I Wish I Was Dancing
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Posted:Mar 16, 2006 11:01 am
Last Updated:Mar 18, 2006 7:51 am
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I wish I was dancing
Floating across the floor
He is wearing a suit
I, a flowing gown
The music, soft and sensual
Finds me twirling in a fantasy land
Filled with happiness
Laughter
Love
His warm embrace
Tickles my senses
And my heart surges forward
And then
As I am looking into his eyes
Searching every corner of his perfect soul
I stop
And realize that I'm not in a ballroom
Not in a gown
I'm just laying with him, staring into his eyes
And I'm dancing
Let me look into your eyes and dance.
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A Little Help
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Posted:Mar 16, 2006 1:41 am
Last Updated:Mar 22, 2006 8:00 am
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If you read my blog, you know that I am going every day for radiation treatments. I teach a group of students at a local college in the medical field. These students are with me for 3 sememsters....an entire year...and we get to know each other real well. They too, know that I'm getting these treatments every day.
The parking situation at the college is horrible. They have a faculty lot....clear on the other side of the campus. On a nice day, its a nice walk. If it's raining....its awful...deep puddles everywhere. There is a parking lot right in front of the building my classroom is in, but it is hard to get a space there. I usually go about 1 hour before my class to get a space.
With that said, I am the eternal optimist....and EVERYDAY I drive down the front row of parking thinking that I just might get a space. And.....sometimes I do! Today after my treatment, I drove straight to class....turned into the parking lot...and drove down that front row. A couple of my students waved to me, and as I waved back, a car pulled out of a front space, and I pulled in!
In the classroom, a student stood and asked to speak. She said that each day for the next three weeks (of my treatments) I should only come to class shortly before my class begins. And each day, a different student is going to park in a front space....because they are there very early in the morning. And as I come into the lot....they will pull out to give me a front space to save me the often long walk lugging a heavy book bag. With tears running down my cheeks....I told them once again what they mean to me.
These are your future Medical Assistants and Nurses folks. And they have learned already that kindness....not pity...it what helps heal.
Remember...its the little things you do to help someone that sometimes mean the most!
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Did You See That Moon?
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Posted:Mar 15, 2006 6:09 am
Last Updated:Mar 17, 2006 6:26 am
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I was up most of the night last night. Do you ever just feel Alone? Now, mind you, I know that I'm not alone in any way. I have loved ones around me here in blogland...and here in my real world. But sometimes you still feel Alone!
So, I'm outside in the middle of the night. (the needed to go) And as I stand there looking at the moon...the stars...the sky. I started thinking about you. You know...we could have been looking at the same moon and stars last night. The world really isn't as big as we think it is....nor the miles that separate us. We could've danced together under that moon. You could've held me and made me warm. And safe.
Thank you for being who you are to me!
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Will I Glow In The Dark?
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Posted:Mar 14, 2006 4:14 am
Last Updated:Mar 22, 2006 7:58 am
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Did you ever color on yourself with markers when you were a ? Did your mom yell at you when you did?
I had my first radiation treatment yesterday. You know...you've got to have a sense of humor about some things in life, don't ya? I thought of how my mom would have had a fit if I had "drawn" on myself like the doctors did yesterday. They marked all over my breast area to direct the radiation beams.
And then they take you into the treatment area. People mill all around you.....moving the machine this way...and that way. Its a regular hubbub of activity. We joked and laughed. Hey! If you're going to lay in a room full of people with your boobies in full view...you might as well joke.
But when it comes time for the treatment. When its time for the machinery to come on and the radiation beams to do their work...... EVERYONE LEAVES THE ROOM. No one is allowed to stay in there.....no one WANTS to stay in there. The same treatment that will supposedly do me good.....does harm at the same time.
And so you're alone. And what I do is think really good thoughts. The first time I ever had to do this.....I was lying there with my eyes closed....and I got a vision of Pac Man. Remember that game? And I thought of the little pac man chomping away at the bad bits of cancer in my body. I thought of that every time I laid on that table. And it worked! So, yesterday I thought of Pac Man. And I thought of a lot of you. And I thought of the new grand baby that will come this summer. I thought of all the reasons I have to live. And all the things I want to do yet.
