Something about women's clothes is mind altering
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Posted:Apr 11, 2016 9:12 am
Last Updated:Apr 26, 2016 3:39 am
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I admit as a young the experimenting with other boys might have had something to do with me being who I am today but I think it is more about the women's clothes that has altered my mind. I am not sure exactly when but I know I was a young when for some reason I tried on a pair of nylons I found in my sisters room and remember the feeling I got when I tried them on. I have no clue as to what got me to do it but I did. I would put them on at night and then jerk off in them and did this for a couple years.
After I got my drivers license I started dating girls and didn't really think about it anymore and considered it a fade I went through. I went into the service and ended up getting married and having a family. I was in San Fran for a few days and long story short got seduced by a older black guy that talked me into going to his place and he ended up sucking me off and I stroked him some but that was it (this happened shortly after I was married.
While married I remember talking my wife into letting me try some panties on while we had sex and this is where I think it really started to change me. After we divorced I got out of the service and was in between girlfriends. I got horny as hell and went to the local adult store and when I was in the back I had a guy approach me with his hard cock out and I just sucked him off and he was talking dirty to me while I did it and it was such a turn on.
I went there a few times to be used by horny guys and love the feeling of submitting to them. Well I got another GF and stopped and when we split up I had several pairs of her panties and started wearing them when I started going back to the book store. The feeling of submitting to men and wearing panties really got me rock hard and even more eager to submit and please.
over the next 10 years and a few more GF's seemed every time I wasn't in a relationship I would turn to wearing women's clothes and submitting to men. Then I started to notice I was checking out women walking by but not because I was attracted to them but actually checking out the clothes they were wearing. Shortly afterwards I started to buy women's clothe lingerie and outer garments such as jeans, dresses, skirts and tops.
I would wear them around the house then I bought a couple cheaper wigs and stuffed my bras and started to buy makeup. I actually felt it was natural to me to wear these things. Well over the course of time I purged these things but only to come back to them and spend more money replacing what I had purged.
About 7 years ago after my last and final GF I started all over again and I now I have more women's underwear then men's and the men's underwear I do have are all microfiber and bikini style or thong style which I just wear to doctors appointments but other then that I wear panties 24/7.
I have stopped dressing these past couple years but mainly because I would just be by myself and that got boring not to mention expensive wasting makeup no one else would see. I have gone out driving dressed and even went into a few places dressed but not in the local town.
Anyways I stopped fully dressing but I do wear leggings and bras and t shirts around the house and even sun bathed in thongs or women's 2 piece swim suits. I do love the feeling of wearing women's clothes and I am at the point where it does not matter if I am dressed or not I love pleasing men. I do keep my body shaved smooth just like a women's body including my under arms because I love the feminine feeling it gives me. Do I care if people see my shaved legs or underarms, not at all and yes I am smooth all year long.
I have found I am extremely attracted to Trans women, shemales and even cross dressers that are smooth, not hairy guys dressed in lingerie and if I have the chance to date such a lady I would love to and would embrace it. I enjoy sex and it really doesn't matter if I am dressed or not I love submitting to others and love to please but lately it seems the urge is extremely strong to get back into dressing and serving both men and women as well as the third gender.
Well thanks for viewing my blog and in my opinion wearing women's clothes has altered my mind and the way I view things.
Feel free to comment and it really doesn't matter if comments are positive or negative as everyone has their own view and thoughts.
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Stamp
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Posted:Apr 1, 2016 7:11 am
Last Updated:May 23, 2016 3:10 am
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Okay I have been debating this for a long time now and being I am a total bottom and submissive in nature I have narrowed it down to 3 stamps, I have tried the temp tattoos but they don't last but a couple days and if someone is not here to help me put it on just right it is a bitch to do, Anyways I would like your opinions on which one would be more fitting being I am gay and do enjoy dressing from time to time so please help me out with this. Thanks.
