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Cacophonic Bleedenings
 
I've forgotten what sex is like. Funny that I keep a blog (or even a profile, I've given up on sex) on this site. Oh well, it's an outlet for my sob stories of heartbreak and to put what I'm up to musically into words for myself to read in plain English to help keep my focus in this rollercoaster of a life and I've got a few supportive and uplifting new friends who find it interesting. Love yaz!
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Remember me?
Posted:Sep 18, 2007 12:57 pm
Last Updated:Jul 14, 2009 3:57 pm
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It finally looks like I'll have more frequent access to the net, even though it's not on at home full time. So much time has passed, so much has happened, I won't go in depth right now but is anyone that I used to talk to here still around?
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Back to the drawing board
Posted:Jun 24, 2006 10:18 am
Last Updated:Sep 26, 2007 10:50 am
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Well it was fun while it lasted, I'm off home again tomorrow. So I'll be back to having to go visiting to get online, at least until we get our new Blue V house sorted out. I'll be sure to post as soon as my album's out, which is lookin' real close. I could explain but I'm sure I'll get the chance soon enough. For now I've got a fair bit to do packing down.
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It's a Long Way to the Top...
Posted:Jun 18, 2006 10:36 pm
Last Updated:Sep 25, 2006 11:57 pm
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OK, time for a positive post again, in the face of all obstacles. I've been mixing a recording of a band of some mates, they paid a studio to record it but can't afford to mix it. 'The Gentlemen's Club' are a weird bunch, bouncing between Sinatra style jazz and Death Metal. Great fun to mix though!

Next after that is a band I used to be the drummer for, I left planning to go to rehab, ended up doing a build your own computer course instead. Anyway, 'T.T. Ryder' are more of a roots Rock N' Roll band, A nice change from the Thrash Metal and Hardcore Punk that this town is so known for. So I guess I'm pretty busy mixing bands, it'd be nice if they were rich too.

I have a gig Saturday afternoon coming up, solo, acoustic, plugged through a little P.A. for a 5th birthday party. That'll be interesting, there's meant to be about a hundred people there, plenty of adults as well, so hopefully I won't be too out of place!

Anyway, just had to make up for the whining in my last post and keep battling on through the bullshit. One step at a time! My album's on its way!
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Let Me Out!
Posted:Jun 12, 2006 2:20 am
Last Updated:Jun 21, 2006 3:11 am
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As some of you know, a while back I stopped drinking. I lasted 3 months and became more of a recluse than I ever was. I got really fuckin' bored too, here in this little town where nothing happens and no one who could help (anyone with money) gives a fuck about helping the underground music scene. All my friends are drinkers, I just couldn't last.

The money I have each week is in the tens of dollars, when everything required to take steps in the music business costs hundreds to thousands and ideally tens to hundreds of thousands. Many talented people here, hold day jobs so they can afford the equipment but they have no time to hone their skills, their playing suffers. In contrast, I spend all my time on music and get nowhere because I haven't the money to take the steps forward.

Yes, my album's pretty much done (besides mastering & printing for which I have to borrow money) but even when it's completely finished, printing the pitiful amounts of copies that I can afford out of my own pocket, seems a pointless plight, many (especially older) cd players won't recognise burned discs and who am I really printing them for? I need to sell every copy just to break even, so I can't exactly send them away to record labels.

I'm sick of it and so frustrated and despondent I remain very depressed much of the time. No wonder I can't keep a girlfriend, so much so, I don't even look any more. Now winter is well and truly here, No wheels, I don't go anywhere. Fuck all of this! Why am I even alive?
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Happy Slayer Day!
Posted:Jun 5, 2006 4:06 pm
Last Updated:Oct 5, 2007 3:52 am
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Well that's what someone called it, makes sense, so I thought it would be a mandatory post day. I think I'll have to celebrate watching the 'Still Reigning' DVD. Speaking of DVDs, I've just been introduced to a bass player I can't believe I hadn't heard before. Victor Wooten is Fuckin' Phenomenal! And from a whole family of the freaks! I'm giving up music to study horticulture!

