Cruel and unusual punishment
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Posted:Oct 23, 2019 5:26 am
Last Updated:Nov 23, 2019 11:38 pm
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I haven’t written anything for you all to read in a while so I figured I’d share this story from a few months ago
I did not find him here...
I placed an ad on craigslist saying that I wanted to braid hair and he answered this business arrangement went on for about a year with every meeting he insisted on sitting between my legs rather than the chair that I would always ask for him to grab so I could stand up I know what he wanted at least I thought I did and I wanted to let him have it, I thought
then one day he decided that he was going to cut his hair at least that’s what he told me but them he grew dreads longer than my forearm in a matter of three years .
His hair kept us attached.
I saw him again in passing as usual and thought to myself I wonder what that’s like... we exchanged numbers for old time sake and he invited me over ...when I showed up I went straight to the shower - playing no games and knowing why I was there
He instructed me to lay across his bed on my stomach and grabbed gloves and commenced to do a cavity search yeah guys you heard it right I let him do a cavity search of every cavity whatever he wanted Afterwards let him put me on my knees LOL to play dirty slut eats it all only he insisted on forcing me to beg to suck his dick and that I devoured his balls...
Now, i am a grown and extremely expressive person so a mere spanking and some musty nuts in my mouth is just enough to both arouse me piss me off and stir up ptsd(black corporal punishment issues)
I didn’t know whether to cum or run but the butt probing got super uncomfortable and intense (i was glad when he stopped-i hate anal entry but really liked him).
Im thinking i came over to really get all the great sex ive imagined for about 5 years... nope got my ass probed and abused with no reward - he didn’t even cum
Is it punishment for not waiting for the one I really want? (I know EXACTLY who it is and what cums when he’s around-ME... I DO... only this literal ass clown will never know lol)
Wtf was I thinking
Now my ass hurts (inside and out) and i’ve got blue puss GRRRRR
Never met anyone who was not actually interested in having sex beyond the games until then, hope I don’t find out I know too many more lol
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Why is your face up
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Posted:Aug 27, 2019 3:03 am
Last Updated:Aug 27, 2019 3:06 am
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Ok, so somehow the discretion has gone out the window...people find it cool to break protocol and not be discreet about being on a sex site... all of the sudden it’s more important for everyone to see how attractive they think their face is(compromising their future and in some instances securing a scandal later in the future because as horny and desperate (it’s SUPER desperate to be recognized for being here and a HORRIBLE look) as you were to not be specific about who would know who you are without a doubt, you’re not thinking about consequences.
Who wants someone with nothing to lose?
Not me
Don’t send me any messages or pictures lol
I’m rude about it and will clown you
Think of it like this: if i say it’s bad and I don’t like it, if you are the example of what im talking about do NOT approach me! I am just going to advise against this donkey behavior and block you, if you messed up with it once, you might try it again plus (mostly because you don’t see the problem with it until it bites you in the ass )
I am NOT here to teach you how not to lose everything but the Queen nurturer in me won’t let me let you mess up with no insight to fix it or warning of the possibility.
I just can’t deal with you too close
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Cuddles????
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Posted:Jun 21, 2019 9:34 am
Last Updated:Apr 19, 2024 7:25 pm
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We chat but I don’t learn anything about you beyond the simplest biography as you seem great at interviews and deflection lol but I’m feeling like a moment of attention and adventure (I suppose) so I answer AND REQUEST that you answer what you ask since it is obvious that I will not get too far beyond describing myself and I am not comfortable asking questions that exactly mirror yours and being redundant (having a moment of vulnerability, needed a listening ear and some litehearted chat)
All the while I noticed that whatever it takes for us to be able to connect did not happen, but I recognize that sometimes chemistry is visual and for me it never comes through a photograph. (I see each new form of communication as a more defined level to assess my attraction)
The day comes for us to meet I allow you to choose the location.... I end up lyfting to your area arriving there at the time that we agreed, yet waiting for you 45 minutes (I stayed in contact so that we could arrive there at the same time you seemed very very understanding as you were on an important call)
but it’s a public place so I don’t mind relaxing at the bar possibly having a couple of drinks and appetizers until you get there, making sure to pay for everything before you arrive that I ordered before your arrival.