Update 4/16/16
I had a custom made fairy stamp done and now looking to find a tattooist to do it, which may just be hard to do around this small town area
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Dressing
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Posted:Mar 17, 2016 6:04 am
Last Updated:Mar 18, 2016 5:35 am
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Recently I have been thinking of starting to dress again, not real good with makeup and my voice is not very fem but I have cross dressed on and off for some years now and have purged my things several times. Not really sure why but I do enjoy getting in touch with my fem side and the urge is over whelming at times.
Very hard finding others to dress with and seems most dressers are total bottoms also and whether I am dressed or not I am a bottom. I love wearing leggings around the house and I do wear panties 24/7 unless the guy I am meeting doesn't want me in panties then a do have a few male underwear but not many. I have gone out dressed but haven't in about 5 years.
Lately thou the urge to dress is extremely strong and I have ordered some new outfits and new makeup. The thing with dressing thou is if a guy wants me dressed it does take some time to get ready and when he comes over it is usually just for an hour maybe a little more then he is gone and I am still dressed with no where to go and makeup is pretty expensive to just wear for a couple hours. Even thou I can stay dressed while at home it just kind of sucks that there is no one to dress with and hang out.
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Gold members
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Posted:Feb 22, 2016 4:11 am
Last Updated:Mar 26, 2016 5:43 am
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I have a gold membership which when I first got it standard members could email me back if I emailed them, then it changed and now standard members can not read an email sent from a gold member. I just recently (today) upgraded so that standard members can view and contact me at an upgrade cost of 20 bucks for a month. I already had a year membership with a 6 month extension for free but I will not be getting the extra 6 months because the stipulation was I have to log in every day and post a monthly blog which I have not.
I figured I would try this standard members can contact me for a month but with not being able to use IM and having to pay the extra fee for standard members I know that when my membership expires at the end of June this year I will not be renewing my membership and FriendFinder-x will be loosing another member due to the changes FriendFinder-x has made over the past year.
I have been a member of FriendFinder-x for some time (even before the year membership) and with the past few months of not being able to use IM and standard members can no longer read emails sent to them and respond back I don't see where this site is getting any better. Try and contact customer service and that is a joke as they really don't read the issue you send and normally reply with a standard email about upgrading or to switch browsers in order to get IM to work even after I stated I do not want to change my browser or download fire fox or other junk to get IM to work, Standard reply is upgrade or download something else.
Seems this site is no longer fun or is a waste of money. Read the benefits of a gold member and it is very misleading now with stating be the first to view new members and to be able to contact other members, what it does not tell you is standard members cannot see your profile or read the email you sent unless they upgrade or the gold member upgrades to allow standard members to contact you. I just don't think this site is worth any money anymore not to mention all the fake profiles and players on here that have no intention of really meeting. Just stating my opinion of what I think of this site anymore.
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Horny All the time
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Posted:Feb 4, 2016 7:05 am
Last Updated:Feb 13, 2016 3:25 am
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I am not sure why but it seems I am horny all the time. I normally jerk off at least once a day and I play with my dildos a couple times a week. I feel as though my sex drive is about where it was when I was 16 but it sucks because of living in a small town area and most are afraid to meet for real time fun. I had a regular guy that liked to come over and have me suck his cock then fuck me but as much as I love sucking cock and bottoming and will do it pretty much anywhere (without going to jail) that regular cock would only be once every 3 to 4 weeks apart if not longer which I am looking for a regular cock to either just suck off or more at least once a week and 2 or 3 times would be even better.
Moving is not an option or I would move to a bigger city. I will be the first to admit I love sex and sucking cock and taking it in the ass and love being used but it just sucks ( and not in a good way ) that it's so hard to find a regular cock to please in my area.
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Traveling
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Posted:Jan 26, 2016 6:53 am
Last Updated:Jan 26, 2016 6:53 am
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Just a short post about traveling to meet. I have done this a couple dozen times and have been disappointed because after traveling a good distance in anticipation of meeting someone and not just for sex but to meet in person and chat over lunch or dinner and see where it goes from there. I have had more no shows then actual meets. which is a disappointment.
