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This year I'm coming out!
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This year I'm coming out! You know it's hard enough in this world to meet a gay man who's interested in a real, monogamous, marriage headed relationship but when you're blind, it's almost impossible to find someone. I was born blind in 1966 as a result of a genetic disability called Bilateral Optic Nerve Hyperplasia. I can see only light. There are other problems that may exist with this abnormality. Though I do not have motor or cognitive disabilities, I do have micro penis, a decreased testosterone level, a higher estrogen level and I am effeminate in my hands, height, voice, and soul. When I was born doctors waited to circumsize me until I was four. I believe now it was because they wanted to see if my male organs would grow. I grew very little. Right now my penis is about 3 inches long and impotent. It's used only to pee and I hate it. I want it and my testacles removed leaving only an opening to pee from. I already sit down to teetee as a preference. I want to sit to tinkle because I must. I wear maxy-pads because it makes me feel girlie. Nothing more. I wear panties exclusively and haven't put on men's underwear in about 3 years. Often I wear a dress under a heavy shirt and coat. I will wear a bra and have recently started going outside in a dress, hose, panties and bra. Once I walked down stairs to the parking lot at noon. Soon, I'll walk out that door in a new pink, long sleeved dress, bikini panties, pink tights, bra, pink sandals, carrying a pink purse with hershey's kisses, douche,<b> perfume </font></b>and lipstick in it. I'll take a uber to the Habana Inn and sit on a bar stool and wait. I'll go to bed with the first man who expresses interest and I won't feel one bit disgusted, ashamed or guilty. From the time I was about 3 years old I knew something was different about me. I prefered playing with dolls. I would poke a hole in a trash bag when I was around six and pretend I was wearing a dress. But when I was about 8, I really began to understand. I found a pair of panties in the bathroom floor one day as I was about to bathe. I don't know why but I realized "hey this is what I should be wearing." I put them on after bathing and I felt a shock of electricity go through me. I felt whole. I wore those panties every day and washed them out by hand. Within a couple months, I had about five pair of panties, a night gown, a full length dress and some panty-hose under sy my matress. I stold them from my sister's bureau. I would wear panties and hose every day to school and sometimes when the weather was cold I'd wear a dress and bra. I'd ststuff the hem of the dress down in my pamts. i discovered maxy-pads in the 9th grade and wor a pad everer day. I still do. I was about 25 when I got bold enough to slip something inside me. It was the handle of a brush and I cried out with pleasure so loudly my aunt opened my bedroom door I was sitting on my bed the handle buried inside me. I began using markers, cucumbers and bananas. Recently I have started attaching a plunger to the floor by suction and riding the thick handle. I also give myself enemas with the high powered nozle of my kitch sink sprayer. I will shoot water inside se me for almost a minute until the pain becomes almost too much, and then pee it all out, smiling as I think "Yeah, baby. make me yours and I'll keep the cleanest motor you've ever had." Well today I bought a 9 inch butt plug and prostate stimulator I cannot wait to wear, douche I cannot wait to use, a new pink dress I swear I'll wear outside and even walk along the sidewalk wearing it. I bought pink tights and 6 pair of pin; panties. I also bought 40 pack of maxy-pads. I'm ready for someone to date me. But until then, I'm going to fill my blog with erotic stories in hopes somebody will read them and want to be my boyfriend. |
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