2022... How even
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Posted:Jan 13, 2022 7:33 am
Last Updated:Feb 6, 2022 4:14 am
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I'm still tryna get my head around 2020 and I'm requesting a refund on 2021.
Feck I turned 50 and didn't get to celebrate in any form.. Bummer!
Fully vaccinated back in August and kicked off 2022 with my Booster.
All instances no side effects. Enjoying small catch ups, and keeping masked up and regularly testing to make sure everyone I care about are safe.
Just peeking to holler out to ya'll have good 365 days trip around the sun and make the best of it being the best version of you.
Stay safe and educated...
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Crickey September Already
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Posted:Sep 4, 2021 1:18 am
Last Updated:Jan 17, 2022 5:28 am
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Since May and the surgery its been physio weekly since.
Few complications along the way. Just have keep at it till it is working again.
Fully vaccinated before my birthday and feeling a little better but still masked when I'm out about, I rather be safe than sorry.
Turned 50 with no party. The plan had been a solo trip Russia see some sights drink vodka and come home in one piece... That didn't happen.
ABBA dropped their first 2 songs from their newest album 38yrs later... I love the songs.
The Rona still mutating and getting deadlier... And toilet gurus and their my body my choice Only when its about masks and vaccines but your body I decide when its abortions contraception or general access to health care... Strange lot those kind.
2021 going by pretty much the blur 2020 was..
Stay safe and make good decisions.
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What did May bring?
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Posted:May 21, 2021 9:15 am
Last Updated:Oct 29, 2021 4:45 am
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Well surgery is what brought.
Wrist - my left and I am a southpaw 🤦🏻♀️
Torn ligament a cyst tissue and bone damage..
Don't ask.. Dumb reason how got this.
Hurt the wrist in Jan but tried conservative healing - splint and restricted movement.
Might have worked if I wasn't caregiver mom.
4mths pain and suffering I said ok Doc, you win.
Recuperation now then physio... Life has changed.
Can't take my wrist for granted anymore.
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Easter Greetings
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Posted:Apr 4, 2021 8:24 am
Last Updated:May 21, 2021 9:08 am
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Has 3months of the year just whizzed while we literally just passed 1 yr mark on the pandemic going global?
I am waiting on getting my vaccine. Pretty much still doing minimal social interactions as I gotta keep the people in my home safe.
Thankfully I am still employed. That IS a blessing given how many ppl have lost their jobs. Still juggling a bazillion things and surviving the best I can.
I don't come often anymore - there's no reason to but if we've spoken in the past and maybe been friends too - here's my good wishes for the rest of 2021 - let's hope somehow things get better for everyone.
Love and Peace
.pho
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CNY 2021... Here's to an Oxpicious year
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Posted:Feb 12, 2021 10:40 pm
Last Updated:Apr 4, 2021 8:20 am
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An year ago before Covid took over our lives in Malaysia I enjoyed so many Yee Sang gatherings lunches and dinners with colleagues good food and booze.
A year later, I have rarely left my house since March th other than hospital appointments or the odd errand requiring face face interaction.
My life is work, caring for mom, worrying abt in UK and keeping the spirits of here up and keeping her focused and motivated.
The new normal is just normal now.
Masked up, sanitisers in hand, short quick focused jaunts out, shower and laundry once home. Meeting only close family or friends in groups of less than 5 usually. Meeting strangers is zero, you don't know enough about their behaviour in these times engage with them when they wanna meet and exchange bodily fluids 😳😳
I dunno how the rest of you are holding up. I'm struggling stay upbeat but taken an habit of quiet reading, writing a little and photography on my mobile.
Waiting to get on the vaccine list coz I believe in science and vaccinations. If tge want to track me sure go ahead. My routine is so predictably boring, I'm sure I'd bore whoever too.
So anyways Xin Nian Kuai Le and Gong Xi Fa Chai everyone. May you always find your happy.
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Moving with the times
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Posted:Nov 8, 2020 3:26 am
Last Updated:Apr 18, 2021 6:42 am
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given I am a basic member and that's zero fun. Plus all the chatrooms are dead now coz just so many unsavoury characters causing drama ... every couple of months I peek in and am like damn!
