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November Rain-part2
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November Rain-part2 Once the fucking began, it was on! We fucked every chance we got. The work place, stadiums (that was fun), at a wedding, any and everywhere. I was hooked and head over<b> heels </font></b>in love with a man I had absolutely no business seeing. But I didn’t care. I didn’t see the big picture. Not for the next couple of years anyway. I was in college and working full time so I was busy. When I wasn’t working or in school I was in a bar drinking my life away. Now fraternizing with the co-works was frowned upon and terms for termination and he was married so I didn’t talk to my co-workers about the affair. They all knew, it was obvious but it wasn’t up for discussion. And only a couple of my college buddies knew (I had to tell someone). He consumed my every thought! Looking back it was a sick obsession. I had been in love before, so I knew I loved him. We’d been fucking for awhile now and the L word came up. He never told me he loved me. I had a rule, that after we fucked and he left, I got a kiss. That’s when I would tell him I loved him and he always responded with, “you too”. It made me mad. It was what it was. I never questioned why he didn’t use the word love.... I just went with what I got. I went through a very big loss. The ONLY man that had NEVER disappointed me lost his very short battle with cancer. I was drinking a lot. And I was prescribed Xanax. But Starboy could’ve cared less. He wasn’t there and showed no emotion of what I was going through. That’s when I should’ve seen what a piece of shit he really was. How do you fucked someone for years and not show one ounce of giving a shit about what I had just gone through. I mean my HS sweetheart was front and center, my co-workers, my college friends, hell every the bartender at the bar we always went to showed his support by cutting me off after two beers. One day he showed up to work and I noticed he wasn’t wearing his wedding band and I asked him why. He said he had lost it doing yard work. I wasn’t buying it. A friend of mine started dating his brother and I found out that he was getting a divorce. Why wouldn’t he tell me? I guess the same reason he told me that one random day that it was his last day there. Mind blown! I started questioning whether he even cared about me. I later found out I wasn’t the only one who was under his spell. In fact there where more than one! I confronted him with the info and he denied it. Of course, but I had proof! I had hacked his AOL and found emails from one of the girls. Another one contacted me because she wanted to know if I was still seeing him. The divorce was final and there were no signs of the other women. We now could be open with our relationship and I stayed with him more than I stayed at my place. He had a roommate but he was weird and I rarely saw him. He took a job that required him to travel quite a bit. One of the places was a couple of hours away and I went and stayed with him a few times. Well on one of those overnight visits I got my karma! A chick from back home had came down at 5 in the morning banging on the door of the hotel. He got out of bed looked out the peep hole and got back into bed and acted like he had no clue who it was. Ok, so why didn’t you open the door and tell them they had the wrong room? Probably because she didn’t. He had to work that day and he showered and went to work. When he left he took off like a bat outta hell! He called me and said if there was a knock at the door not to answer it. She’d fallen asleep in her car. Not ten minutes later there was a knock at the door. Of coarse I opened it up and invited her in. Who are you? Why are you here? She knew I was there, she saw my car. She said we need to talk. Now this is a new chick, not the ones that I had caught him with before. She had a bunch to tell me. They’d been seeing each other for the last two years! WHAT???? Oh, and he just had a with the chick from the emails. WOW! I believed her but I wanted to hear it for myself and I knew he wouldn’t tell me. There was an old cell phone he left on the dresser in the hotel. I got the “ momma’s” number and called it from my cell. I got the voice and left her a message. She called me back and confirmed that not only did they have a together but the were engaged. This motherfucker! I was broken. I guess I should not have been shocked that he was seeing other people because after all he was married when he started seeing me. But how do you have a and not tell anyone????? HOW?!? And why did this chick know? Because she had showed up at the same hotel room while she was down there, pregnant. My hurt quickly turned to anger and not even a Xanax was gonna calm me down. He had some very expensive stuff in the room and we had a couple of Smirnoff ice left from the night before. I took those out and hand one to the chick that was there and I had the other one. We shook them up and sprayed the entire room. The laptop, the cell phone, all of his clothes, everything was covered! The momma called him and I soon got a call from him saying he was sending security to remove me and the other chick from his room. You dumb bastard, I’m already half way home! You go ahead and call whoever you want to! November th , the same date it all began five years ago, is where it ended for me. Sure some would say I got what I deserved, but this was just pure evil. I was done. Game over! I went through great measures to stay away from him. Even a restraint order was taken out when he tried to come crawling back. I was DONE! And when your fears subside and shadows still remain Oh, yeah I know that you can love me when there’s no one left to blame So never mind the darkness, we still can find a way ‘Cause nothing last forever Even cold November rain! |
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