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It’s A Struggle
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It’s A Struggle It’s a struggle to find balance in my life. It’s a struggle to be a man struggles with his sexuality. I love women and find them attractive, but I can never stop thinking about girls with cocks, and how they turn me on way more than a women ever can. I struggle with trying to convince myself that I really do want to be with a women because day and night thoughts of some sexy legs wearing nylon with a cock hanging in between those legs. I get the urge to be a sissy boy all the time and how all I want to do is wear women’s clothing and please a cock (or two or three  ) It’s a struggle to live with myself knowing I’m living a lie with every women I meet that I pretend I am someone I am not. It’s hard to live a life where coming out with how I feel would change my life in so many ways. One thing I don’t struggle with is I know I am not attracted to men... and what I mean by that is I know I am into transsexuals/cross dressers. I am so jealous of other cross-dressers get to live their life freely, and it’s a struggle for me knowing that could be me if I just decide to open up. I need a sexual experience with a transsexual or crossd-dresser to help me understand my sexuality. I struggle with so many unanswered questions about my sexuality... I know what sex is like with a women , but I believe having sex with transsexuals will be so much more fun and pleasing. I want to feel what it’s like to around with someone enjoys dressing up as women and wants their sissy cock to pulse through their pantyhose just waiting to be sucked. I want to know how good it feels when you’re wearing slick tights and you have a sissy cock behind you just getting deeper in you. I need to know what it feels like to stroke another sissy girl off and feel her legs twitch as her cock gets juiced. I want to taste the cum of a sissy ’s cock has been down my throat so deep that it makes me gag. I need to know what it’s like having a transsexual women dominate me as she<b> dresses </font></b>me in the most ridiculous outfits making me become her slave. I struggle with not knowing what it feels like to have my cock rubbed up against another cock in nylon. I struggle with my sexual fantasies. I like women, but part of me just thinks I check them out just to envision my favorite cross dressers I’m their clothes. Every time I go to a clothing store, I always locate the section where the pantyhose, leggings, and underwear are. Visions crossing my mind about how i pick out a pair of stockings To wear for my favorite ladies. I think all my struggles would go away if I had a sissy crossdressing slut in my life. My life would be better understood and give me answers to questions I have had for a very long time. |
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10/28/2019 2:58 am |
Sorry if there are typos, or some sentences read a little funny. It took me a while to type this and was just to tired to go back to really review for errors. This was also typed from a phone, so I hope the format is alright.
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10/28/2019 3:00 am |
Feel free to comment, question, or give a thought on what you struggle with. I’m curious to learn if there is anyone else out there that might be able to relate to what I am saying or would be willing to be the one to help me out of my shell.
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10/28/2019 3:52 am |
lol ok here it is in a nutshell ..you are struggling with gender identity and its sad at your age ..and girls with dicks? no such thing and you will soon learn that the men who change their bodies to resemble women are born guys and will be till they die ..you like what you like and its your choice .. everyone has on the planet has choices but ....dont disillusion yourself about genders ...there are two genders ...female and male ...not anything in between...just saying
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you are still young...and perhaps, you are in the stage of exploring your sexuality...i don't think it is a problem...explore...seek and you will find who you are... now that's been said...i think you should tell them about how you feel before you proceed a relationship...i mean...a long term, not like just one night stand... open communication is a key...if your partner can't agree with who you really are, you are gonna have to hide yourself from them, and in the long run, it won't work...you will end up being hurt...and also end up hurting others...so be up front with it, if you are seeking a serious relationship... good luck...i am not judging you...i am pretty sure, someone can help you to find who you are, especially on the site like this...
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Sorry if there are typos, or some sentences read a little funny. It took me a while to type this and was just to tired to go back to really review for errors. This was also typed from a phone, so I hope the format is alright.
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