Yet by the time you arrive I am actually hungry so I ask you if we were going to get a booth or if we were going to sit and talk at the bar (now, this question isn’t ever about anything except privacy to be able to synchronize our watches and thoughts with respect for one another and gauge how the date is going in private) you opt away from getting the booth to sit alone in privacy, as if im supposed to be leaving with you upon arrival, which was not the plan, telling me that you ONLY came out because I said that I wanted to meet in public. (this is true and it was mostly to see if you would behave exactly as you’re behaving right now, unwilling to actually know that I am indeed comfortable with you)
It is discomforting to be distanced when the ultimate goal is to be so close.
I could understand not wanting to hug and kiss and all that stuff which you seemed cool with doing...
You got shy and made it uncomfortably clear that I REALLY didn’t know you... cant be within close proximity to the disconnect
Let’s cuddle
Me: but we’ve never met
Ok meet me @“”
Hug kiss nope I don’t care if we sit alone, I don’t wanna eat i only came out because you wanted to meet in public
I like to get to know folks (not just be known by them so I’m not feeling awkward...ijs
Kudos to the universe for sending my long lost friend from all occasions whose name i can never remember, but whose face was my saving grace
Cuddling is my favorite thing.... but energy matters
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Who are you? Ghost
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Posted:Jun 10, 2019 8:19 am
Last Updated:Apr 19, 2024 7:25 pm
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You like me so much
You thought I would have to like you back simply because you said hi, how are you.... can we go out? ( notice this gives me nothing to go on to know whether or not I like you back doesn’t tell me anything about you and can be quite unnerving ) you don’t even have a picture. Now, don’t get me wrong I don’t want to see your face, I want to be able to let it linger... enjoying the personality of the person that’s chatting to me but first you must chat to me?
You may even conduct a full on interview and even with me asking you to answer the questions that you’re asking I’ll get no response but another question is sure to come.
This is the core of our interaction which makes me feel like a centerfold and not a person who is trying to leave their house and meet someone new... certainly not be touched by you....
In fact it’s creepy and in the age of the Internet it’s scary too.
I always say put me in the position of someone who genuinely care about and put that person in my position.... Would you change your approach? would you advise your mother your aunt your sister your cousin to go out with someone they have absolutely no idea who they are, without even a photograph to find a reference point? my answer is I think not... please don’t come at me with the creepiness, my answer is no every time
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One sided desire
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Posted:May 7, 2019 3:04 am
Last Updated:Dec 2, 2019 5:54 am
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Hello how are you, I wanna “meet up “.....
In my head:
Ummmm
Nope you don’t
You wanna touch the picture lol
See, in my head, I can see an entire conversation that did not happen, meanwhile the ONLY conclusion that I can see is this obvious fact.
Which would be cool, if the important things are attempted to be discussed, which they are not even pondered with my input.
You want to meet me, I have no shortage of reasons why yet I also have zero motivation to go outside my door or to care for a clue of who you are, but i am willing to converse, even though it never comes up because you are trying to figure out a date....
I don’t care who you are or what you want until I have a reason to...
I DO however have reasons to run:
1 You seem indiscreet (got a face up on the sex site)
2 You want to meet up, but with who? ( please don’t think that because my photograph is up that I’m assuming that you know who I am like you’re doing to me, I recognize that though a photo is worth a THOUSAND WORDS, some of them need to be volleyed in direct communication to insure
3 I am fully aware this place is not eHarmony, but i can have a great interaction in the realm of adventure I choose. (We all have our preferences and respect -for both you and me- goes a long long way)
Realizing that 99.999999 percent of people who hit me up here want what you want, what makes you the person who gets a yes? ( trust me it’s not because you looked at my picture and decided you wanted to meet me and told me, You have a grocery list of why you want to meet me I have no idea who you are )
I will just set that right there and let it marinate....
