No Sympathy please.....
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Posted:Jan 23, 2009 11:50 am
Last Updated:Mar 31, 2009 5:54 am
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I'm finding this very difficult to type but I think its only fair that I inform the friends who have and had faith in me as to why I left for so long. It has been a difficult time for me and still is.
I went to South Africa to spend time with my sisters because they were both ill. I am glad though that I had the opportunity of being there when both left to be with their maker.
I had other commitments to fulfill while I was there so stayed longer than I was expected to. My time there wasn't a very pleasant one. South Africa isn't the same home I left behind nearly twenty years ago. Zuma was right when he said "If you don't like crime, then don't come to South Africa."
God help the next person who leads that country. Hopefully it won't be Zuma!!
I was robbed and beaten at gun point by three men. Till now, the police have never found the culprits. Not only did I lose of my worldly possessions but my dignity too. I won't bother giving details as to what colour the men were that tortured me by hanging me with my hands tied together from the roof of a derelict building. All they wanted to know was the pin number of all my bank cards although they had already taken the 6000pounds I had on me and all the jewelry I was wearing at the time. I endured the pain the put me under because I believed that justice would be served. God was with me and He saved me. I was released after they realised that I was never going to tell them anything because they had knocked me un-conscience, after all a half dead person can't speak.
I still have business in South Africa as well as family so saying that I will never go back would be an understatement. I do know now that it isn't wise to advertise what you have for fear of being mugged or even killed for something you worked hard for.
Anyway, enough of the sad story. My ex and my went to fetch me and also got to meet my family. They loved them and wish to visit again. I'm abit wary of that but will do anything to keep my happy, just this time I will make sure that we only stay in the safe zones.
I'm glad and happy to be home!!!
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Judgements and Arrogance....
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Posted:Jan 22, 2009 2:42 pm
Last Updated:Jan 30, 2009 2:41 pm
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Remember who we are…
It does not mean that we can make judgements on others or become arrogant because we learned something faster than someone else. Sometimes it takes years for us to get to that point of just being able to observe, but never giving up and being gentle on ourselves when we slide back into old habits. It is necessary for us to have compassion for other people. If I am you, and you are me, we are one. Together it might help us to remember we are all striving for the same thing, but we are just taking different roads to get there.
I am still learning …that never ends….and although I have had my share of heartache and torment. I am grateful for every experience that has been presented to me. It has allowed me to forgive others, forgive myself and love myself, love others too.
NO ONE IS GOING TO BRING IT TO YOU…You MUST GO AND GET IT!
GUARD YOUR TONGUE - SNAKES MAY FLY OUT!
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By request from a blogger....
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Posted:Jan 17, 2009 12:21 pm
Last Updated:Feb 16, 2009 4:43 pm
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Rules that guys wished girls knew
Learn to work the toilet seat: if it's up put it down.
Don't cut your hair. Ever.
Birthdays, Valentines, and Anniversaries are not quests to see
if he can find the perfect present.
If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, expect an
answer you don't want to hear.
Don't ask him what he's thinking about unless you are prepared
to discuss such topics as navel lint, the shotgun formation and
monster trucks.
Sunday = Sports. It's like the full moon or the changing of the
tides. Shopping is not sport.
Crying is blackmail. Use it if you must, but don't expect him to like it.
Ask for what you want. Subtle hints don't work.
No, he doesn't know what day it is. He never will.
Yes, pissing standing up is more difficult than peeing from
point blank range.
Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers.
Don't give 50 rules when 25 will do.
Anything said 6 or 8 months ago is inadmissible in an
argument. All comments become null and void after 7 days.
If you don't dress like the Victoria's Secret girls, don't
expect the men to act like soap opera guys.
Let men ogle. If they don't look at other women, how can they know how pretty you are?
You can either ask a man to do something OR tell them how you want it done, not both.
Whenever possible, please say whatever you have to say during
commercials.
Don't be a co-driver, after all Christopher Columbus didn't need directions.
Women wearing Wonder bras and low-cut blouses lose their right
to complain about having their boobs stared at.
The relationship is never going to be like it was
the first two months when you first started going out.
Disclaimer:-These rules are amusing I particularly like the "don't cut your hair ever" one well guys DON'T LOSE YOUR HAIR EVER mine can grow back yours can't, it grows on your back. My second favorite is "Yes and No are
perfectly good answers" I totally agree so the next time you want Sex and your wife/girl friend says NO leave it at that it's an acceptable answer.
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Time to do things differently...
