I want to give you a chance
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Posted:Dec 12, 2016 10:31 am
Last Updated:Apr 19, 2024 3:51 pm
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I got past the chatting, the mix-ups, the first date, the first everything so I'm sure you fit and quite nicely.
I'm holding my breath until I see you again...
Repeating reach step of the night dissecting your actions, it is beyond obvious that you don't belong here and I hope we can both escape this place together
For you, I'd delete numbers, forget memories, and wait patiently and I don't even know why... Only one meeting... Lol crazy to feel this way so soon... But my eyes are open and I'm still willing....
Or am I just in a trance at finding a good fellow that I find worthy of keeping?
Lol the things I'd like to be to you....
Feels good to be directly engaged in action and talk...
Even if you don't stay(which I hope you will) I am glad I met you, thank you for renewing my hope
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Posted:Dec 11, 2016 3:54 am
Last Updated:Apr 19, 2024 3:51 pm
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you hit me up on site because we've been silently watching one another for months and i'm feeling easy... i say yes
call out the place, a chain bar and i even am specific about the location...
i keep you posted on timing and my arrival sitting at the bar and i'm literally alone (i always pick places where i will be recognized as being who is sought by whomever i'm meeting ie: being the only black woman in the entire spot or in the place where i say i will be)
you text me that you've arrived and ask me where i am after i've texted you 10 minutes before telling you where i was(this annoys me, had you been where we agreed, your text would have been unnecessary since you'd have seen me- the only black woman/ only person at the bar inside the venue)
then it comes out....
you went to a different location than we agreed upon and lost my good attention with this "mistake"
i am not understanding of these kinds of faux pauxs, they say that you weren't actually talking to me at all... to agree to meet me and go where you want instead of where we agreed i'll be and suggest that i drive to you after i told you that i don't drive (in the rain)
what does this mean? you think nothing... i know different
dismissing what i said in the first place most likely means you'll not be the right one to play with... it's selfish in a selfless situation
we haven't even met and you've already created some issues
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Spoiled surprise
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Posted:Nov 27, 2016 3:52 pm
Last Updated:Dec 11, 2016 3:35 am
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So we're chatting,
you're honest..
You're married...
Not my thing, but I'm bored ... so we continue chatting and it goes to another app for more real time reaction since we are truly both enjoying the chat.
You have my number as I have yours.... I believe THIS is where I messed up... I trusted you... Why? Knowing your wife can't? Because for a second, I was an idiot.
You searched me out online using it knowing that our friendship was not to be so serious that a face was required at all in any capacity.
Very disrespectful, very unfair and a huge no no in a realm of veiled identities and discretion...
You want me to be quiet about how I know you, yet you can't just talk without disrespecting my privacy(and telling me about it)
You even think it's creepy what you did, but do not see far enough into the meaning of the act
(I suppose I should expect this from you because of how you are doing the rest of this sex site thing - your wife doesn't know she's in such a seedless marriage until you're seeking a surrogate...)
This place is one of discretion and secrets. If you won't keep mine, why should I keep yours? This is proof that is a safety risk... Be careful y'all... And I'm out!
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Happy Birthday
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Posted:Nov 21, 2016 3:52 am
Last Updated:Apr 19, 2024 3:51 pm
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i never meet people without a real connection at least in my head to bring me toward them...
but, it was your birthday and birthdays are holidays and you chose me in the sweetest of ways, not thinking i'd arrive...
i don't know what your expectations were beyond the obvious, but i knew i've not ever been a present... so i decided to be one to you
i arrive at your place and almost immediately let the tequila and clothes clash(liquor gets me too hot to stay dressed, like summer of 100 degrees, not horny) so i take off the clothes because i was swallowing the tequila like the perfect guest who you bought it for.....lol
you are the perfect host, not judging my partial nudity or encouraging anything, but trying to make me more comfy( too sweet)
but i came over to be a gift like in the doctor seuss books, with my own favors and fun in my bag, pulling out the bubble bath and relaxing scented liquids and running the tub for you to be spontaneously present in a different way with me...
