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A New Experience
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A New Experience I have been having an Affair with a married man for several months. What started out as innocent late night chats on here became sexual encounters. I have made passing reference to him before as my “Secret Lover”. I say Lover in the most complete meaning. He was kind, always complimentary and concerned about my life. He would ask about my day and was always happy for me when thing were going well and genuinely sympathetic when something troubled me. When we made love it had was with sexual passion and emotional connections. I loved being with him for all right reasons. He was gentle, respectful of my desires and gave me hours of pleasure. We both understood we were committed to others and could never turn these few hours together in to a permanent relationship which in some ways added to the excitement when we could be together. We continued to meet in private for a few months when something I told one night took us in a new direction. I told him “I love being your Mistress”. I was speaking in the sense of being his concubine or paramour. He took it to mean as a Dominatrix. He eagerly told me how wanted to be my Slave and obey my every command. I was some what taken back the lust I felt in him as he told me what he was willing to do for me. Something I must tell you here. Years before we moved to New York I did have a brief period where I experimented with the world of BDSM. I actually tried being the one being Punished and the one giving the Punishment. I was sometimes Dominate and other times Sub-Dominate. As I progressed in my Transition, I put BDSM behind me and concentrated more on becoming totally feminine. I realized BDSM was not what I wanted in life. I resisted or ignored requests to re-enter shadowy world. I told myself people were confusing I often like to wear leather as erotic fashion to entice men with thinking I was a Dominatrix. Now suddenly I was confronted a man I loved romantically asking me to turn him into submissive slave. A total reversal of the relationship we had and I was enjoying. I thought through this for days, imagining all the possible consequences. Was I willing to forego my role as his lover and take on the role of his superior? I even talked to my dearest friend for advise. I thought of completely ending our relationship. I was so unsure of the new direction we may be heading. In the end, I decided to do it for him. I love him much. I don’t know how to completely explain this. I have decided to humiliate and bring anguish to a man I love. I have put aside expressing my love for him to making him beg to lick my boots. Instead of enjoying him making love to me, I must degrade him denying him sex. Instead of praising his sexual<b> skills </font></b>I must forbid him from touching me except to lick another man’s cumm from my Ass. Instead of him having the leadings role in our love making, I punish him for the slightest indiscretion, even being late for my . Now instead of him being on me and creating wonderful passion, I order him to be on his knees in front of me for whatever I want done to me. I have never felt this way before. In complete control of I man I love so to even control his Orgasm. In my prior sessions there was not the element of Love. Those were simple times of detached debauchery without any emotional content. We have done this now three times. I have found myself being more and more powerful as his Mistress. I have become more cruel and more demanding each time. I have taken him from manliness to lowliness over the last month. He is now my complete SLAVE. I am ordering a new Strap-On Dildo to teach him what’s it’s like being A BITCH SLAVE. I want a full weekend with him serving my every Command to enforce my position as his Masterful Mistress. I don’t plan to make this my lifestyle. I am only doing this for my LOVER. Mistress Jan for my SLAVE  |
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You can bound me and control me anytime!!
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Lucky bastard ...ooops , You are a generous soul , and obviously very appealing to any turned on by femininity , I consider myself a "lip stick lesbian" with fetishes , and gotta say ,You do the "Mistress look " proud. Because of my love of wearing leather people almost always assume I'm a Top Dom , though I don't mind really , showing any degree of cruelty is not my thing ... yet expected ...it's a trip but I'm learning to expand my horizons. I figure the term versatile fits me better , so Mistress don't I deserve a spanking ? it's all good if Your heart's in the right place ...I think Yours is ... XX'K"
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Very Nice!! You can cuff or tie me up if you want too!! You look great!!!
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Different strokes for different folks. As long as it is mutual pleasure...Great!!
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a lot of Dominants do it for their lovers... because a true connection exists and it allows a deeper relationship a true Dominant acts always out of love and respect in My opinion.
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I know this won't last and it's not the way I wanted this to go and in some ways I regret it did. Maybe my post was a call for help. Thanks you for taking the time to write your comment.
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I would have told him no and talk about different options if u felt like u were losing that intimate connection
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Loved to read this
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I actually feel sad for you. You lost something that was meaningful and special. You lost the intimacy that fed your core and brought you fulfillment. Had you found those things in your past experiences, you would still be there. You weren't fulfilled and it wasn't representing the real you. Now, you have sold your authenticity for a mask. That makes me sad. You should really sit down and talk with your lover about this. It won't last if you keep moving in this direction. I think you know this and I sense a hint of that in your writing. I wish you the best. Thank you for sharing!
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Cool
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8/8/2019 10:50 am |
Awesome, hope it works out.
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Glad u found what u want and care about enough to express it in different ways.
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The things we do for lovers.
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