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AFF and the Great Help with Being Self Confident about myself now
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AFF and the Great Help with Being Self Confident about myself now This website has been the best thing for my attitude towards my body image. I have never been small and dainty, always struggling with my weight (really my weight .... No I struggled with all the tasty bad food that goes toward weight, lets blame taste buds instead ... but I digress) In my 20's, I played on here (FriendFinder-x) to meet couples (I was in Mass, I played around in New Hampshire), but 20 years later and i , I am still about the same weight. I even fit the same clothes. Years of being this size and shape - the men in my life would use that as a belittling tactic with me, and after years, I even bought into that same bullshit. And among things they used to against me was how "freaky" i was .... Now I look back and see how my "freaky" back then is so vanilla now. But being a sub who enjoys restraints was ... for some reason I can't see now .... was used against me. So I tucked that urge/longing away and locked it up. Years later (33 Years old) with another a breakup, and encouragement from friends and family, I sold my house, gave away all my belongings and packed my car to head to Florida, I remember packing essentials. my window AC unit, My PS2 (ps3 not even out yet), my laptop and a few clothes ... left all the winter jackets and stuff behind. 12 Years later, and a wonderful 10 year relationship ...... So I am now separated from this man. He was different, he loved me any shape and size. He would let me know, as long as I was comfortable, he was good with it. This man ... greatest lover by far. Polite, generous stand up kind of guy. He let me go so I could chase my career. He forever healed me. Now.... after any separation of a long term relationship, and living completely alone in a city with no friends and family ... Except my 3 year old Bulldog. It was time for me to get to know the real me. It had been so long since I was single that I didn't want to just do that rebound stuff that always is regretful. It was 6 months or so ... So I decided to Join FriendFinder-x again. This time, I decided .. no hiding that urge. I'm where no one knows me, so if you can't accept this me .... then leave me alone. I love the phrase "If you find me offensive ... I suggest you quit fucking finding me" So I took pictures of me in what you see on my profile and put it out there ... with the attitude .... Let that freak flag fly and don't apologize for it. I didn't expect much ... or maybe I should say I expected negative mean remarks. Insead ... I have more people trying to hook up. So many compliments. These past few months have been so freeing and happy, that I even started broadcasting this week. OMG, the tips piled up quickly. So thanks for reading, I just needed to vent that and enjoy your day. |
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Glad to hear a great story about finding yourself. I like to remind folks who ask that sexy comes in all shapes and sizes. . Welcome to blogs “Be yourself; everyone else is already taken.” ― Oscar Wilde
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2/21/2019 9:33 am |
wow I had alot more to say but then I read the profile and it shut me right up
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Great profile and I hope you have success and happiness on here (Virtual Symposium Group) use Virtual Symposium Group
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I enjoyed reading your story.
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4/1/2019 1:59 pm |
Its great that you found yourself
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