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Toss up
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Posted:Apr 22, 2019 4:02 am
Last Updated:Apr 24, 2019 1:13 am
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So i was given a free membership to be able to actually see who is contacting me... I also decided to take a trip out of the country to finally meet a “friend” who I’ve been chatting on this site for about 5 years... time difference and underground subways and of course service in the international space is a bit sketchy at times and i was gone nearly a week... I finally transferred this contact in my head to being a real person who “desired” touch and time that i was certain that I was the target of....
I was READY... for HIM... gor adventure...for the unparalleled attention his chat promised...
He gave me information on how to maximize my money and be mire at home in his city(all information I would have found on my own, but it was nice not having to ask) and when the time came to meet, he gave no response....
Literally went silent...
I am his friend on whatsapp and I even added him on Facebook.... yo get to another country and be ignored. Honestly all he needed to say was we’re pen pals I would have understood
Or even respond that he was busy and this wasn’t a good time... instead, silence as if I don’t exist.
Now, he used to be my top fan outbidding any and everyone else who came along so im confused and he retracted his presence
All without excuse
I think my plane ticket my lodging and my time deserve at least some sort of explanation, but We don’t see it the same....
He thinks that he knows me just because of some astrological mumbo-jumbo that he read and he left out the fact that I’m human so there’s way more to me than whatever he may have read whatever he’s been reading but anyway in my effort to chase down the elusive number one fan in the UK I lost my free membership because I’m either logging into the Internet or I’m actually trying to meet people and I didn’t want a new one...
I’d put in effort for that one lol
Btw you know who you are, we both know you’re going to read this..., SHAME on you!!!!
Good thing there’s so much more to your country than you, I’d want my money back
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High thoughts
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Posted:Apr 21, 2019 1:23 am
Last Updated:Nov 30, 2019 6:20 am
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So with a happy 420 I’ll start off this post
I did find a good dude who was less groggy than most
Wide open he was mindful in desire and pleasure
I held him as he doled out the real forever treasure
He’d approached with no knowledge of the value of actual connection
Disconnected the love from touch and affection
Devalued touch to swollen parts and erections
Despiritualized this frequency of expression
From the guilt that he feels from prior transgressions
I feel the same about what I’ve been through but this is my life no aggression
You never wanted me to be your wife
I saw poison you spewed coming down the line and severed the tie
Your judgment of me will not suffice
Congruent enough to understand yet understanding is not the plan for us
To remain in his presence I’d have to break the trust
Lie by omission to maintain my position as the newest edition of his latest commission could stay by tradition the one he’d envisioned to teach him symbolism
But how do I serve realness on a bed of lies?
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Deception through omission
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Posted:Feb 26, 2019 4:34 am
Last Updated:Apr 19, 2024 7:25 pm
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Jussie Smollet
Now, many things can be said about his name both good and bad, but here’s what I will say, I learned that more than ever I am not wrong for choosing to have a general idea of who is chatting before deciding if I should come out to meet, especially with internet chat buddies. Sometimes it’s easy to forget that you DON’T know the chatting on the other end which can leave you open to many harms. Not saying that I think you are dangerous, just knowing that I don’t know everything about everyone and I know less about many of the people who have written me expecting to link up, which is NOT the way I go about accepting a new friendship that is supposed to lead to a great bond. (Which could possibly take several tries lol)
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Craziness in a loop
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Posted:Feb 17, 2019 9:59 am
Last Updated:Apr 24, 2019 1:40 am
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So, we chat, meet and the meeting is gentle sexless and pressureless so as we depart from each other’s presence, I’m pondering possibilities....
Now I did not appear from thin air (not even on this site lol) so I come home and chat with my friends and people as usual on-site.
This is where you found me, I am grown and we’re not attached(one nice chat does not an attachment make)
You call me a
I blocked you
Somehow the site continues to send your messages to my inbox
I unblock you, it doesn’t send mine(I guess you blocked me too lol)
Why keep messaging me?