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Posted:Jan 16, 2009 3:26 pm
Last Updated:Apr 20, 2009 9:53 pm
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The year 2009 is my year. I'm determined to break away from falling back into the same old ruts I was used to in 2008. It isn't any good wishing, hoping and wanting while going about my life in the same old way I was used to unless I do something to make changes.
I expect to give more respect to those deserving it who earn mine by their attitude. I refuse to work with lazy people who prefer others to do their dirty work and get the credit for it. Those days of me feeling sorry and helping others with duties that they are capable of doing themselves are over. I was a walk over then but not anymore. I will enjoy the perks of my own hard work without feeling guilty, afterall, I will have worked for it. Tolerance will be high on my priority list. Maybe this sounds selfish but I will say that I've been selfish with myself and family long enough, so now its our time and year to enjoy the proceeds of my hard earned benefits. This year is going to be one of the best years of my life. All the sad and bad experiences I had in 2008 will become a memory.
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Just a quick Hello
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Posted:Jan 12, 2009 1:53 am
Last Updated:Apr 20, 2009 9:54 pm
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It has been a long time. I'm sorry if it seemed that I was rude when I did come online and didn't respond to any of the posts on my blog. I'm back in Holland and hopefully never go back to SA after events I don't wish to discuss occurred there. I've missed many here on FriendFinder-x and hope that I too was missed tho it wouldn't be a big a deal if I wasn't missed. I had a lot going on that had to be dealt with and I hope it will get better for those I left behind.
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HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL!!!
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Unbelievable
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Posted:Jul 26, 2008 12:21 pm
Last Updated:Feb 3, 2009 3:48 am
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60 things most girls don't know
Guys hate sluts even though they have sex with them!
(oh yeah..you're not "popular" if you've slept with more than 6 guys..you're a HOE)
--"Hey, are you busy?" or "Are you doing something?" ~ two phrases guys open with to stop from stammering on the phone.
--Guys may be flirting around all day but before they go to sleep, they always think about the girl they truly care about.
--Before they call, guys try to plan out a little about what they're gonna say so there aren't awkward pauses, but once he's on the phone he forgets it all and makes it up as he goes.
--Guys go crazy over a girl's smile.
--Guys will do anything just to get you to notice him.
--Guys hate it when you talk about your ex-boyfriend or ex love-interest. Unless they're going for the let-her-complain-to-you-and-then-have-her-realize-how-wonderful-and-nice-you-are method.
--A guy who likes you wants to be the only guy you talk to.
--Boyfriends need to be reassured often that they're still loved.
--Don't talk about your guy friends to your boyfriend.
--Guys get jealous easily.
--Guys are more emotional than they'd like people to think.
--Giving a guy a hanging message like "You know what?!..uh...nevermind.." would make him jump to a conclusion that is far from what you are thinking. And he'll assume he did something wrong and he'll obsess about it trying to figure it out.
--Guys are good flatterers when courting but they usually stammer when they talk to a girl they really like.
--Guys hate asking parents for money to buy girls presents. So they come up with ideas like saving their lunch money for a week. But it never works because guys are always hungry so they end up asking the parents for money anyway.
--Girls are guys' weaknesses.
--Guys are very open about themselves.
--It's good to test a guy first before you trust him. But don't let him wait too long.
--Your best friend, whom your boyfriend seeks help from about his problems with you may end up being admired by your boyfriend.
--If a guy tells you about his problems, he just needs someone to listen to him. You don't need to give advice.
--A usual act that proves that the guy likes you is when he teases you.
--Guys love you more than you love them if they are serious in your relationships.
--Guys will brag about anything.
--Guys use words like hot or cute to describe girls. We rarely use beautiful.If a guy uses that, he likes you a whole hell of a lot.
--No matter how much guys talk about asses and boobs, personality is key.
--Guys learn from experience not from the romance books that girls read and take as their basis of experience.
--Guys worry about the thin line between being compassionate and being whipped.
--Guys think WAY too much. One small thing a girl does, even if she doesn't notice it can make the guy think about it for hours, trying to figure out what it meant.
--Guys seek for advice from girls not other guys. Because most guys think alike, so if one guy's confused, then we're all confused.
--Any guy could write out a rulebook or advice book for flirting, but no guy can write out a book about relationships.
--Try to be as straightforward as possible.
--If the guy does something stupid in front of the girl, he will think about it for the next couple days or until the next time he spends time with the girl.
--If a guy looks unusually calm and laid back, he's probably faking it and is spawning inside.
--When a guy says he is going crazy about the girl, he really is. Guys rarely say that.
--When a guy asks you to leave him alone, he's just actually saying, "Please come and listen to me."
--Guys don't really have final decisions.
--If a guy starts to talk seriously, listen to him. It doesn't happen that often, so when it does, you know some thing's up.