Back in early 2000s this site was buzzing - made some really good friends here - lost many over the years as they've crossed over the rainbow.
I've been here long enough to realise how sad its become.
I don't even turn on my Respectable Cam anymore and chat with random folks about everything except sex and not tits or bits exposed - hence the respectable boring cam.
IM never works and now as a Basic member ya have to use points to answer anyone - WHAT???
So if you've been a long term friend you got my contact details off this site - and ya can reach me that way.
If you're someone trying to get to know me - I best be honest with you. You won't get pics or sex chats. So I won't waste your time. I don't do hook ups either so again I won't waste your time.
I mean we're adults right? We can be honest right?
Plus I am not into being catfished nor do I catfish ... I've a lot on my plate in the real world, when I come here I look to see anyone I know - catch up on news and mosey on back to my real life.
In the mean time - stay safe, mask up ... let's get through 2020 and hopefully 2021 will be a recovery path for everyone.
Love and Light
.pho
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It's a new dawn
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Posted:Nov 7, 2020 4:17 pm
Last Updated:Apr 25, 2024 7:0 am
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It's a new day
And I'm feeling good....
Dang wonder why that song is in my head this Sunday morning.
Perhaps we can hope for better thing all over the world.
I try real hard to remind myself daily that there's always a new dawn, new canvas to do my best and if I fail, dawn will come yet again with a new canvas to try again.
With so much hate and hurting it's probably a good approach to take.
With this pandemic year and losing so many precious ones without a chance to say goodbye, I wake up each dawn to start my mom's caregiving routine with a moment of gratitude that with my own health challenges and constant pain, I am still giving my best to my loved ones.
If I run out of life, I tried at least to be the best version of me.
Mask up stay safe ✌️
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It's November
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Posted:Nov 7, 2020 4:37 am
Last Updated:Nov 29, 2020 5:42 am
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of what has been globally a really shitty year but it just got marginally better *chuckling*... Hands out big boy underpants to the needy.
People want to ban me for writing.. Gosh with the cancel culture.
Where I am we're in Wave 3 coz shit head politicians decided playing backdoor coups was important during a pandemic. We'd got zero cases reported zero deaths nearly 2000 cases yesterday and a some deaths - and the genesis - ugly greedy politics.
The people have been masked following SOPs but like everywhere else once the politicians see their coffers emptying out they gotta try steal some more.
Europe is back in Lockdown, the US should have been long ago in a strict lockdown but it's the only country where masking is My Body I Decide but abortions are Govt decisions. ... Go figure the logic of that stance.
I removed and blocked a whole lot of folks who support taking away LGBTIQ rights, Women's rights, think that BLM is a joke, taking away healthcare from people who need it, giving the uber rich tax breaks and taxing people barely getting by and then have the audacity tell a POC that they find exotic and so interesting - dude if I were in your country you'd be taking my rights away. Ya know I paid nearly 10x in taxes equivalent than some clown who paid 750$
I look at this world and think - good grief where's the rest button.
As people we're so disengaged from empathy and caring - a majority have just become self centred hypocrites - and I've just slowly over the past months cuts more and more people off because they did not in anyway come across as human but rather heartless individuals.
Given the current pandemic state and becoz so many STILL insist on saying its a hoax - have the dead risen by any chance? No? Still stone cold dead then I am guessing this isn't a hoax at .
How who when where isn't the point anymore. What are you doing about it is the point.
As a single mom I'm still lucky have a job and a paycheck. I have not seen my 1st who is in the UK for a year now plans of summer together were shot coz the UK also cannot get its act together. I paid increased uni fees and she's working 2 jobs within her visa allowance to help me out with expenses whilst doing full time brown people hustle in uni and I'm worried sick as she's masked and often attacked verbally by people who think she's the problem not them. Go figure.
I think the world needs a little less selfish self-centredness and a big large dose of common sense. The year end is not going bring a miracle disappearance of this Covid 19 but if you do your part sensibly we could reign it in and control its spread a little better - but I have no real faith anyone else will do their part - in the meantime I mask and try stay clear of unnecessary exposure as a caregiver my mom and as a person who is immune challenged myself.
Take care ya'll ... I rarely pop in here anymore - too much of real life going on.
For those with a few working brain cells left - mask and keep safe- and good luck heading into 2021.