Well OK, maybe not. I guess there isn't a whole lot more to tell without going ridiculously in depth about the whole R N'R in my life. So here, at least is the album cover art. The band that plays my originals is named 'Hexensohn' after the album, named after Niccolo Paganini. Do a google if you want the details. I've got my Dad on bass and Blue V's bassist is the drummer and if Lee (cartoonist, hell guitarist) gets his A into G and buys an electric guitar and amp again, there'll be a forth member, otherwise we're 3pc, Hendrix style.

So if I don't manage to get signed to a label with the album, 'Missing Link' record shop in New Plymouth NZ will be the best bet finding a copy. It's a second-hand record shop that supports all the local bands & musicians. I recently found a 'Johnny McLaughlin Electric Guitarist' record that's packed with an all star cast of the great jazz freaks but I need to buy a turntable to hear it without visiting Dad. Damn!

Many hedonistic returns for this dubiously numbered day.
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A Small Victory
Posted:May 31, 2006 5:36 am
Last Updated:Jun 19, 2006 10:39 pm
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I finally finished all the recording and mixing of my solo album, and even all the graphics. Just as I was doing finishing touches, I visited my mate Lee who moved 2hrs drive away and he'd drawn yet a third cartoon of me! Cool, eh?

The album's got some catchy stuff but the main theme being diversity, there's touches of reggae, blues, soul, even thrash metal. Although it's jam packed with guitar, there's only one actual "Lead Break" on one of the 11 songs. I'm stoked, it sounds (and looks) AWESOME, even if I do say so myself. I just have to gather the $200 to master it with a professional mate of mine, get printing done and start burning copies off at home until I can afford a batch professionally replicated.

Now I'm house sitting for a mate who's on-line (the singer in Blue V), where there's a drum kit set up and drum microphones, so I can get to work on the next album, playing live drums. Mind you, I mixed my album well enough that the programmed drums sound real but overall, there's plenty of progess in the behind the scenes Rock N' Roll side of life, I've even got my rhythm section sorted to play my album set live.

Well, there's more to tell but I'll be online for the next 2 or 3 weeks and this post is getting long, so I'll catch up again soon.

ROCK ON!
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Egg Shells
Posted:Dec 22, 2005 7:20 pm
Last Updated:Jun 11, 2006 4:48 am
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I guess anyone who still comes to this blog must've realised I don't get much access to internet at the moment. I haven't forgotten you all but dem's da breaks. I can't even say when I will be able to get back on-line but I've been hangin' out to get back here and catch up.

Too much has happened for me to mention right now, I'll get there and hopefully have a good story for you, eventually. Bear with me, I'll be back!
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DETAILS!!!?
Posted:Nov 9, 2005 3:34 am
Last Updated:Jun 11, 2006 4:47 am
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Don't have time to explain. Finally settled into new pad, some dumb fuck sets fire to our building. All people and even tenants' belongings survived but the communal Kitchen, the hall and the empty appartment by the kitchen were gutted.
Tenants were in the building, there could've been deaths and it was a diversion so teenagers could raid the office building for petty cash!

I should be sorted with yet another new abode in a week or two.
FUCK!?#&$@* it keeps getting better!
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Feet on the Ground
Posted:Oct 26, 2005 4:48 am
Last Updated:Jun 11, 2006 4:44 am
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Heya All. I can't get too in depth here just yet, I still haven't sorted an ISP but I'm settled in my new pad and it's AWESOME!!!

The net shouldn't be too far away, so I'll get to answering your comments and visiting your blogs soon. At the moment though, I don't get on-line very often for very long, so short and sweet. I haven't forgotten you all. Back Soon...
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Anyone in Idaho...
Posted:Oct 3, 2005 7:55 am
Last Updated:Jun 11, 2006 4:43 am
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Pocatello, to be specific, I'm wondering what's happening with a friend of mine, buddhakana. I haven't heard from this lad for a while now, when we were emailing quite regularly, talking music, philosophy, general 'what's happening' sort of stuff.