--If your best guy friend seems to avoid you or is never around when you're with your boyfriend, he's probably jealous and likes you.
--When a guy tells you that you are beautiful, don't say you aren't. It makes them want to stop telling you because they don't want you to disagree with them.
--When a guy looks at you for longer than a second, he's definitely thinking something.
--Guys like femininity not feebleness.
--Guys don't like girls who punch harder than they do.
--A guy has more problems than you can see with your naked eyes.
--Don't be a snob. Guys can be intimidated and give up easily.
--Everything in moderation. Put on makeup, wear perfume. Just not too much.
--Guys talk about girls more than girls talk about guys.
--Guys hate rejection, but they hate being led on even more.
--If you are going to reject a guy, just do it. Don't say they are like a brother or just good friends, it just hurts even more. Tell them that you aren't interested in a relationship and they will respect you.
--Guys really think that girls are strange and have unpredictable decisions and are MAD confusing but somehow are drawn even more to them.
--A guy would give his left nut to be able to read a girl's mind for a day.
--No guy can handle all his problems on his own. He's just too stubborn to admit it.
--Not all guys are assholes. Just because ONE is a jackass doesn't mean he represents ALL of us.
--We don't like girls who are too skinny.
--We love it when girls talk about there boobs.
--Always make sure you know what kind of stuff your getting into before making out with a guy ...like whether it's a one time deal or not ....
--Believe it or not shy guys are the most easiest to talk to..it may not seem right but trust me they will start opening up like books after you just ask them questions about their lives and unnoticeable tell them about yours...
--When a guy hits your butt it means that he wants you sexually
--Even if they refuse it all guys are ticklish on the ribs..
--Guys love neck rubs and if he lets you keep doing it ..it means that he really likes you or his neck really hurts...
--Guys will test the waters to see how far they can get with you. Even if he doesn't intend to it will happen. Know how far it is you want to let him go and he will respect that...after you let him know a couple times.
--When a guy sacrifices his sleep and health just to be with you, he really likes you and wants to be with you as much as possible.
---Girls, if u don't repost this within 1 hr then you will lose the guy of your life
---Guys if you don't repost this in one hr then you will lose the girl of your life.
post this as:
60 things most girls don't know
I had to post this when I saw it, I never wrote this 
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Posted:Jul 26, 2008 10:19 am
Last Updated:Jan 18, 2009 2:11 am
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The time has come for me to say "so long" to all the good people here
I've been feeling like something has been lacking in my home recently. It is probably because of a childhood memory, I'm not sure. I know for sure that I will be missing my and someone very special to me, in fact just spoke to him on the phone because I can't greet him goodbye in person since he is at work. I know that I have been craving for that elusive, enigmatic, peace and quiet which I know I will have once I've reached South Africa.
What I would like is to change certain aspects of my life, e.g. my anger tantrums...
I would like more Love, Happiness and Success, not that I'm not successful already but I want more in my life but know I'm going to have to work on it.
Love Bev 
For the fools who have copycat handles of my old dead handles please don't be so idiotic to think I can read what you say cause you blocked from commenting. You might be able to see what you have written but I don't.
"It is said that a fool learns only by his own mistakes but a clever person learns by the mistakes of others."
Anyway, take care of yourselves, you need it too!!!!
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A SMILE FOR YOU.....
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Posted:Jul 24, 2008 7:55 pm
Last Updated:Jan 12, 2009 1:41 am
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Smiling is Infectious
Somebody smiled at me today and I couldn't help smiling back.
As I turned a corner, I met a friend who saw me still smiling, they smiled back at me.
It was only after the friend left did I realise that I had passed on the smile.
I thought about it and realised the worth of a smile:
A single smile could travel the world around if you let it.
When you feel like smiling, don't let it go undetected, start and epidemic and infect the world with it.
Everybody needs a smile!!!
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Intimacy Disclosed...
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Posted:Jul 23, 2008 2:09 pm
Last Updated:Jan 24, 2009 3:48 pm
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Intimacy is a concept that means different things to various people. Although most people identify intimacy as the presence of love and affection. They know that people who show them love and affection will be much more receptive to their feelings than are people who do not care for them, therefore, it is rarely, if ever, confided to by people who appear unconcerned or indifferent to them. Without intimacy, people are unable to commit themselves. Intimacy is a way to avoid loneliness. Intimacy fulfills basic psychological needs thinking that the knowledge that one's needs will be fulfilled in the future.
When people reveal personal, vulnerable aspects of themselves through disclosure, they perceive their interactions to be more intimate.