I think if someone is traveling any distance to meet, that at least meet with them and if there is no chemistry so be it but at least be considerate of the person and not have them drive for a hour or a few hours just to not show up. After all this is a hook up site right?
Just saying
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FriendFinder-x going down hill
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Posted:Dec 27, 2015 6:51 pm
Last Updated:Dec 28, 2015 6:57 am
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I have been a member for some time now and I have a gold membership until June 2016, Will I renew? I think it is not likely as the new rules were applied standard members can no long read emails if I try to contact them, instead now I would have to spend more money for them to be able to read and view my profile. Along with IM not working properly and lately I can't view all profiles as sometimes when I click to view one it goes to not a member join now page (although I am already a gold member). When contacting FriendFinder-x I always get a standard reply to upgrade or add another browser.
You would think you shouldn't have to change browsers and the replies make no sense as it is obvious they do not read the issues.
I sent an email about a month ago about the IM still not working for me and the new issue of not being able to view all profiles and stated in the email I am already a gold member and I do not want to change browsers so don't even mention changing the browser.
The reply I got was to upgrade to view profiles, change my browser to one they recommend and to update java (which is the most recent java already) So that reply (which isn't the first email I sent and got pretty much the same replies word for word) tells me they do not read emails from members and the customer service for this site really sucks and they just want your money and don't give a shit what problems the site has.
As for the other reason I probably won't renew is I have got flirts from some that when I contacted them stating I was confused as to why they flirted with me (both men and women) they stated they did not flirt or hot list me which means flirts and hot list go out randomly from FriendFinder-x. Seems a lot of profiles on here are fake and not really to many people really want to meet, just players or fake profiles and not just this site but friend finder, out personals and ALT (which are all in conjunction with FriendFinder-x)
I am sure I am not the only person with these issues as I have seen profiles complain their IM wasn't working as well as other complaints. With the amount of money spent on memberships from everyone here and the amount of money they make I would think they would be more personal with replies and wouldn't have as many issues with the sites they have. Just another money scamming dating site. With that said they won't be getting me to renew my membership.
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Want to come out
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Posted:Jun 13, 2015 6:56 am
Last Updated:Apr 24, 2024 1:53 am
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A couple years ago I finally admitted to myself that I am gay, not interested in women anymore and I love sucking cock and taking it up the ass. I am straight acting in public and just your typical guy next door type that by looking at me you would not think or know I was gay but I always wear panties 24/7 and when at home I also like wearing sports bras and nighties. Yes I love being submissive to men and love pleasing a man by worshipping his cock and letting him fuck me.
The thing that is driving me crazy is now that I admitted it to myself that I love cock and am gay I want to let others know but just don't know how to do it with being in a small town area and what seems to be closed minded people am afraid they will not be so accepting in knowing I am gay.
Anyone got any advice please feel free to let me know.
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Want to come out
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Posted:Jun 13, 2015 6:55 am
Last Updated:Apr 24, 2024 1:53 am
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A couple years ago I finally admitted to myself that I am gay, not interested in women anymore and I love sucking cock and taking it up the ass. I am straight acting in public and just your typical guy next door type that by looking at me you would not think or know I was gay but I always wear panties 24/7 and when at home I also like wearing sports bras and nighties. Yes I love being submissive to men and love pleasing a man by worshipping his cock and letting him fuck me.
The thing that is driving me crazy is now that I admitted it to myself that I love cock and am gay I want to let others know but just don't know how to do it with being in a small town area and what seems to be closed minded people am afraid they will not be so accepting in knowing I am gay.
Anyone got any advice please feel free to let me know.
