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Sinking Or Sucking ...... Different but difficult post about inner feelings and stresses before letting everything out and sucking my first dick seemed me that everyone thought or at least suspected that I liked looking at dicks and balls and hairy men bottoms and well built chest muscles behind a mans titties. I use the word titties here as that’s just what I thought of those orbs and nipples on a well built older man. I don’t think I ever showed any emotion that would lead folks to believe I was interested in being with a good man. But I had folks my age try to get me to suck or be fucked by themselves. I just don’t know how any of this was going to work out but these were the way some boys treated me growing up. The below is my journey. your interested enough read and also comment. I’m open anyone commenting First Event Louis, a classmate of mine was my age and was well known be gay. He and I went on a trip once out of town for a weekend with an organization we belonged to. He invited me to his room after dinner was done. Since we had adjoining rooms it was easy to get together and relax. We wound up on his double bed and he asked me if I would get naked with him and we could jack off together. This we did both of us being and sort of at the ready most anytime so speak. Louis had a very thin dick and really longer than mine by a good bit. Looking back I remember thinking how beautiful his dick was and I wanted hold it and kiss it on the head. Years later I tried get up with him but found out he passed when he was about 35 or so from AIDS I have given it some serious thoughts about him and if we had linked up that weekend we would have become lovers most likely most likely most likely. What actually happened that evening was he and I jacked off on his bed naked as we came in the world. I shot off first and he shot off second about a minute later. I noticed he was looking at my limp dick while jacking and now know he was sucking it while jacking in his mind. After a little I went back my room and that’s all that happened that weekend. The next paragraph is strictly my fantasy of what I now fully know I wish I had done in that motel room with him First I wanted, no needed reach out and hold his dick and jack him a few licks and put his hand on my dick do the . I wanted then switch ends on the bed so we were dick mouth both of us and slowly take his tool into my mouth and make serious love to that beautiful dick. Man I think I fell in love or at least fascination serious fascination with his dick and balls. His balls were much smaller than mine but his shots were just as strong and full of sperm which I man milk now. Ee3dsI also wanted get on the floor later on my all fours and walk my way into his dick while he was spread eagle in the armchair. I imagined him with his feet over the chair arms and just his beautiful beautiful beautiful dick and balls poking out venerable my assault. I imagined crawling up onto his beautiful dick and nuzzling over his balls and taking balls into my mouth and humming awhile. Then I would give him a wonderful sucking using my mouth capture and gobble him as far down as I could. He was I think about 8 inches but really thin. His dick me still today is the most beautiful beautiful dick I’ve ever seen. NOW YOU FOLKS HAVE SOME NICE EVEN BEAUTIFUL DICKS. But for some sane reason he’s still tops and nourishes my mind thinking about that long thin almost bleach white throbbing meat that until even today I miss. Not miss but regret regret regret not kissing him as a lover and sucking him as often as I could manage. I’d let him deposit his milk into my tummy most any day. I also wanted to be fucked by his dick and have him take my cherry and bust my ass open and<b> massage </font></b>my inner parts by giving me a right decent fuck pounding. I’d have gotten lost and would have been his for as long as he wanted. I have not yet gotten my cherry busted by a proper hard dick but think it would be sort of a memorable to Louis. My fantasy continues even though now. I think I’d like to find a 75 or so man I can give the treatment as I was thinking about with Lewis. Perhaps I’m just wanting regain that lost moment or at least a substitute with a new friend. I’m easy and respect and keep confidences if that does happen. I’m not advertising but if something here sticks your fancy I’d appreciate your exploring the . This has been emotional me and I’m done for now. I’m gonna continue chronicling my journey in a few days with several more entries Don’t make light nor snared remarks as this has been extremely emotional and also helpful at the time. I’m want continue my journey and want discretely have a 65 — 75 man friend perhaps lover help me. I’ have family and am married and I will not compromise any of that But I like being with a man greater than the wife but she’s unaware completely and that’s the way it shall stay. If you want help a man with his journey I’m working on being able get together sometime. Stay tuned for more later. Bill9245 Dayton Ohio Area |
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