I use to speak not chat with a gent from this site everyday hence this post but because he believed I lived across the huge pond a relationship couldn't develop tho he never said it to me even while we were talking on cam. I'm happy for him, don't get me wrong for finding someone closer to home but if I can fly 6000 miles across the world to my family, what was half the distance going to where he was
Intimate behavior includes openness and Disclosure of one's self.
People who think they know it all are annoying especially to those who know better!
The person I was with recently wasn't on the rebound because I told him everything and I know he understands.
My Heart Will Always Only Belong To One Person EVER!!!
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The Reality.....
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Posted:Jul 22, 2008 5:16 am
Last Updated:Jan 12, 2009 2:25 am
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Losing my inhibitions
I imagined I could never give myself to someone the way I gave myself to you. Discovering the way to give a little bit more of my body for your pleasure alone. Yet you respected me by not taking more than you would have liked. You’ve made me loose my inhibitions a little bit more than I thought I would ever do again in my future. You made me feel more of a woman with each one of your touches, teaching me things that I, with this age, never dreamt were possible. Where did you learn to give a woman so much pleasure?
I think that all the tricks you use in bed are nothing but a bait to catch me and keep me closer to you; but at the same time, when I feel how you kiss my body with such devotion, the candid way you suck my nipples, has as if you were a baby, I realize this can only be (I won't say it).
I loved the way you held me, the way you kissed me and turned me around, just to find the best way to cling our bodies together. You can’t imagine the pleasure you gave me when you got inside of me, maybe you didn’t even imagine that I have never opened my body and soul that much to anyone in all my life even if it was only....
My body is your home, use it as you please. Now and forever.
The gentle caresses of your hands awoke my senses deeper than even you realized. I love you when you rested as if still and peaceful that I couldn't resist touching, feeling your body next to mine to be sure I wasn't dreaming....
I loved when you slowly woke up, becoming more and more receptive and you let your tasty body fluids soothe my thirst.
To be next to you was the greatest of blessings. I don't even care who sees or knows what will be my greatest fantasy, "to make love with you in front of and audience of your choice"
Your only 4biddenbLove xxx
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From the Sound of Silence just for you!!!!
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Posted:Jul 19, 2008 4:22 pm
Last Updated:Jan 12, 2009 2:08 am
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Silence
When I first joined this site, I wandered aimlessly along the halls and corridors silently.
I thought I saw thousands of people, maybe more, writing as if they were talking, yet not
Speaking. Hearing voices echoing from the writing of people I do not know.
I thought in Silence that this was no place for me.
I love silence because to me it felt like a comfort zone where I could retreat.
This place called FriendFinder-x isn’t Silent. Reading words of people on the screen echoes the Noise of restless souls. Feeling without touching, and the words etched on the screen was more than my Silence could ever bear.
I thought in Silence “Fools, you do not know this realm of FriendFinder-x like a cancer grows“
My words of silence I did not write, instead I felt like I had been touched by words of others etched in my brain.
The words of many flashed like a neon warning about FriendFinder-x, this place many people use for Sanctuary including I. Not once did I ever see myself as restless yet now I know I too am one of those souls who linger quietly in the hallways and corridors of FriendFinder-x, not silent as at first but daring to pierce that Sound of Silence I feared of losing. It isn’t I or You that keep this place alive but us together as one in unison, sharing our daily lives with one another, no more alone, never alone I should think, Not with FriendFinder-x helping us to bridge the void of Silence.
Inspired by: Sound of Silence lyrics
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A memory I want to remember .......
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Posted:Jul 17, 2008 8:30 pm
Last Updated:Jan 12, 2009 2:23 am
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Your only 4biddenlover is excited about Sunday
We are passionate and sincere when it comes to relationships and sexuality. We need intensity and take pleasure in adorning our affection and attention. If, however, we feel double-crossed, insulted or otherwise emotionally wounded, it may take a couple of lifetimes for us to forgive our love.
Trustworthy, Sensual and Passionate
I find you to be someone who is trustworthy and has basic and has simple needs but very secure and steadfast in any relationship you choose to be in. I know that you love being at the receiving end of my passionate streak.
Balancing our Indulgence
We are going to indulge each other, spoiling one another and thoroughly enjoying the experience, as long as we maintain our status quo regarding relationship needs and wants. This will be a delicate balance. We both have power struggles over dominance.
The better news is that together, the two of us will have a strong flair for a romantic evening, candle-lit dinner maybe, and giving more of each other. We need to maintain the balance and if we can do this, it will be Great and rewarding for both of us.
I LOVE MANY PEOPLE, but just so it is clear to Everyone, MY HEART BELONGS TO ONLY ONE!!!!!
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