we take a bubble bath, chuckle and you are eager to be touched but i just want to enjoy every second of being close to you mentally physically and and in a friendly way
the bath unlocks the tension of we just met 30 minutes ago and we retire to your bed where i never dry off...lol
and somehow, you made me not care that you don't give oral beyond the fact that it's your birthday and you should have what you want,
beyond the fact that receiving it and not returning the favor is extremely selfish,
beyond the fact that it makes the sex more intense when penetration is next on the menu(hope you read this and see that dental dams should be on your grocery list and pussy should be in your diet)
but i digress...lol, i truly enjoyed the night of smiles you and i shared and hope that your birthday was as much fun as you could imagine even though our night was nothing you'd dream of...lol
PS i know you're going to read this, inbox or text your responses(our business what we discuss) and know that i shared what i felt comfy with about it and only because you asked for a blog...
PSS i never write about who i plan to keep around and leave it posted publicly...
psss HAPPY BIRTHDAY... THANK YOU FOR MAKING ME SMILE ON YOUR BIRTHDAY!
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sick of the fraud
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Posted:Nov 21, 2016 3:28 am
Last Updated:Dec 6, 2016 4:47 am
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you write me with your face exposed...
i'm thinking, he must have nothing to lose, no family who'd be shocked by him being here, no job, nothing to do with or about his life
but i'm bored and horny and talk to you anyway... advising you of my thoughts on face pics on this site filled with people seeking discretion, you agree with me that it's not the best idea to be recognizable on the street from your face being on FriendFinder-x.
YOU PRESS OUR CONVERSATION TOWARDS MEETING.
i decide that it's cool to go ahead and do something different even though you're 40 miles drive away in each direction, ignoring my vampire rule(if he's far and willing to drive to me, something is most likely wrong with him - there are too many women between him and me for him to really be trying to commute to or for me... what's his malfunction that finding a woman doesn't work where he lives)
and you stand me up, no answer on your phone until the next day when you decide that you want to talk to me.
i am patient and give chances so i end up letting you do it again... twice!(thus this blog)
i don't want any more friends who lie for no reason, lol all my friends lie when it's an emergency and that fib will save a life or few...not just because it's Saturday and they are playing on the computer and phone..lol
let's be real here.... the men all complain about the women here not being real, lying and standing them up... but y'all are just like these women that you complain about, if not worse sometimes. we are at least honest enough to not answer if we feel like you approached us wrong or we just know we don't want you. to feel me out and schedule something then ignore me until you're ready to converse is worse than me simply ignoring you instead of cursing you out for bombing me with ridiculous photos of your flaccid dicks (the VERY WORST) and faces to know you whether i want to see it or not, BECAUSE YOU THINK I WANT TO SEE WHO I AM TALKING TO WHEN I HAVE NOT ASKED, OR DECIDED IF I WANT TO.
i know that i told you that i'd list your name in this, but... guess what?
YOU ARE NOT WORTHY OF ANY MENTION WHATSOEVER, your actions are not special therefore will not be magnified with a name....
hopefully you will disappear like you originally appeared and i will forget you soon enough...but i saw your face and i travel and i know that you'd approach me blindly if you saw me on the street even though i never showed you my face and i'll know who to excuse myself from!
STUPID.
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I don't matter when I'm honest
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Posted:Nov 14, 2016 4:22 pm
Last Updated:Apr 19, 2024 3:51 pm
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We are talking... Chat had reached beyond the website and we're pondering becoming tangible...
You are very busy work school and the like.. Doing great things and I think that's cool... Part of the reason I want to touch you....
We decide to link up... I changed the hour you decide not to meet as if my sliding schedule is really not a schedule(keep in mind that I was trying to wait for traffic to slow down so meeting wouldn't be a mission).