And when it was done. I felt good. Even when I felt very sick later on. I felt good. And when the sick feeling didn't last all night. I felt good. So if your asking.....
I Feel Good!!!!
Next treatment today at 11. Love ya all!
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A Kiss
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Posted:Mar 13, 2006 8:54 am
Last Updated:Mar 14, 2006 5:02 pm
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"A kiss is a lovely trick designed by nature to stop speech when words become superfluous."
-Ingrid Bergman
So....enough talking. Let's kiss.
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Fragile....Handle With Care
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Posted:Mar 12, 2006 12:47 pm
Last Updated:Sep 12, 2006 3:43 am
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Love is strong yet delicate.
It can be broken.
To truly love is to understand this.
To be in love is to respect this.
- Stephen Packer -
Remember this my friends.....remember.
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Cheater's Never Win!
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Posted:Mar 11, 2006 11:47 am
Last Updated:Mar 16, 2006 11:33 am
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My life is about to change in such dramatic ways. Part of me just wants to laugh....it is so ridiculous. And part of me is afraid that if I start laughing.....I'll never stop.
Cheater's Never Win!
Remember when you were a , and you were playing games with the other ? There's always one in the crowd that tries to cheat. Do you remember how you treated that ...the cheater? Usually we exposed him/her, and called them "cheater" in front of everyone.
We're all grown up now. Its not like you can kick the cheater out of the game. Can you?
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I'M ALL YOURS FOR 24 HOURS!!!!!!
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Posted:Mar 10, 2006 9:46 am
Last Updated:Mar 13, 2006 5:56 am
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This one is on a dare from Lioness! And you all know what happens when someone dares me!
I'm all yours for the next 24 hours. Privacy insured!!! So....what will you do with me???
Copy this if you dare into your own blog...and see what kind of answers you get.
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National Get Over It Day!
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Posted:Mar 9, 2006 7:53 am
Last Updated:Mar 10, 2006 4:42 pm
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March 9th is National Get Over It Day!
Everyone has something to "get over"! So, tell me....what is it you'd like to get over? And I'll tell you mine at the end!
PS...You can print some coupons for ice cream or Bally's fitness.
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Confession Time!
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Posted:Mar 8, 2006 7:57 pm
Last Updated:Mar 10, 2006 12:56 pm
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When I was a newly-wed young lady....I would have rather died than to pass gas in front of my new husband. I thought constantly about how I looked to him. How did I look while sleeping? How rude it would be to burp....or fart in front of him.
Now...did he have these hang ups? Not At All!!! You should have guessed that. Men...and boys...well, men-boys....have taken great pleasure in their bodily functions since the beginning of time. I bet the cave men wondered how many farts it would take to fill the cave with enough gas to light it off with their newly discovered fire!
Well....the bloom is off the blossom. This girl doesn't feel real well tonight. And...shhhhhhhh...... I have gas! And.....it doesn't smell very nice!
Gave my man fair warning....offered to let him sleep in the spare room.....but I can't hold it back!
So, tell the truth....how many of you ladies have trouble acknowledging that you too have bodily functions...and not all of them very nice? And men......I already know the answer here.....do you just let it rip?
No....the picture isn't me. I just thought it was funny!
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100th Blog!
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Posted:Mar 7, 2006 11:43 pm
Last Updated:Mar 12, 2006 6:03 am
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This is my 100th blog! I can't hardly believe it has come this quickly. In reading through my blogs...I realize how far I have grown. In writing these "100 things about me that you probably don't even care to know".....I have realized that I am a woman of contrasts! Read...and you will see.
