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expectations  

okuth0r 49M
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4/18/2019 7:10 pm
expectations

So I talk to those I may get together with (don't think busy, no getting together with anyone this ) about expectations. Because of my ex, when we had sex just to have sex its has damaged . It went from having a hard cock and my choice of holes to put it in to feeling like I was clocking into the orgasm factory for my shift. I had to do all the physical work (I do like to be on top banging a wet pussy, but there is more than one position) and HAD to get her off.
Why does this matter? well I can jack off, it gives pleasure, fucking is not about one persons pleasure. Yes I enjoyed holes for my dick to pound away and in, but the expectations were I had to do the work, she had to , and I just had to be ok with it.
So I get very anxious about satisfying. Makes nervous, so nerves and<b> anxiety </font></b>keep from performing well. My last attempt at getting a blowjob is an example.
I was told I could over and get a blowjob. Well we talked and talked and talked, hours. So I was playing with my dick a bit and finally we got to getting naked and stroking and just all the talking and when we finally get on the bed he was all into body contact, I got soft and just couldn't get hard, and then I sucked him a bit and let him rub his cock against my ass. All of just made uncomfortable because of the<b> anxiety.
</font></b>Why talk about it now. Well I was talking to a guy about him blowing . Supposedly a bottom just wanted nothing more but to swallow my . In the talking, because I could not get away he talked about how hard he was and after I said I suck dick, he was all about seeing if could happen and I have a feeling he may have sucked , but would have tried the whole time to get me to jerk him and dick would have gotten pretty close to my face. It may be something I do when I ready, but I HATE being forced.
So in the end expectations have to match for there to be a good time. I love to explore and do more but it has to be at my own pace.

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