I'm just hoping all is well with the kind-hearted lad and I'm anxious to hear his flute recordings he was embarking on when we last contacted. Who else knows this fella and how's he doin'?

Totally unrelated, besides my mate liking natural surroundings, this is another of the photos from my phone that came out looking not too bad of our mountain, Taranaki.
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Fresh Start
Posted:Oct 3, 2005 6:35 am
Last Updated:Jun 11, 2006 4:40 am
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Yay! It's lookin' like I got my home sorted out, to move into on Thursday. Living by myself for the first time, no one in my space, no one else's shit to deal with. Just me, my little home recording studio set-up (my computer and my guitars) and my own life to focus on.

I tried it once years ago but the rent took so much of my income, it didn't last once the phone and power got disconnected. This time around it's all under control.

So begins the healing process, finally! No distractions from getting fit and healthy, getting my carrer in action, with two months before the rhythm section get back from the south island. I'll have my next solo album well and truly done by then (maybe two of them), Blue V already have a set to get straight into gigging.

So the patience has been worth the struggle for years of small town underground Rock'N'Roll, all the behind the scenes work that no one sees are set to pay off massively. I think I sobered up just in time, it's been 10 weeks now. Fuck, what a rollercoaster it's been. At least I can't call it boring looking back, how ever frustrating it was to go through

I don't know quite how soon I'll be able to connect to the net but I'm addicted now, so I'm sure it won't be too long.

The photo I took of my guitar on my phone has ended up rather productive, now playing with it in paint shop pro, don't you think?
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Back On Track
Posted:Sep 29, 2005 9:44 am
Last Updated:Jun 11, 2006 4:35 am
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I know it's been a while since I last posted, a few of you know I've still been visiting blogs and commenting but I haven't been in the best frame of mind to add a post.

I was getting sick of the negativity that my posts seemed to be full of too much of the time and thinking 'Who the hell wants to read that dribble?'.

Well enough dribble and negativity, I think I'll save posting for when I've got something worth saying, unless I really need to offload. But I can see things only getting better from here on.

I think I've found my next home, I just hope I can sort out being on-line there. I'll post more when it's all worked out and I've settled in. And hopefully I won't have to move again for a long time, I'm getting real sick of it. This will be the sixth time in the last 12 months!

Anyway, more news to come soon, give me about a week, I think.
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Psycho Bitch
Posted:Sep 2, 2005 12:10 am
Last Updated:Jun 11, 2006 4:33 am
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I thought I was very considerate keeping my mood-swings to myself while withdrawing from alcohol. My flatmate often commented on how well I was doing, little did she know what I was saving her from. Now she's taken a job that has random drug tests and forced herself to quit a daily pot habit.

She was full on, would constantly smoke leaf if there was nothing better but she was an easy going human being during. Now she's just snapped and turned into a complete nutter bitch, getting aggro over the pettiest, stupidest little things. Nice of her to do me the same courtesy of keeping her shit to herself! Not even fucking slightly! Ever seen a 46 year old going on 2?

Her new job keeping her out of the house for the entire week still doesn't even make up for the ugly feeling of the fuck-wit's presence when she's home. $20/hr isn't worth what it's turned her into, I think she's refusing to admit what a complete idiot she turned into.

So because I can't be bothered wasting my energy blowing up at her to 'KEEP HER SHIT TO HERSELF!', I haven't been talking to her at all. It is irritating how she's looking so hard for the tiniest little thing to be shitty about.

Maybe I will end up having to cut her down to size, I don't envy her if she does push it that far, I'm very quck with words and can cut very deep. But if the spinner keeps this shit up, she may find herself in the psych ward, heavily sedated, I'll rip the poor dickhead's soul apart.

FUCK! I've got the shakes.
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