Life without loving and being loved. For me is a very hard long lonely. Then it ends up being a very empty life. Also makes it hard think because my heart of loneliness acts before my brain acts. Which cause me to say something that gets others upset or misunderstand what or whom I am say or do. For I have a hart that so much bigger than me. So there is no misunderstanding this phase tells all {"Am a lover not a fighter"}: Plus my heart of real love and respect for the many forms of Fantastic beautiful life that lives on this planet. It's not easy in anyway to give the up most LOVE and RESPECT to the most beautiful form of live: Which is the human female { to me that is }. Because all of you ladies are indervisals and have so many Feelings, thoughts, and ways of life. From time to time when I rush I end up screwing every up. Also I am always worry about saying and doing things wrong because I really don't want to harm anyone in anyway shape or form. SO IF I HAVE IN PASS OR PRESENT AM TRULY SO VERY SORRY; PLEASE FORGIVE ME.