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Distancing in these Covid-19 times
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Posted:Mar 21, 2020 9:16 am
Last Updated:Nov 29, 2020 5:42 am
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It's almost like reading 1986 again or watching all those dystopian tech punk movies from the past as we see humanity in all its fragility.
People are afraid of death - fact
And because they are afraid - all rational thought and sense is lost.
In Malaysia today we have 8 deaths and 1183 active positive cases ... it's pandemonium - basic necessities are emptied off shelves.
For a people who generally wash our bums after taking a dump we went into toilet paper frenzy - why only they know.
Then we also have the heartless opportunists like that daft duck from the US hoarding all the sanitizers and trying to profit from it ending up having to give away for free - serves your cold heart right.
In Malaysia 3ply masks that sold for under RM20 now are commanding over RM200-340 a box and then we're not even sure if these are clean from the factory or the by product of greed where used disposed masks are being collected wiped ironed flat and repackaged - YAY great way to spread more of the virus.
So what you're seeing is sadly human race at its lowest ugliest point with Trump insisting on calling this virus Chinese when there's evidence now from the CDC that in fact Covid-19 was present in the US aka taken to be the 'common flu' so this virus isn't racist - you stop being racist too.
I've been on work from home this past week and coming week too to me other than the inconvenience of not being able to get fresh produce to cook, I'm happy to abide to bring this thing under control
But what do I see - aussies on the Sydney beaches, american youth defiantly celebrating spring, fanatics from every religion insisting on mass gatherings because God will protect us ....
Errrr God gave you a brain to think and realise going and spreading this virus isn't a smart thing that you say was for God - that's plain stupid.
So please as much as you folks on here may need to get laid, let's just take a bit of a cutback and stay safe.
2020 is looking like a turning point in defining our new reality of life on this planet.
Mother Nature on the other hand is healing herself, dolphins in the canals of Venice where waters are cleared up, the smog over China gone with blue skies.
Mother Nature is resilient on her own, humans are her biggest enemy coz we're stupid - don't be stupid be smart.
And whatever you do - DO NOT LISTEN TO TRUMP ... spread fake news like his fake tan and toupe!  - listen to science and fact - and please go easy on the toilet paper - trust me washing your butthole is a more pleasant experience.
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Suicide
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Posted:Mar 14, 2020 7:54 am
Last Updated:Apr 25, 2024 7:0 am
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My first experience of someone taking their own life and with the rest of us wondering what the hell happen here I was 17.
We'd all been the the school hall celebrating some school event or other, I remember turning around and seeing her there. After school we went off a friends house for lunch and all giggling and laughing came an abrupt halt when the phone call came saying she'd been found dead after she jumped off the th floor. An all As all rounder student gone in a blin
After that my have been speckled with untimely deaths of friends my age, senior and juniors from school.
Accidents, illnesses and yes suicides.
Several were closet LGBT found out and tormented and eventually ending their lives seemed the only escape from their pain. Most were either overdoses or they jumped to their deaths.
Today I found out a boy in Vermont, I used to karaoke online with, who had an alcohol problem and clinically depressed had shot himself and was found by his childhood friend. This friend reached out to me today, coz he knew I cared for the deceased as if he were my . When we talked he seemed to calm down and function and take his meds and then all of a sudden he fell off the grid and I tried to message or call but he'd make excuses.
Last November, whatever his demons were, he put a bullet through himself.
That's a first a death by gunshot, one I never expected to have happen to a someone I cared about - but it did and it happened in the US.
I'm 49 this year, and I have to tell you death still guts me especially unexpected deaths when someone takes their own life. And the feeling I have is this sense of failure that I was not able to be there for them in their darkest hours.
Sometimes I grow silent because I know constantly checking up on some people agitates them so you hope the countless times you've reminded them that you're just a call or ping away will make them use that and reach out, but often they don't and then I have to attend another untimely funeral and ask that whatever their demons are now no longer holding them hostage - they are finally free to be happy on the other side.
Take the time I tell myself and to you.
Make the time to reach out to people you care.
Tomorrow is illusive
We have only today now and here.
Rest in peace my from another mother Jer, I hope you're strumming your guitar and singing your songs.
