Growth?
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Posted:Feb 25, 2020 12:20 am
Last Updated:Apr 28, 2024 1:54 am
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Been a lot of changes and opportunities for me since becoming completely single again. I've gone on dates with some charming women. Had the first one night stand I've had since my 20's lol. Got to enjoy a former lover and her new beau in my first MFM (tons of fun btw). And have talked to some people that understand the desire to have a "buddy" to grab a bite or drink with where make-outs or sex are an option... like an ACTUAL option that can be hashed out whenever. Sometimes a coffee is just a coffee and we get to enjoy that company. It's nice to know these things are out there.
I think that is something I have missed the most. The simple company of grabbing a drink or meal with a companion, romantic, sexual or otherwise. I'm in a pretty decent place, though there's always room for improvement. I hope to continue meeting you strange and wonderful people for whatever fun and adventures we might have!
Happy Hunting
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Idle minds
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Posted:Feb 22, 2018 1:15 am
Last Updated:Jan 21, 2020 8:13 pm
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You know the feeling when you start to feel bored and restless? Like there's nothing that you really want to do but know you need to do something? I get that feeling fairly regularly. It also seems to usually happen later at night. You know, at the time of day when are in bed and getting out of the house is out of the question. So what's a guy to do? I've been attempting to use FriendFinder-x's chat/IM...... I'll just leave that at that. Though the whole idea of reaching out to a total stranger armed with nothing more than "small talk" is brutal for me. I'm a fairly introverted type. I enjoy being social and even meeting people and talking to new folks.... but I usually have a wingman of somesort to take point. I'm perfectly capable and usually comfortable enough on my own soon enough. It's just that initial point of contact that is a lost art to me.
Online chat is like that for me.
It's a big room, full of no one I know (faces I may recognize), people I'd love to talk to, and really no idea how to find the middle ground between "hey" and wielding my whole vocabulary like a war hammer. Sputtering unintelligence or over-the-top, untampered, weapons grade superlatives and flagrant adjective abuse! Take your pick lol.
Part of the issue for me is identifying what he hell it even is I'm looking for. Being driven by boredom is entirely directionless.
FriendFinder-x; where many folks are looking for leads on sex or exhibitionists just wanting an audience or whatever it is that everyone else is interested in, I picture as a (very) strange bar. A weird establishment where I find myself alone in, attempting to strike up a conversation with the attractive lady sitting alone at the bar, with no direction. No plan. No opener. No headline... and not really any interest in a new hook-up or FWB or anything of the sort. *admittedly, I'm actually pretty happy with what I have right now.* I'm well aware that I'm a bit of a weirdo, and I'm quite ok with that. But given the sheer volume of other (often bad and creepy) weirdos around that all you ladies have to sift through, I'm an easy one to get lost in the shuffle. I'm a big boy, and not upset at anyone or feel particularly slighted or anything. It's simply the way it is. lol I just remembered an old friend of mine. This was the BEST opener! His opening game was strong, but was terrible after that.... he went home alone a lot. He would have women eating out of his hand for about 15-20 mins, then it all fell apart for him.... terrible closer. I'm nearly the opposite. I'm praying that I can last through the first few mins of conversation lmao.
And the mind starts to wander further.
Writing is fun like that. You can open with a completely absurd statement, a total non-sequitur, and it'll be ok. There's no social aspects to mind. Nothing but a few blots of ink to seize the readers interest. HEADLINES! TITLES! BOLD FONTS! after that is the easy part (for me). All the writer has to do is write with a little meandering pace that doesn't stray too far, too fast, and the reader will follow that little babbling brook to its final destination... Wherever that may be.
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Feelin Antsy
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Posted:Jan 10, 2018 10:38 pm
Last Updated:Apr 28, 2024 1:54 am
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With the holidays now finished life returns to normal, sorta lol. Family life is an ever evolving thing, do this, school does that, what needs to be adjusted here and there... It keeps ya on your toes. So with the holiday interruptions done, its back to the daily grind and all the continual havoc that it brings. So, even with "All the women, wealth and power at my disposal", its been over a month since my last play date  .
After being cooped up with family for a couple of weeks I'm starting to feel antsy. Might need to just go for a random hook up if I can't line up some fun with a friend.
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Building steam
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Posted:Nov 14, 2017 12:45 pm
Last Updated:Apr 28, 2024 1:54 am
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Got lots on the go lately. Some terrible work stuff, some better work stuff, some family stuff, some fun personal stuff too! Meets when you have are a huge pain in the ass, period. But (not wanting to count chickens before they're hatched) the effort is worth it. Hell, just the realization that there is a DESIRE out there is kind of exciting. The spark of lust. Will it catch fire? who knows. But I for one, am looking forward to finding out. 
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The Mondays
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Posted:Oct 30, 2017 9:21 pm
Last Updated:Apr 28, 2024 1:54 am
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Just a case of general malaise here. I'm so tired/bored/horny/lonely that I really can't think of what to do. Well, I'm going to sit down and watch some Netflix and wrap up in blanket and try to pull my usual all-nighter to help kick-off my set of nightshifts. But otherwise I can't say I got much on the go this evening. Probably be around for chats or whatnot. Hope all you folks out there are feeling a bit peppier than I.