1. I’m a mother of two grown daughters.
2. I’m a grandmother of two wonderful grandsons.
3. I just found out that there will be a third grandchild coming along sometime in the fall.
4. I’ve been married for 35 years.
5. I hate being cold.
6. Even though I hate being cold, I love making snow angels.
7. I love the warm/hot weather in the summer.
8. I’m happiest in my barefeet.
9. When I’m not able to be barefoot, I’m next happiest wearing my Birkenstocks.
10. I’m ashamed to tell you that I have 30 pairs of Birkenstocks.
11. I like to have my feet rubbed.
12. I like my toenails painted. Bright colors are best.
13. I’m short. 5’1’’
14. I have all kinds of unique ways of reaching things because I’ve been short all of my life.
15. And yes, some of those will find me on top of the counters.
16. I like to sit on the floor.
17. I like to sit crosslegged.
18. I still like to color in coloring books.
19. I grew up in Ohio….born in Akron, Ohio.
20. My family, well most of them, still live there.
21. I have lived overseas three times. Naples, Italy…..Yokosuka, Japan,…….and Okinawa Japan.
22. I have lived in 5 states…..Ohio, Maryland, Florida, Oregon, and Virginia.
23. My grandmother is my hero. And my role model.
24. She is still alive, and at 94 still walks every day, and just quit her bowling league.
25. I love to kiss.
26. I taught my two male cousins to kiss.
27. I used to spend a lot of time on my relatives dairy farms.
28. And yes, I had to scoop the poop!
29. I was a majorette……baton twirler!
30. I played drums in the marching band in high school. The tympani in the orchestra.
31. I play the piano….since age 5.
32. I have played the piano in Carnegie Hall.
33. I was on the homecoming court in high school. And no…..I wasn’t the Queen.
34. I had a .
35. I used to sleepwalk.
36. I rode the twice while sleepwalking……one of those times naked.
37. I love beautiful lingerie.
38. I love my cotton nightgowns for relaxing.
39. Everything comes off while I sleep.
40. I like lots of pillows on my bed.
41. I tend to throw them off the bed while having sex…..they sometimes get in the way.
42. I love oral sex.
43. I used to put a pillow over my head while having oral sex because I thought it was embarrassing to feel so much pleasure….or maybe not deserving pleasure…or maybe thinking that it was strange having someone give me such pleasure with their head “down there”.
44. I am the oldest of five …..2 sisters, 2 brothers.
45. I love to laugh.
46. I’m usually the best joke teller….and yes….I do laugh at my own jokes.
47. I have been .
48. When I was a little girl, I had a re-occurring dream about pirates chopping my breasts off. I attributed that to my newly developing breasts hurting a little. And a pirate movie that I saw.
49. I am a breast cancer survivor…….but never had to have my breasts chopped off. Really have almost no visible scars.
50. I’m possibly facing that breast cancer again…..and this time….the breasts WILL be chopped off.
51. I’m a believer in dreams. If I dream something 3 times in a row….it usually comes true.
52. I DON’T like to camp. But the Holiday Inn is okay.
53. I love the ocean.
54. I love walking in the sand and getting my feet wet in the water.
55. I really DON’T like sand in my panties…..or my butt crack.
56. I eat my cheeseburgers plain……….yep…..nothing on them except cheese. Or a hamburger with ketchup only.
57. I like my hotdogs grilled….a tiny bit of black on them…..and ketchup only.
58. I like my steaks medium rare….bloody….but no mooing please. No burnt spots either!!!
59. I like liver and onions……but only if I’m really hungry for them….and it usually means that I need more iron in my diet.
60. I’ve lived in Japan six years but I HATE sushi! I like most other Japanese food though…..and I can cook a lot of Japanese dishes.
61. I don’t like salad dressing on my salad, and I only eat Mayonaise in tuna or chicken salad.
62. I’m a professional cake decorator. I recently made a penis cake here in blogland for Waggypolly.
63. And my cakes taste as delicious as they look.
64. I have been working on duplicating the cheesecake recipe from Carnegie Deli, NY. And I think I’ve almost got it! Want to be my next taste tester??
65. I have been a seamstress for years. I made all the dresses for my daughters wedding. And my next project is covering my sofa and loveseat.
66. I am a multi-tasker…..and I do it well.
67. I get impatient with people who cant multi-task. I have to remind myself that everyone is different. There are people who are task-oriented…and do that well too.