It's cool though we try again the next day...I can not and do not host... You say you're going to secure a spot and veer off to go back to your schedule.... I hit you back the meeting time to see where we're going to link up and you tell me you forgot me and that you want to make it up.... Lol I'm laughing at 2 consecutive days of standing me up.... You think I am upset at why.... I don't care what you do as long as you respect my time. I laugh at the irony of it all you get turned off because I tell you I'm laughing at the situation....I respect your path and don't want to change your life.... Just wanted to sit in your lap for a while and tell you what I want for Christmas until we both agree I should have whatever I want.... Lol you actually get upset and tell me that your future matters more than I do... Uncalled for, I didn't hit you up asking to change anything, you approached me and stood me up and expect to get no reaction... Lucky I didn't flip out about you wasting my time lol but seriously. I don't say yes that easily often.... It was a great embarrassment get ready twice and be told I was forgotten even once so I wish you the best in all things because that type of behavior will take you places..... Lol#polishup
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chill
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Posted:Nov 5, 2016 3:57 pm
Last Updated:Dec 6, 2016 4:50 am
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soo, we chat a bit and you figure out that i am not a bad catch, but as much as i understand YOU is a little as you understand ME...
who ever told you that you can know a person simply by watching them only gave you half the story...
i agree to meet you thinking we could fit nicely
you feel the same, only way more advanced in the notion, and i appreciate you keeping your affections to yourself.. we met on a sex site, but you're looking for love...AT FIRST SIGHT!
a companion, which i am well equipped to be and even thought for a second that i could be to you
so we meet and we talk and we hold hands and your mind takes you further than our matched understanding has delved into...
i felt it, but dismissed it since if you can hold your affections, i believe that you will talk to me to find out what you need to know.
i leave your presence, not allowing you to take me home, I don't want to be a bother and i don't think we are on that level (your intentions do not yield my loss of good sense)
you text me pressuring me to call you "if i am still interested, since you won't push" as i am busy handling business, get upset when i don't call you quickly even though you just left me not 30 minutes ago(i HATE PRESSURE LIKE THIS)
i return to FriendFinder-x, since i actually make friends here... real friends: who discuss life purpose, spirituality, love, life and who we are as higher beings.
but you don't know this, since your purpose is to find a woman and your approach has become a business deal where you think you purchased a new toy that should bow to your desire and seek to embody your ideas ...lol (you got the wrong woman)
you actually engage a conversation with me, asking if i'm chatting...(i would prefer that you chat with me as i can hold several conversations with different topics simultaneously, so i say yes to you) though i am actually writing a friend and waiting for their response via email... i am ready to talk to you, though at this point you've become a bit clingy and i get scared of that when i feel it coming and i run (i've only known you for real for less than 2 hours)
you have the audacity to get mad and dismiss me without a proper conversation that did not involve your intentions or complimenting me...
a life i can't live is one so boring, no realness... only the model of who you see me as and are trying to fit me into (i am divorced for a reason)
you needed to know nothing to be in a relationship with me?
assumptions are nothing to me, people assume things about me all the time.
I am as real, if not realer than they get.
I travel, but it is not where i got my wisdom.
I could fill a room with people who have had similar experiences but if i made them all into a checklist of criteria to allow them to stay, i'd be all alone and i am ok with that... my life has taught me to watch closer, don't rush and to make certain before you trust beyond simple friend...(earn it and let it be earned)
you walked away angry with yourself and that is the only person to be mad at... not for wanting to be with me like you're thinking right now, but because you never wanted me and therefore never gave me a chance....
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chill
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Posted:Nov 5, 2016 3:54 pm
Last Updated:Apr 19, 2024 3:51 pm
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so we chat a bit and you figure out that i am not a bad catch, but as much as i understand YOU is a little as you understand ME...
who ever told you that you can know a person simply by watching them only gave you half the story...
i agree to meet you thinking we could fit nicely
you feel the same, only way more advanced in the notion, and i appreciate you keeping your affections to yourself.. we met on a sex site, but you're looking for love...AT FIRST SIGHT!
a companion, which i am well equipped to be and even thought for a second that i could be to you
so we meet and we talk and we hold hands and your mind takes you further than our matched understanding has delved into...
