on this site entirely. I wish I could understand how overwhelming it could be to be on here but I unlike you don't have a vagina so nobody is beating down my door. .. But with that said yes this site like every other one out there tends to draw out the worst in people. You could go on Facebook and find the same amount of sadness and vitriol there as you would on like Brietbart, ok well not that level of dumbness but you get the point. Anytime you engage with people and think you find something there more often then not they let you down. But that doesn't mean giving in or giving up. It means that when you finally do wade the human sea of shit, to which there is a lot of sadly, when you do make that connection it makes it seem worth it in the end. It's all trial and error, mostly error. But Edison didn't invent the lightbulb on his first try and no one finds love on their first go except on Hallmark Movies. So I would say to you to yes take a breath, exhale assess what it is you truly want and narrow your focus. But push forward and most of all just don't take it to seriously, if you let life get to you it will overwhelm you and crush you. But try to let certain things go and learn from everything. Oh and try get better too, you may be gorgeous but it's going to be hard to find someone when you're coughing and sneezing all over them!
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Well, there are for sure many "turds in the punchbowl" on such a site such as this one. do not forget the premise of the site as well. It is just a truth that goes with the territory. People are going to say unpleasant things. They are just words on a screen and cannot manifest themselves into psychical form thankfully. I learned long ago how to deal with things like that. not just on such a place such as here, but in real life as well. Tell them what they will not expect and you will be surprised how it can cause many to back off.
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Get well soon neighbor! and thank you for your wise enlightening thoughts. I hope i've come here for the right reasons, if not the right situation things get grim real quick. catch you on the flip side
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1 post 8/11/2018 12:05 pm |
I ran across this specific message for a reason. Thank you so much for breaking everything down the last 3 or 4 of your posts were eye opening and actually is going to make me deactivate my account. I originally came on here because I wanted to find a woman on here to not only be able to hang out with from time to time but also to be able to play with and introduce to my husband. I have came across no woman who would not even talk to me in the couple of hours I've been on here and I do indeed find myself looking for someone to respond to me when all in all I can just be myself outside of this screen and find a woman/friend all on my own because I'm a damn good person. I don't have the time to go searching on here for women who as soon as you message them bypass or are on here for whatever underlying reason and Im sure me and my husband will be fine without this site...its not as helpful as I thought. Well you have a great life and I wish you the best honey. Don't stress you are amazing (your body as well) and you will find what you are looking for outside of this site. just to add though honey you sparked an electric spark in my mind and my body from your profile. So I know you can spark it in someone else. =)
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