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Gothic Mistress
Gothic Mistress From the high of a sedative i run blindly towards its' allure... The constant state of peace and chaos that my mind endures... Leaves me craving for something pure that I can't get my hands onto. I yearn for her cause she's the closest. At same time farthest yet i can't grasp it... I doubt her presence I will ever achieve as she's worlds away in every aspect... To be near her and make her laugh or smile it's a losing battle tactic. I try to fight for her but I'm worn from previous battles... She's scorn herself which makes this even more unfathomable. Would she take a chance ? Would she even glance at a wretched being like myself... I can't see it or imagine it if I was in her place...as she puts it 'we are friends'... Trading<b> messages </font></b>in these days...til the darkness casts its spell and invades. I stay up nights, she's long gone...til the grim skies are gone... and morning has begun... is the next time our words will intertwine. This is what I asked for and it was a mutual pact...I regret it now that for a friendship out of cowardice I only asked. My armor torn and rusted thru...defeated and weekend of what i lived thru...so to pursue her romantically didn't feel like a reasonable thing to do. Now I feel ease and strength to let her know...that i will fight for her til her last words to me are 'NO' |
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