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Sleepless Nights
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Posted:Sep 20, 2017 11:12 pm
Last Updated:Apr 28, 2024 1:54 am
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While the sickness has been making the rounds through the house sleep has been super hard to come by. But bit by bit, things are returning to normal and a good night's rest without the use of Nyquil sounds like a great way to end my days off and get back to work..... HAHAHAHAHAHAHA! I zonked out for about a half hour this afternoon and another hour just before the bedtime and was still tired when I crawled into bed. 2 hours of tossing and turning and restlessness and my brain making plans and drawing up ideas and probably solving world hunger or something too... I give up. A good nights sleep is not in the cards for me tonight. So what's a guy to do? Browse the movie shelf, nothing. Check some articles online, boring. Read a book, trying to save my last new one for work. Don't want to clean anymore today and risk waking up others. Grab a coffee and go for a little drive to kill some time. No line on any late night booty call. Just a drive, listen to some tunes and let my mind wander as far as it wants. Or, just hop in the truck and head out to try and catch the last dancer or two at the bar. Nah. That coffee is sounding better and better.
It seems odd to me that I'm more about grabbing a late night cup of joe as opposed to being surrounded by titties, booze and drunk girls. Like my libido is in flux or something. I'm still pretty much as horny as ever, but not aroused by much at the moment. I'm definitely missing something. Maybe a change in perspective is coming/happening or maybe it already has and I'm just really slow on my own personal uptake. Meh, I'm sure it'll sort itself out sooner or later. As for right now, I need to put on some warm pants (because it's cold as fuck and snowing) and head on out and get myself a piping hot Timmies.
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Summer Breeze
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Posted:Aug 12, 2017 4:35 am
Last Updated:Apr 28, 2024 1:54 am
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This summer, as always in the frozen north, has been speeding along and not letting me get much done. There are still big plans to be done and places to go and people to see, and people to see more of. I've got a stack of books to read, games to play, and even fishing I'd like to do. I don't entirely mind not getting too much of that stuff done though. My time is better spent with the fam. Somewhat reconciled with the lady, which is good, really good actually. She does have my heart, but my penis is "up for grabs" as it were lol. Its a funny thing having an open relationship. I've never cheated on a partner, but been cheated on, and been the other man more times than I'd like to admit. So I've never really had much faith in monogamy. People default to that relationship type without thinking or being honest with themselves or their partner about what they're looking for. Though it is certainly fair to say that a great number of folks don't know what they're looking for in the first place. I was probably 23 or 24 when I really started to figure it out for myself. And some of those learning experiences came with some broken hearts and hurt feelings. And a good friend of mine kinda pointed out that EVERYONE goes through the same sorts of shit. I laugh at it now, but that poor bastard was right, and he was probably still trying to figure it out for himself at the time. I wonder if he ever did?
Anywho, my idea has been simple: talk to your partner early in the relationship and define it how the two of you want to define it. A big part of the issues with my lady has been that both of us, while both followers of that rule, ignored it. We both had so much stuff going on together and separately that we never had that talk, we never got around to setting up our own relationship. We have had time to set things up and change things as our lives change together, but its always hard to recover from stumbling over that first step.
And that is where my brain skips the rails onto a funny thought.
A once dear friend of mine got married this summer. I was not invited. I also didn't expect to be invited. She used to worship my penis and what I would do to her with it \8 >>!. LMAO, sounds mighty boastful even to me. This is a woman that cheated on every boyfriend and fiancé she had from age 17 to 31.... with me  . To my knowledge, she has been faithful to her new husband, and I applaud that. We have a lot of mutal friends and I've even been in random contact with her parents over the years (they still love me) so when I was back through Saskatchewan my friends all asked if I was staying for the wedding. I was not. I had to ask why nobody mentioned she was getting hitched to me, seems nobody was excited for this ceremony. In true form of the pack of assholes that we all are, they suggested I still get a card just so that they could see the reaction of them seeing my name there. One buddy offered to FaceTime me through the ceremony too. All mean and petty things that we did not do, but it was fun to laugh about though.
All in all, her wedding served as a grim? dim? subtle? ah, to hell with the adjective. It served as a reminder that things change. She and I were supposed to be one of those "forever" relationships. We had done and gone through so much together that it seemed impossible that we wouldn't be a apart of each others lives in one way or another. I don't see that being the case any longer though. We had a falling out some years ago and that has been that outside of us being in her sisters wedding party. That was an interesting night. For many reasons that have nothing to do with her, or me for that matter... just a bunch of drunken shenanigans 
All those many adventures that we slowly outgrow. Just as I have no interest in being outside a bar after last call, I also have no really interest in the reckless and stupid shit I used to do between last call and sunrise.... well, I might still have an interest in some of that stuff  LOL A buddy used to say, "there's no angels out at this time of day" as a way of justifying his debauchedness. It worked for him.... I suppose, last I saw that guy he had taken up with a woman with some kind of learning/developmental disorder that we caught eating wax covered, LIVE goldfish... whole. I guess the moral of that story (which I may tell at another time) is "you never can tell where amoral compass will take you." Well, after that lil joke and trip own memory lane, I will bid you all adieu.