i felt it, but dismissed it since if you can hold your affections, i believe that you will talk to me to find out what you need to know.
i leave your presence, not allowing you to take me home, I don't want to be a bother and i don't think we are on that level (your intentions do not yield my loss of good sense)
you text me pressuring me to call you "if i am still interested, since you won't push" as i am busy handling business, get upset when i don't call you quickly even though you just left me not 30 minutes ago(i HATE PRESSURE LIKE THIS)
i return to FriendFinder-x, since i actually make friends here... real friends: who discuss life purpose, spirituality, love, life and who we are as higher beings.
but you don't know this, since your purpose is to find a woman and your approach has become a business deal where you think you purchased a new toy that should bow to your desire and seek to embody your ideas ...lol (you got the wrong woman)
you actually engage a conversation with me, asking if i'm chatting...(i would prefer that you chat with me as i can hold several conversations with different topics simultaneously, so i say yes to you) though i am actually writing a friend and waiting for their response via email... i am ready to talk to you, though at this point you've become a bit clingy and i get scared of that when i feel it coming and i run (i've only known you for real for less than 2 hours)
you have the audacity to get mad and dismiss me without a proper conversation that did not involve your intentions or complimenting me...
a life i can't live is one so boring, no realness... only the model of who you see me as and are trying to fit me into (i am divorced for a reason)
you needed to know nothing to be in a relationship with me?
assumptions are nothing to me, people assume things about me all the time.
I am as real, if not realer than they get.
I travel, but it is not where i got my wisdom.
I could fill a room with people who have had similar experiences but if i made them all into a checklist of criteria to allow them to stay, i'd be all alone and i am ok with that... my life has taught me to watch closer, don't rush and to make certain before you trust beyond simple friend...(earn it and let it be earned)
you walked away angry with yourself and that is the only person to be mad at... not for wanting to be with me like you're thinking right now, but because you never wanted me and therefore never gave me a chance....
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you can't think i'm real?
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Posted:Oct 22, 2016 5:03 pm
Last Updated:Oct 22, 2016 5:15 pm
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we begin a chat
hellos happen
(i get excited, maybe i'm just silly to give the benefit of the doubt that i might get a conversation that i find cool enough to make a new friend... that's where i choose my pool of possibilities, just like if we met at Starbucks or Panera)
how are you may or may not happen but the response is either horny or hot or even swollen... (in my head, i'm like duh we're here for a reason)
the next thing i know i'm being invited to suck you off or have sex... like, ummm i'm fine...you?
lmao(i can do that now, but in the moment i may get slick with the comments because just because you may have looked at my photos a few times doesn't mean i'm all in on whatever your fantasy was before you spoke to me...honestly, i most likely didn't even check you out...so this feels mega abrasive)
if i was going to choose a man to be sexual with based solely on a penis or a thought of how enthused the participant would be based on how easily i can sit on their face, i would not even respond a lot of the time because i would have found him(those acts mean nothing and soon i'd be bored from looking and worn out from trying-not to mention the mental damage or possible disease)
so i am particular in my decisions on how i want to be approached, allowed to also desire the person who's writing me, touched-if you will...
no photos, because i don't want to know who you are until we know who we are(otherwise neither of us should care what the other person's face looks like until we are going to actually be face to face, my face will not make you know anything except how to recognize me on the street, lots of people do, but they don't know me like YOU may want to)
none of this makes me a waste of time, a prude or a man....i have been called all of these things when i am simply cautious and respect myself enough to know how i want my life to play out
if we don't fit, that's cool... if we do, we'll have tons of fun...lol ok rant over
can we at least be on the same page?
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Approaches
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Posted:Oct 9, 2016 5:50 am
Last Updated:Oct 23, 2016 7:53 pm
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So you want to chat, or talk...
I do too...
You either greet me (I like that), or you bomb a photo on me....
Ugh, dang do I DISLIKE this...
