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Blogs > lekky2020 > Melodramatic Indignancy: Horny

How you would deny me what you no longer desire  

lekky2020 36T
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3/2/2020 5:23 pm
How you would deny me what you no longer desire

I've tried believing it's okay. There's words; One moment buried by ominous thousands. "Don't worry", they tell me. That I shouldn't feel slighted in the most stressful time of your recent past, yet there is no longer excitement in your eyes when you see me. There is no surprise visit to my room, when you finally emerge. And when the evening hits you emerge to bathe in the rejuvenating presence of your youthful company. 1.2.3.4, knocking over my self importance. Swooning to you when I have you to myself.. No. I am forsaken. Why do we honor each other so, value each others bond.. the truthfulness? What friend have I that I haven't spent more than a few true moments with you in the past two months since I've been home, engaged in common, cooperative togetherness? Friend? I'm sitting in here, alone, writing about you while you enjoy those whose company slighted you when you were in your worst.. yet, it was me that pulled you out of it to one degree or another. It was me that violated the trust of others so that you would know how you were wronged. It was me who gave so freely with my earnings to help you when you truly needed it, without having to be asked. Yet, loathing! I have been spurned, yet loved. I cannot validate this torment. I am so hurt and<b> jealous. </font></b>A weight that has no tangible valence; Ethereal.

There is only malice in my heart against those who would be afforded what is mine, but to have such closure for your offense would cost me all. Is the hour so late that I would entertain eternity? I'm right here.. She doesn't want you either. Tired as tired has robbed you from me. There is no one whose own is in possession of itself. Who are we all, but a commodity where there are no lights to see. One day I'll be strong, and the invisible plan will no longer include you. One day, I won't be amorphic, complacent or patient.

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