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The common question~ what are you looking for?
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The common question~ what are you looking for? That will always be the first question people have of me and it is nice to hear people do ask that now and again. As of this moment I am content with the way things are going. I feel that I will need more time to myself and when the time is right I will be back to dating the one guy Im supposed to. I feel compelled to tell anyone and everyone by tomorrow I will probably close my account. I needed to share some things because they were in my head and in my heart. However just not concerned about hooking up because it is not on my list of things to do. I have access to anyone I'd probably consider an option but I've also just felt less inclined to stay in touch with anyone who is just wanting a short term thing. I dont like to feel more alone if I get intimate with someone who is just living in the moment. So basically when I signed on it was to talk to people when im on here. I guess its nice to be able to talk to people who are attracted to me and that is part of the attention I welcome. However in the long run I still get sexual advances no matter what I do- so for instance someone will email me and or text me they want to hook up. I get a little irritated when that might be the first thing on a guys mind about me but I understand majority of men are sexually driven and it is their instinct to want to procreate. So in conclusion I dont think any guy just wants to be just my friend and I recently came to understand that. I think any guy wants to get laid for sure because sex feels good. I can sit here and think of that guy I was seeing for 8 months and get into a daydream pattern. My body does ache for his touch and his tongue and much more. He's the only person I am emotionally attached to; but I as I said I dont know how time will play out... I am not looking for anyone but I do go to places to where people can talk to me. Last nite a chick made a joke with me about my ass when a song came on about booty. I dont know why but I felt that it was a come on line because I could tell she was bisexual. I didnt dress girly girl but more like skater chick and Im comfortable to dress down and cover up. So yes I know people did notice me because I was called out to in the parking lot when I left the establishment i was at last nite. It is so true that even when I dress conservatively I do get more attention. As of late wearing all the outfits my man gave me. I can actually say hes mine because I choose to; so I guess Im not available... IN turn I know people still flirt with him if he's out and about and its always happened... Hes told me men look at me all the time but he's happy I go home with him. So I think that it was a good thing to be in the relationship with my man. We are on a break so right now Im just not solely in a relationship. I'm just not available because I choose not to be. I dont go out with people who are much older. I have dated a lot of different ages but yes my man is younger than me. Just not half my age and I already did the math. I cant be with someone who is 21. I already did that and Ive moved on.. So anyway I do have a man<b> crush </font></b>I think he's much older than me; I think hes an ok guy but I dont really "know" him. I know he flirts with me when he makes it obvious; but I know that is about all I can say. He resembles my first husband and it blows my mind. However thats life, there are people who resemble someone physically that we once loved. Is there anything else I'd like to add? I honestly miss sex and it is the one person I want to see- I know I will eventually... yes it was the guy I was seeing for 8 months I know I can see myself with him long term; but only time will tell if he will pursue me for a relationship Anyway, just working and concentrating on my thoughts- I am working on my health and yes Im working just on vacation for one more week |
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