I just block you again
lol 😂
Please leave me alone im not her. 😂
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I wasn’t done
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Posted:Feb 6, 2019 2:03 am
Last Updated:Oct 23, 2019 5:32 am
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I said I wasn’t done
You laughed you think it’s funny
But the way that we touch says you don’t get it hunny
I bite you in places you didn’t know you’d like
Ain’t did it in years, but rode that dick like a bike
No sweat with you, its all vibes and smiles
I just want that again for many many many whiles
Cum right back now please...cuz those skills were on my list
And mama always told me great dick gets a kiss
Quickly walked away now it‘s YOU that I miss
As i lay back watching photos reminiscent of the bliss of your forever kiss
I said I wasn’t done
You flared those eyes
Filled my head like the place of all the whys and the goodbyes
Had my heart used my pussy as its disguise? (with friendship being the guise?)
Somehow lost sight of US in this conversation that cries
Disconnected from the joys of the touches we shared
Empty words have meaning, the moment should have been spared
For the day when you knew me and could say that you care
Forever kisses say you meant to keep me there...(this isn’t fair)
I said I wasn’t done, but I was done before I started...before we ever touched he went on autopilot...don’t see how the bodies bumped without it feeling retarded and now I’m sitting here reciting riddles brokenhearted (I miss my friend -hits “done)
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Doling out “satisfaction”
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Posted:Jan 13, 2019 1:43 pm
Last Updated:Jan 14, 2019 4:01 am
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So I do realize I’m on a sex site.....
I signed myself up
I took and chose all the photos I have on display myself
I even wrote edited proofread and posted the bio on the profile myself
I chose how I want to display myself and omitted how I do not.
If I choose to be open to you I do not put a ceiling on the possibility that the fun could multiply exponentially,
I invite it
This means insatiability is always a possibility as is complete composition
All of what I have said is how I feel and think
So
Should we hang out and become great friends just remember, you can only speak for you unless I ask you to speak for me too... I go to a lot of effort to express myself as I see fit, so that being said, I don’t need help being me.
Besides, I thought that would be what you like most about me....
my expression
If I say anything about wanting more, it’s because I do
If you have had enough of me(sexually) that’s cool but may not mean I have had enough
In fact, it says nothing of how I feel or what I may want... so...please
Do not take credit for satisfying me that I have not given to you, or part your mind to assume when I have had enough as if you’re a gift I should be ashamed of not being grateful for lol
Shut up and give what you promise....tenderness pressure intensity thorough exploration and endurance lol we can work out our differences on the rest , if there are any... lol
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Did I do that?
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Posted:Dec 21, 2018 12:37 pm
Last Updated:Dec 25, 2018 9:08 pm
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So, we’re chatting and it goes exactly like this
hi
how are you
horny
you’re sexy
I hard
horny
.....only even though I know why were here, wondering who this being is that is so thirsty and ravenous until he doesn’t even care to tell me who he is, only why he’s here (which is quite obvious because of the nature of the site)
now, for me this feels like someone ripped off the scab to a wound certainly unhealed. not because hurt, but because I feel violated by a stranger.
In this day, age and city, it pays to be smarter than horny.
I don’t know you, I’d like to... at least in SOME way besides you were yet another horndog who I blindly indulged out of stupidity or lol despair or selfish ravenous urges that were projected onto me and reflected at your request , lol none of that
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Can we be friends?
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Posted:Dec 4, 2018 12:11 am
Last Updated:Apr 19, 2024 7:25 pm
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I get it.
You have a limited number of messages that you’re allowed to send to people you’re interested in. I am grateful that you choose to send one of those limited messages to me. This says that you actually did me worthy of distracting yourself with and your time is limited therefore valuable. I’m truly excited that you took the time to see me....
That being said.....
I am also a real human being, like you. Whether I respond or not does not determine this.(If I’m not responding either I did not get your message or you said something that was so far out until I felt like there was no response for it) This means please approach with respect. Talk to me like you would speak to me if you met me in person we are supposed to be doing something that is closer than you would with a friend so simple cordiality should never be skipped. I like feeling friendly no matter where I am or who I’m talking to or what the subject is about to become if I don’t know you I don’t want to touch you
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