I will miss you
.mom
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Another Passing
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Posted:Mar 14, 2020 7:38 am
Last Updated:Apr 25, 2024 7:0 am
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Another friend from FriendFinder-x has left too soon.
My Star Wars nerd friend - who I called Hans
Died of a heart attack at home age 52
No more messages with updates on all the Star Wars spins offs and no more late night dissection of what we thought of the series, the episode, the movies ...
And think your very last social media post before you left us was telling people who were heading ComicCon and taking their babies along dress them up as Baby Yoda from Mandalorian.
I laughed out loud reading that post.
2 days later your sister posts that you've left us.
Gonna miss your quirky humor
You virtual hugs whenever you think I'm having a bad day ...
Rest well my dear Hans, It is the way!
Much love your lil Ewo
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Promises
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Posted:Jan 29, 2020 7:33 am
Last Updated:Mar 1, 2020 6:19 am
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Men make a lot of them.
Hell they even make a lot of plausible proposals
None however have the intention make good on these promises and proposals.
All it takes is for respond in playful seriousness - they bolt, they become mute and blind. Ghosted *chuckle*
They might resurface from time time with some explanation or other. Some health issue, some tragedy, some family emergency .... etc etc etc ... I'll act like I believe you.
Tell you what .. it's a fuck you want - say it. I get say thank you but no can do.
You wonder why I don't believe a single member of your species. Bad eggs make it less likely that I'm so benevolent amuse you anymore.
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Rest in Peace Press Secretary
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Posted:Dec 22, 2019 5:05 am
Last Updated:Jan 3, 2020 6:21 am
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The thing about friends on this site is that it's harder and harder coming back to realise that people 've are friends via this shit ass site are disappearing and some of these people I'd really love to meet in person someday, have a pint and talk about everything under the sun.
If any of you have joined my webcam, then you'd be familiar with a chap I my Press Secretary helps answer all the rooster displayers.
Press Sec and me became friends and I've never met a kinder sweeter soul then him. When I was back in the sandpit really in the doldrums of life, Press Sec would cheer me up with messages outside this dump, check on me that I was still chugging along, even sent me a a set of cards, I'd been looking for forever as a gift not one pack but 2 ...
Every birthday every Christmas I can rest assured that Press Sec would me the Bear with the Cake with the corny-est of wishes. This year was no different.
Then my mom hasn't been feeling too well and I kinda fell off the social media radar - I've fallen off this radar long back - site's getting shittier and I can't even chat with anyone anymore without having to ...
And between Nov 27 and Dec 8 I lost 6 people one of them was Press Sec.
I was thinking of him and wondering how he was doing and messaged him on WhatzzzUp no sound - so I went to ping him on Zuckerbergs site ... and I see people posting memories of their times with him.
I was so bloody crushed. I found 2 days after he'd passed suddenly at age 49 in his home. I never got to meet him in person as we'd planned to someday in our midway point somewhere in Spain to gorge on food and sangrias and talk life like we always do.
It makes you realise how fragile life is ... I lost 2 classmates aged 48, I lost Press Sec age 49, I lost an aunt 83 and and uncle 93 and a cousin sister and her hubby both in their 50s in a freak accident.
2019, has been seemingly the clearing year, in total I've lost classmates to cancer, to accidents, to sudden death in their sleep all aged 48 - clearly the year of the boar has not been kind to us oinksters but its also not been kind to so many families around the world.
It has been one turbulent year full of bullshit governments and politicians and the people are the collateral damage.
In the Chinese zodiac we've finished 1 60yr cycle of the signs through the 5 elements.
2020 is the start of a fresh new cycle as the Rat prances in late January. The next 60 yrs if we make it that far is predicted to be turbulent but full of potential to be the opportunity to save our planet and create a better world - going by what we have as leaders today that seems impossible.
Yet I would like to believe as Press Sec always believed - tomorrow is a new day, let's try not to fuck it up with stupid.
Rest in Peace my dear dear dear Press Secretary, I will miss you so very much. But I believe someday we'll be sitting in Spain sipping sangrias.
Till then, watch over me.
To everyone else, be safe, stay healthy, make smart wise decisions and Seasons Greetings and may 2020 be better than this year in every way.
Love and light
Pho
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