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life changing events
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life changing events I am now alone for the first time since my wife recently passed away. I always thought at my age i would go first. The only thing i am grateful for is she is no longer in any pain. Being alone is scaring me to no end. She was my whole life . We were together 20 years with a good life as mostly we had together. Oh sure we had our problems but one thing is we communicated together . Of the 20 years we had the first 5 a loving exciting sex life. She never said no and some times initiated it. After the first 5 years she started to become ill first with fibromyalgia, then knee problems, a few more followed. She bereaved in god and was always more worried about me than herself. About 4 years ago we talked about sex and she told me that she knew i needed intimacy in my life and told me to find a woman that might please me when i needed some sex. She said she knew i loved her and she loved me but just to go have sex occasionally it was just sex and that was all. Oh yea some rules were added. If i found someone and wanted to spend the night i had to call her and tell her i wouldn't be home tell morning. Rule 2 was i was never to tell her what we did and was never to tell her who it was. Rule 3 most important was never never bring her home. Even with my permission to i did only about 3 times but the was for just a few hours and i always came home evening. To this day i will always be thankful for her letting me enjoy and last couple of years encouraged me to peruse my<b> photography </font></b>which led to just photographing a woman nude. no tuching however when i do a photo shoot. |
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