I'm selfish
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Posted:Nov 1, 2021 7:50 pm
Last Updated:Apr 30, 2024 1:5 am
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I've made the conscious decision to be absolutely and utterly selfish. It's very liberating. Up until now, I have always been the supportive partner, the sacrificing partner, the one who did the most while asking (and getting) the least. I was so busy trying to do it "right," that it never occurred to me to assess what *exactly* my partner was doing on their end.
End result? I am burnt the fuck out.
I have been out of circulation for YEARS because I did not want to deal with male nonsense. Like - even a little. I have , I don't need even more demands on my time and energy. However, recently, I've come to realize that I do miss some of the interactions. I miss seeing the appreciation in their eyes and being told that I'm beautiful. I miss being praised for my strength and capabilities.
I have decided that I will take this opportunity to only consider "what's in it for me?" I want gifts that were bought solely with the intent to make me happy. I want my interests and desires to be the sole consideration. I do not want to reciprocate or consider quid pro quo. A new washing machine will not entitle you to getting laid. Being jealous of the other men in my life is not a good enough excuse for picking a fight with me.
I am sick unto death with how I have conducted my life until now. It's time for a paradigm shift.
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