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Guess I am gay
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Posted:Jun 9, 2015 3:50 am
Last Updated:Jun 11, 2015 6:31 am
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I guess I am gay being when I think about sex all I think about is sucking cocks and having my asspussy filled with cocks. When I run my errands I am always checking out guys and their crotches. If I go into a restroom and there is a guy standing at the next urinal I tried to catch a look at his cock without being to obvious. I dream about finding a guy that we do things together such as hunt, fish, golf or just hang out with but also when he wants a blowjob or feels like fucking that we can do that also. No real interest in women anymore and recently found out I only get hard when with a guy. My time on the net I am always checking out guys and even my background pictures on my laptop are of guys in sexy swim suits or underwear, so yeah I guess I am gay
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Finding gay and bi friends
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Posted:May 25, 2015 4:36 am
Last Updated:Jun 7, 2015 5:01 am
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Living in a small town area it seems hard to find gay or bi people to meet and I think it would be great if there was a place to go and hang out and just be yourself. Here it seems people are afraid to meet others for fear they will be ousted and it is sad that they think that way. I have tried to get a gathering together for a BBQ and just posted a ad on CL for this up coming Sunday. I am sure I will get a few replies but for them to actually come is another story.
They seem to be all excited about it but when it comes down to the wire they do not show. I think it would be fun and nice to meet others and just be yourself for a few hours and who knows maybe make some new friends or possibly find a lover. But it's not about hooking up but it is about finding new friends that you could just be yourself around when hanging out together, no judgment just friends and fun.
I realize that these are small towns Warren, Clarendon, Sheffield, Corry and Kane area and Jamestown could also be in the mix and seems these towns are very closed minded and force people to live a double life myself included. Don't get me wrong the people in these towns are generally nice people but they judge others and cause others to not be themselves. I think it would be nice to be able to hang out with friends that share the same interest and do not judge.
Bigger towns have gay/bi clubs and bars where you can go and meet new friends but there is no place around here to do that which I think sucks and not in a good way. I know I would enjoy meeting new people that I knew were gay or bi even if just to be friends and hang out.
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FWB Are hard to find
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Posted:Apr 17, 2015 8:57 am
Last Updated:Apr 18, 2015 3:39 am
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Once a normal turned bi and for the past few years I admitted to myself I am gay. I no longer have interest in women and just love pleasing a real man. I live in an area that has small towns around me and have been looking for friends with benefits and it seems because of being in a small town area it is hard to find. Whether it be craigslist or other hook up sites.
Reason I think it is hard is because at first we email back and forth for a short time and it seems no one wants to send a face picture (which I can understand with this day and age) but they always say what they want to do (and personally I think they are just fantasying and jerking off to what is said in the emails) but have no intentions of meeting for real.
In my opinion it is because they are afraid that if they do meet that they will know the person and their secret would be out. Well the way I see it is if we are actually going to meet (and I normally want to meet to suck them off or possibly be their bottom) we are there for the same reason.. a sexual encounter... So if their secret is out then so is mine.
Because they are afraid which I do not understand. If they put an ad on CL or other hook up sites why they really do not meet. I figure being we are there for the same thing I am not going to run around town telling everyone that the person is Bi or gay and the reason I know is because I was meeting them to suck them off or be their bottom bitch.
If by chance we do hook up and then on another day I run into them in a store or some place I am not going to say anything to their wife or who ever they are with that I sucked them off or let them fuck me. Unless they say hi to me I will not say a word to them. I would love to find a regular guy or 2 to suck off when they need a blow job or give them a quick piece of ass.
My first choice is a female with a nice cock and that loves to top but I know in this area there are none and seems the CD's in the area do not shave their bodies smooth which does not excite me. Never been into hairy women and that is what it would look like to me so sexually I am not interested in hairy guys in panties. I do prefer smoother men also but can handle having sex with a hairy guy.
I live in a pretty secluded area with very little if any traffic going by but that doesn't even help because they don't want to drive to my place. I would love it if I had a regular that would call or stop by for a quick blow job or (if given enough time to prep) a quick piece of ass and maybe even spend the night from time to time. But as the title says they are hard to find.
If there are any guys in my area looking for a submissive sissy bitch boi to use on a regular basis I do live alone and can host get a hold of me and we can chat a little and see if our schedules will work and go from there.
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