68. I have always wanted to write a novel.
69. Blogging is the closest I’ve gotten to that.
70. I’m a good friend….and loyal.
71. I’m a fixer. I like everyone to be happy.
72. If I won the lottery….I would probably use most of it to make my loved ones more comfortable.
73. I’m a great hostess. And I like having people here. The more the merrier. It doesn’t stress me at all.
74. We have a LARGE pool. I love that pool….even though its expensive to run and hard work too.
75. I ran a multi-million dollar bingo game for my daughters high school band for 9 years.
76. I don’t smoke, never have…..unless you count working in a smokey bingo hall for 9 years.
77. I like a glass of wine.
78. I like Appletini’s.
79. I rarely drink. So, that glass of wine will make my cheeks rosy.
80. I look silly in lipstick. Kind of like I’m playing dress up with my Mommy’s make up.
81. I love purses. But I like them small….with an organizer pocket. So, I’m always shopping for the perfect purse. If I carry a big one….I look like I’m playing dress up with my Mommy’s stuff.
82. I’m in love. And I love it!
83. I love to walk in the warm spring rain.
84. I HATE getting wet in the rain and having to spend the day in wet clothes and wet shoes. So, I guess I like PLANNED walks in the rain.
85. I like to give blow jobs…. I am a Cocksucker!
86. I like to suck and tease men’s nipples.
87. My husband hates having his nipples played with or sucked.
88. I like to masturbate. But I would prefer the real thing….although masturbating is great too. Hmmmmmm…..Ok…I like to masturbate.
89. I LOVE my little vibrating silver egg/bullet.
90. Please send AA batteries. Lol
91. I once went without sex for two years. My own fault completely.
92. Don’t DARE me please! I can’t resist a dare….if someone tells me that I won’t/can’t do something, I will probably want to prove them wrong.
93. I guess I am stubborn.
94. I KNOW I am stubborn.
95. I see the good in others that even they can’t see.
96. I am my own worst critic.
97. I sleep with the TV on most nights. My mind just won’t quit working when it’s quiet. (Nick at nite)
98. I like Barry Manilow. Now, before you laugh….he is a fabulous pianist. And he has written a couple of songs that are considered musical orgasms…..how could that be bad?
99. I like men in jeans without anything else underneath.
100. I LOVE ALL OF YOU!!!
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Butterflies Are Free!!!!!
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Posted:Mar 7, 2006 7:22 pm
Last Updated:Mar 9, 2006 6:02 am
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GOOD NEWS!!!!!
The lump is not malignant! There are suspicious cells there, and it is close to the sternum....so, I will have to do three weeks of radiation....but I can do this!!!!
Just for a little history...I have had three lumps removed before...all have been malignant...but no lymph node involvement, no surrounding tissue problems. I have done radiation, and chemo therapy all three times. I always said that if this came back ever again....it would be radical mastectomy time for me! And my doctor...who is fantastic....agreed. So, when I found this lump...I was terrified that this was it. Top that with the fact that this has been a year of "drama" for me....and I really had an impending sense of doom.
Thanks to all my loved ones, and friends....I kept the positive thoughts on top. And thank the good Lord....everything will be alright. I think this time was almost harder on my husband than on me. He hasn't been sleeping, and has had a "knot" in his stomach since the lump was found last Wednesday. As for me....once I got the news today....I realized that I have been holding my breath...and all of a sudden it was easier to breathe.
To all of you who have walked through this with me a heartfelt THANK YOU!!! You have meant more to me than you could ever realize. Your thoughts, and comments....made me smile...laugh...and cry! But most of all, they just made me feel good inside that you people...who care so deeply....cared for me! Thank you.....from the bottom of my heart!
Fantasylover.....prepare to de-pants!!!!!! Blogland.....watch out!
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Good Things Come to those Who Wait
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Posted:Mar 7, 2006 7:58 am
Last Updated:Mar 7, 2006 11:36 pm
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To those who are waiting with me.....
No Word Yet!!!!
So, I keep thinking...."No news is good news"...and all those other trite cliches!
The truth is.... I NEED TO KNOW!!!
So, I'm going to escape my enternal craziness...and go away for the day! But the most incredible thing happend as I cleaned out my car to go....an insect buzzed my head...and as I reached out to swat it, I saw that it was....
A beatiful butterfly!
And thanks Fly...I DO have hope now!!!!
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