I am NOT a visual creature, nor am I ever looking to"hook up" or look at you without having these things understood:
I know where I am, it doesn't mean you can't at least feign decent respectful human behavior initially (simple realness, rather than disrespectful animalistic freedom is the biggest turn on as opposed to sending any photos at all.) We both know why we're here, now can we make it count?
Can you respect my sensual nature enough to not disrupt my vibe and allow me to WANT to see who's talking to me?
I never care what anyone looks like that speaks to me until after I have figured out that "there's someone I want to talk back to"....penis photos are not appreciated as a first contact...face pics are not even appreciated as a first contact.
I know what I like, I know what I want.... most specifically in this circumstance.
I like to unravel people from the inside and the internet is here to allow that to happen if only you will let it for me as well. (i appreciate you)
if you feel like showing somebody your penis, (very 3rd grade, do not ask me where I went to school) do not show me... if you feel like your face is going to make me want to meet you, miss me because I do not care what you look like I care who you are to and possibly with me.
Of course I meet people, it usually goes well, but they are not animals until it's time and we BOTH feel comfortable.
Until then, I'm blocking the cavemen.... Lol
Got wit? Got charm? Into exploration? Not over eager or trying to force your way in? Understand that you paid for the opportunity to find women that are willing and realize that you still have to be your self and not some person that's trying to force something because they paid for something or they misunderstand what this is all about which is respecting one another's sexuality and finding people who match?
Let's talk, I promise I don't bite... And I WILL truly see you and you will enjoy the time, because I am.
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Strange
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Posted:Sep 8, 2016 5:02 pm
Last Updated:Sep 9, 2016 4:35 am
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We give our hellos, I ask how you are. You say do you have ?
In my head I had an entire conversation... Lol like...
Errr? I had to scratch my neck like huh?
Your response is with a question. In the right instance, it holds weight and is not seen as interrogatory, but now is not the time I've described.
It wasn't even a question I would want to ask you at this point in the conversation so it's not only irrelevant but strange.... I ask you why you asked and why we're talking about that part(keep in mind, I have not forgotten that my question about your well being never got answered) and you get weirder by backing away from the conversation....
I try not to judge and am passionate and was very upset that you asked but was willing to know why, in case you are not the individual you are looking like right now
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Closing my eyes and jumping in!
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Posted:Sep 8, 2016 4:47 pm
Last Updated:Sep 9, 2016 4:40 am
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Ok, we really hit it off, no awkwardness...good conversation and somehow you're always here when I am....
We make plans to meet, I choose the place... You agree to come... Even decide to come early and have a meal without me
(Am i the only one getting weirded out here?)
We either have the same schedule, or you're watching for when I'm here and why would you agree to meet me at a restaurant and have a meal without me?
Then, through the flow of conversation, no pics are exchanged..... In either direction(Realizing that you are a man and by nature a visual creature, I know photos play a role but I prefer it that way, and am grateful that this time it didn't come up)
But you decide to google to find a photo of me anyway.... And start an impromptu guess who session....
I am a bit upset because I like the way we were supposed to actually meet and know that if you see my pic, it will take away from the genuineness of your reaction when we do meet.. So I ask you to stop
You concede.... Makes me smile
The interaction reminds me of a place I'd like to go...
Not sure what to think.... But I'm jumping in... New friends can be just as much fun as hump buddies.... Fun is what wins... After all, this is a journey right? Adventure is good for the spirit...
Lol
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Conversation....
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Posted:Sep 5, 2016 7:30 am
Last Updated:Apr 19, 2024 3:51 pm
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all interaction is a conversation of sorts. the transfer of medium is the test of how deeply a person seeks to communicate with you and how deep you will allow. realize this and know that though the eyes look like the mouth will say and the mouth sounds like the hands will feel and the hands feel like the arms would hold and the rest just kinda happens, when it is right. the key to a good conversation is making sure it is right. so make sure the eyes look like the mouth sounds and the sounds from the mouth and the walk they take when you are not there are the ones you can understand subscribe to and converse with constructively. however long it takes! otherwise, it will be on to the next conversation until the right words are spoken, the right walk is taken and the hugs can begin #itjustfeelsright
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