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Porn star dancing  

Hvschickforfun 42F
51 posts
2/18/2020 8:49 am
Porn star dancing

Nothing like watching porn with your FWB bring out those insecurities! I think we all can be critical of our self image, especially naked. I don’t ever recall a time (sober) that I took off my clothes with the confidence I have with my clothes on. NEVER! And for about 5 after HS I was in the gym 3-5 days a week trying stay in shape and looking back on those photos - damn! If I could turn back time, right?

As a mentioned before I gained a lot of weight with my pregnancies and I worked extremely hard to get that off and I did plus some. While I was over here being proud of myself there came the “you’ve lost too much weight” comments. The speculation of being on drugs because of my past addictions. So with my new found confidence came the shadows of doubt. And it didn’t help that even my doctor told me that my ketones were too high and then asking me what I all I was eating because they too needed to lose some weight and had heard great things about the new crazed keto diet.

So with all the chatter and the advice of my doctor I slacked off the diet and gained some of the weight bac No, I’m nowhere near nor would I ever let myself get back the weight I was when I started the diet. But damnit I like eat. I’m from the south and we eat EVERYTHING fried! It’s true, even Oreos. Lol

Then there’s those times that I tell myself that I’ve had and that does take a toll on ones body. Not everyone spits out a and returns to their previous body. A lot of that is genetics. I’m getting older and the older you get the harder it is to lose weight. But then you see a 50 year JLo and 43 Shakira and there goes your confidence once again. Some may say they are famous with lots of and they can afford personal trainers and surgeries. NO! Those women work for those bods! And probably harder than most. That takes willpower and dedication.

It kinda sucks hear about past lovers and those recent random hookups and not get any credit of your own. Makes ya question yourself a bit. But these are my insecurities and my demons within myself. And that’s part of being in this lifestyle. Gotta take the good with the bad. Besides I can alway count on Will for those moments of doubt. He’s always came with the compliments. That’s just who he is. Or log into FriendFinder-x and read my emails. There’s always a compliment or in those.

I’m not here tear myself down. I know my worth and what I need work on. One thing I know is good is my pussy! And that’s not changing anytime soon. I have a 97% return rate of all the cock I’ve had. They all come back for more. Someone doesn’t want good pussy because I don’t fit their mold of what I should look like naked, well I wish them luck in finding it. Everyone should have standards and trust me I have mine. I don’t settle for anything I have doubts about. With that said, I don’t want get comfortable and completely let myself go. Some reassurance from those I keep close is alway much appreciated.

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