Happy Hunting Folks!
Guy_S
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Strange days
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Posted:Aug 10, 2017 1:38 am
Last Updated:Apr 28, 2024 1:54 am
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So, I'm writing this on my phone, while standing outside the (now closed) bar and having a bit of a flash back to when I was 19. And I'm wondering what the fuck happened tonight to go so well yet so not. A good night out with good friends and good drinks and then, poof! Like a smoke bomb, everything was gone and I'm left nearly alone in the bar. The ride home to a cold bed does little to improve my mood. I miss having a willing sexual partner that didn't care about time or place. Well, drunkenness and an active libedo do not make for very good blogging. Oh, and the fact I'm in a cab and on my phone... That doesn't make anything better either.
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Quiet thoughts
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Posted:Jul 24, 2017 11:00 pm
Last Updated:Apr 28, 2024 1:54 am
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Somewhere in the back of our heads is a strange place filled with idle questions, doubt, bits of madness and moments of clarity. We all have this space. And we all find ourselves circling and darting in and out of it as we begin the search for sleep. All the "did I?", "should I?", "could I?" Questions as well as all the tangents that accompany them, like thinking in quantum mechanics. And, of course, all the "What if" doubts and questions that may or may not have any gravity at all. Everything in that space is strangely uniform in that sense. There are no big issues, no little ones, you'll debate the merits of different quilting patterns on toilet paper with the same concern as how you're going to cover your expenses through the next month. Distant memory is filtered and clear to match the day before, allowing a fresh perspective that may startle or calm you. It may prompt action that you hadn't even thought about before; a phone call, a trip, a change of direction or job. Most all of us ignore all of these strange and wonderful revelations and dismiss our own intuitive madness that actually helps sort out our structured daily thinking. We miss and ignore thousands of stimuli and pieces of information every day in the effort to remain focused on what we're doing or where we're going. I find the quiet madness offers a glimpse of the many little details that I have missed. Just like the quilting patterns on my toilet paper.
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Vaycay
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Posted:Jul 19, 2017 11:42 pm
Last Updated:Apr 28, 2024 1:54 am
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So the tour is in full swing and I'm reminded of a bit of poetry I found years ago in some dark corner online, "Two whole weeks with no masturbation!". Well, I'm only a week into my own family vacation, but I feel a lil tense at times. The lady is still a "no sex zone" and we are in the middle of nowhere. It'll be better tomorrow as we head back into civilization. Though this next leg of the trip is also the most trouble too. The lady and much of my family do not get along well. Hopefully the old man has some scotch kicking around.
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Sprung!?
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Posted:Jun 30, 2017 12:56 am
Last Updated:Apr 28, 2024 1:54 am
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It's rediculous to be this horny all the time. Something must be in the air. It exhausting having an erection for as much of the day as I have been lol. How do porn stars do it?! Still wanting to fulfill my hitchhiker fantasy, that's my summer goal.
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What to do?
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Posted:May 30, 2017 12:52 pm
Last Updated:Apr 28, 2024 1:54 am
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Well, it's been a hell of a month. , work, vehicles, and no extra fun  . Summer is here and so it is time to make summer plans! Road trips, camping, hot springs, and trying to stay cool without AC. The only down side is that with all the extra outside options and such, it means that finding time for a booty call or fling is a bit harder. People got lives to live and things to take care of, aside from getting off. Still, I'm looking forward to a couple stops this summer and the debauchery that is planned. Hope all of you have tons of fun lined up this summer, and maybe I'll see some of you out there
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Add it to the pile!
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Posted:Apr 19, 2017 5:05 pm
Last Updated:Apr 28, 2024 1:54 am
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Lol well... Last night got out of hand? A friend of mine made her interest in me known, but pulled up because of the "freshness" of the situation and her close proximity to it. She had more self restraint than I. That eroded over the night. I'm angry, horny, lonely, tense and craving a release of any kind. She is more interested in a relationship with me and I'm just not anywhere near that. So we force ourselves to stop the hot make out session and I go home. She's trying to get me to stay, but keep it PG. I can't take the tension in the room, I'm granite busting hard and blue balling...PG is not a thing for me. I told her that if I stay, I'm going to fuck the hell out of her...period. So I ran for the door. It's a strange and difficult thing to tell someone who wants you and wants to have a relationship with you, to give up on that even though it looks like it's possible. Because I'm not going to be mentally or emotionally available for that. I would just hurt her. Use her and hurt her. So there I was back at home, furiously jerking off to take the pressure off. Then twice more in the morning.... *sigh* I hope tonight is a little more sane. I don't know if I can handle the "emergency masturbation" scenario two nights in a row lol.
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